Unsent messages to TAYLOR
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 13, 2021, 7:25 pm UTC
I don’t think you understand how much you hurt me when you strung me along. All I did was try to be the best for you and it was never enough.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 13, 2021, 4:35 am UTC
AHHHHHH HEHEHEHE IM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU! When I’m with you, I laugh and smile more than I ever do without you. And it’s from pure genuine happiness. I love you so much and I hope I can show you. I want to spend the rest of my life showing you.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 11, 2021, 9:38 am UTC
ur a bitch but u actually make my days worthwhile. ur like a light. fuck u for being so cool and pretty
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 11, 2021, 6:28 am UTC
I miss you so much, the way we could make each other laugh in a place that was slowly Destroying me. The way that I always got so lost in your ocean blue eyes. I remember the time we just stood in the rain and talked. How you made sure to save me a fresh strawberry. The way that when you were there everyone else disappeared. I remember the time you tried to sit with me during a break and I was so nervous so I barely even looked up but you just sat there and told me about your new braces. I also remember the next spring when we were in the rain I realized they were gone and you laughed about how long it took me to realize; Even though your had an amazing smile I was always too lost in your eyes. I remember the last time we saw each other and time stoped the minute we touched but the reality of me leaving brought me back. I know you never felt the same way but I know you felt the spark that time. I told you I missed you and you said we would hang out but we never did. I miss you and I know you don’t miss me.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 10, 2021, 5:07 am UTC
i'm sorry for hurting you, as many times as i did. we were never right for each other and i wish we would have been.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 9, 2021, 9:24 pm UTC
i miss the way you used to look at me like you saw the universe in my eyes. now we’re back to strangers again. tell me, what’d we do all that for? just to end up back where we started?
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 7, 2021, 9:30 am UTC
Hey, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for ruining such a great friendship. I’m sorry for not being there when you truly needed a someone. I’m sorry for trying a second time. And I’m sorry that I came back into your life a third time only to be too afraid to message you. I want you to know that I miss your friendship, and I know it won’t be the same but I would love to go back and be an actual friend to you. A friend you deserve.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 6, 2021, 6:53 pm UTC
I've loved you since the first day I met you. You make me feel so happy and wanted. I don't regret anything I've ever done with you
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 5, 2021, 2:27 pm UTC
The fact that you choose him over me and thought that was okay, you changed so much as a person and aren't the same when we were younger.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 5, 2021, 10:51 am UTC
honestly, i don’t give a fuck what your doing anymore. and that feels amazing. i’m so done with you. you will never affect me again, i promise that.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 2, 2021, 3:25 am UTC
hey i wish our friendship worked out. we got so close in such a short time. i hope you’re doing okay and even though we aren’t friends, i still worry about you.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: January 2, 2021, 12:27 am UTC
From:Sterling I seriously do not like you. Idk I DID, but you've been really annoying for the past few weeks and super clingy. I like the attention and I'm playing u on LMAO. You're probably thinking "This isn't MY Sterling" or go confront me about this. I'm just gonna say I never wrote this but in reality, I needed some place to vent. So.... sorry if you see this but please leave me the fuck alone Taylor. Thanks
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 31, 2020, 9:04 pm UTC
I never loved you. Not even the way you made me feel. Not even the idea of you. The only thing i loved about you was that you loved me.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 31, 2020, 7:37 pm UTC
please text me. why did our friendship have to go to waste? i miss you. can we start over? you deserve happiness. stay healthy, you got this. i love you.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 31, 2020, 2:12 pm UTC
This isn't anything bad but I might've ended my life if I hadn't talked to befreinded you when I did. Thank you
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 19, 2020, 12:22 am UTC
please never touch me again. i love you, but i’m done choosing you. please forget about me, it wasn’t your fault and we’re both kids, but that doesn’t mean it didn’t shatter me. i’m not mad anymore, just please be happy, i don’t want you to feel guilty. it was for the best anyway. you’re not a bad person, you’re human and i adore you more than words can say, i’m sorry i could never tell you that when we still talked. i’m so happy you were in my life despite how it ended and i’m so fucking proud of you for who you are. you’re gorgeous inside and out and you deserve the world. i am unconditionally happy that you exist.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 17, 2020, 6:27 am UTC
we broke up 6 months ago and now you're getting married. you look so happy and it makes me happy. you deserve it. still wondering if you have my clothes you never gave back :( I miss them.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 16, 2020, 8:29 am UTC
i feel like u only talk to me and flirt with me for attention and i hate it. the worst part is i fell in love with u :
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 14, 2020, 4:40 am UTC
You were my first everything. You made everything seem so easy until so many years later you end up realizing that it wasn't. It was hard, and you made everything so hard. I hated myself everyday for not being able to be enough for you until I finally gave you what you wanted and yet I figured that would solve everything. But it didn't. If you asked me if I still loved you id probably say absolutely not, how could I. Yet despite everything part of me does.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 12, 2020, 10:52 pm UTC
i guess i realized i loved you when i felt a pain in my chest when you fell asleep on the phone with her instead of me.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 11, 2020, 11:08 am UTC
I need you to let me know if I should wait or not. I want you but I domt want to stick around for someone who doesn’t care about me
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 11, 2020, 1:11 am UTC
For you always being there for me, and still saying i dont deserve you, i just want you to know, i love you and I'M the one who doesnt deserve YOU.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 11, 2020, 1:08 am UTC
for you to say that your not good enough for me, and i call you things that i really dont mean, i should be the one who doesnt deserve, you.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 7, 2020, 8:23 pm UTC
youll never see this but i miss you. i miss you so fucking much and you left me because your bf told you to. what hurts the most is the fact you listened to him. i thought we were bsfs. fuck.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 7, 2020, 7:23 pm UTC
I know your favorite color is red so hopefully you know who this is. I regret everything I did to you. You’re all I think about everyday. I wish I could just have one more chance. I could prove to you that I just want you. But I know that’s not possible now. That night in the car I realized you’re still my person and that won’t change. I’ll always love and miss you bub
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 7, 2020, 6:34 pm UTC
you have such a pure heart and i love seeing how fiercely you love and support those around you. you have an effortless beauty to you that i admire
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 6, 2020, 7:07 pm UTC
All i had to do was tell you about that bus ticket and i would have been in your arms right now. But i knew she was better for you than i was.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: December 2, 2020, 2:12 am UTC
please don’t leave me for him, taylor your my best friend and ever since he’s been in your life you haven’t talked to me as much, we don’t talk at all actually and when we do it’s very quiet
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 26, 2020, 10:44 am UTC
I still remember the moment. You and I in your apartment in the UK, watching tv. You had one of your cats on your lap, and I just looked at you and I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. But I never said anything, and now you’re dating him. It hurts.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 23, 2020, 8:39 am UTC
i never deserved you. you were to good for me. i’m sorry for hurting you. that was the last thing on my mind.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 22, 2020, 11:18 pm UTC
i hate u so fucking much. i'd slap u if i ever saw u again, but right after i'd break down in ur arms and never want to leave again. even tho u broke me to the point i could no longer breath, i'd still do anything to be with u. you left a giant gaping hole inside of me that will never be able to ever be filled again. you left because ur selfish bitch. i needed you the most and u left with no reason. i hate the fact u don't care about me anymore but if u were to call in my direction i would come back running to u.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 22, 2020, 8:35 am UTC
i’m sorry i hurt you. i really never did deserve you. my walls were so high and you tried to tear them done. but i wouldn’t let you. and for that, i’m so sorry.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 21, 2020, 1:56 am UTC
I wish you would confess your real feelings to me, and if I end up giving it to you I hope you're not using me for my body...
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:46 am UTC
i’m sorry. it hurts me everyday knowing how bad i hurt u in the moment ik ur probably over it by now.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 18, 2020, 4:08 pm UTC
wow how the times have changed. you still have complete control over me ya know? i always think and worry about you. we were so close. i loved you. you gave up on me. for her. i understand trust me. but it sacrificed everything. you were my best friend. i cant even describe how good you made me feel. but now? i cant even look you in the eyes. i have to put my head down when i get a glimpse of you in the halls. but i cant escape you. everyone talks about you. it’s driving me crazy. you completely ruined me. the sad part?? you have no clue.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 18, 2020, 5:37 am UTC
you’re a fucking bitch and a fucking liar. thanks for making me feel like shit, it’s been 4 months and i still haven’t gotten over it. i have a better person in my life tho, and she makes me happy.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 18, 2020, 4:59 am UTC
I chose green because it's your favorite color...I miss you and hope you're genuinely happy. I still find myself thinking about the time you surprised me with art supplies, it was one of the nicest & most thoughtful things any guys ever done for me.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 18, 2020, 2:46 am UTC
i’m still trying to figure things out but i think i might like u. i don’t know if it’s platonic or not but i’m always thinking about u
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 17, 2020, 8:38 pm UTC
ill forever love you tay but you're turning into a toxic friend and I think our friendship has run its course
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 17, 2020, 2:42 am UTC
you hurt me over and over again but i let you do it because i thought we were bestfriends but all the while you were replacing me.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 16, 2020, 3:57 am UTC
You woke a love in me that I didn’t think existed. I wish you loved me like I love you. I’ll love you for the rest of my life.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: November 9, 2020, 6:11 am UTC
I don’t think I will ever get over you. I want you back, and I wish you wanted me back too. But you’re different now.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: October 28, 2020, 4:17 am UTC
I wish you had chose me over him. I miss you and your smile. The way that it could light up any room. If you ever need me I’ll be here for you to fall back onto obviously. I should be well over you by now but how could I ever possibly get over a girl like you. 2 years later and I still sit here imagining every scenerio with you in it. Snap me or text me if you ever decide you want me back in your life
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: October 27, 2020, 2:47 pm UTC
you are my will to live and the light of my whole life. I dont know what I would do without you and I just want you to know that I do love you. You are the crush I always talk about.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: October 25, 2020, 2:47 am UTC
Sometimes I wonder if I’m good enough but I guess I’ll never know. I wish you told me you loved me when you did. Everything would be different now
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: October 24, 2020, 4:33 am UTC
thank you for being you. im so grateful for you i dont show it a lot but i truly am so happy to have you. youre worth a lot, i cant wait for the day you realize that and see yourself the way i see you. theres nothing wrong with you at all. like nothing. youre worth so much. istg sometimes i lay back and thank god for having you. it makes me smile that you are someone who truly cares. i dont care what happens in my life as long as i have you, i know im gonna be fine. thank you i love you.
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: October 22, 2020, 12:59 am UTC
you’re genuinely such a good person ily n i would do anything for u thank u 4 u like seriously mwah even tho i really feel like im annoying u but yea ily
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: October 21, 2020, 10:02 pm UTC
you’re genuinely such a good person ily n i would do anything for u thank u 4 u like seriously mwah even tho i really feel like im annoying u but yea ily
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: October 21, 2020, 10:00 pm UTC
i fucking love you like ?? ty a lot for being alive. your existence is really pretty you’re so pretty just ty ty ty ily bye
From: ABC
To: taylor
Date: October 21, 2020, 6:02 am UTC
okay to clarify, you werent my first love... you were always a friend but here i am anyways cuz I needed to say some things. I know its been 2 years since we even talked and i know we were no longer friends then but i still think about you sometimes. I sometimes want to reach out just to see how you're doing but I dont because i know you dont want to hear from me and all i remember is the hurt you caused me. It was hard losing my best friend... even harder to realize that while you may have been mine i was never your best friend. I was the stand in for someone else until they came back. It hurts. Im doing well though, better than youve ever seen. And the best part is that you would hate the things ive chosen for myself, bc you never wanted me to be myself and now i am. And I'm so at peace. So yeah. Have a nice life...
