Unsent Messages

you were my first love and you know that.so far u have been the only guy i ever loved and the only guy to ever really love me,i know i broke up with u months ago and any normal person would move on but i cant no matter how hard i try i still think about you when im going to bed at night,i still look for you in every person i talk to but no one is like u. and i hate that. when i say i still like u i dont think i mean u now tho. i mean its different ur different now and ya things happen and people change but its not the same.i think abt the old u the one who i feel asleep on the phone with every night,the one that kissed me in the hallway and told me he loved me and meant it. i miss that and u. u meant everything to me and i did u wrong which is something i look back on and think that what if i didnt do things to u would we still be together? idk.and i never will.but ya maybe next semester ill see u or well have class together and maybeee we can at least be close friends again.id give anything to be close to u again,u changed me and made me the person i am and u were there when i needed u the most and im forever grateful for that. okay i think thats it.