If you never really loved me, why did you act like you did? I gave you everything and you gave me false hope

I know youre dealing with things, but I'll be here for you. You've impacted my life more than you know and I honestly consider you one of my best friends. even if nothing ever happens between us, I'll be here to support you until you can be happy.

I know it's been three years but I still think about you all the time. I wish I would have told you I loved you.

I’m sorry that I couldn’t fulfill your wishes of staying with me forever, we wanted different things.

You came into my life at the weirdest of times, and flipped it upside down. We had an instant connection in more ways than one. You left faster than I had the chance to tell you and now you are back again but leaving once more. Maybe this is all in my head, or maybe it's not. Either way, things are complicated. In another life maybe; another place, another time.

Thanks for being my best friend and penpal all those years. I'm happy we went our separate ways and I'm always cheering for you from afar.

you probably have no idea how much I really love you. I don’t know how to say it, but I hope you know it’s a fucking lot. I hope I’ll be there when you find a new name, I hope you’ll want me. I hope we get our coming of age movie.

i don't know what it is about you, but it's you. You're too far away though and I don't think you feel the same, but it will be me and you.

i loved you so so much. i thought you did too. you messed around with me because you knew i was wrapped around your finger. fuck you. you broke me. its been almost a year. you made me get an ed because all you did was body shame me. you cheated on me SIX times. you are so messed up. i hate you. so much. but i still miss you even though i shouldnt. and i still love you. i wish we could have worked. im waiting. im waiting for you to come back even though it will hurt me. but are you even gonna come back this time? its been almost two months since you left the last time. are we over? id rather have you come back and hurt me multiple more times than you never coming back. id do anything to be with you some more time. id do anything just to hear your voice. you really messed up. but im still forgiving you even though i shouldnt. maybe i should say goodbye and block you. idk if i could even force myself to do that. i love you and always will.

not a day goes by where you dont cross my mind. i worry about you and wonder how you have been. but i need to move on for me. i always put you first and that was my mistake. i relied on to make me happy and when you did it was great. but we had more bad than good. ill love you forever and i hope we both grow into better people. maybe one day we will cross paths again and our story will be different. love u forever bub.

i have no idea why i am so attached but i wish i would have said yes when you asked if i liked you, now i am sitting here months later still crying over you.

I love you but I'm scared to tell you because I've never told anyone that. I picture being with you forever but I don't know how you feel because you never open up. You make me smile more than words can describe. You make me laugh even when I'm crying and I've never met anyone else to get me to do that. I'm scared that one day you're going to leave me to achieve your goals and I know that's a selfish to say but that's how much I care about you. I'm still shocked to this day that the guy I liked actually liked me back. I asked you out twice and both times you rejected me. But I don't care about that anymore because I have you. You're the first guy I actually introduced to my parents. I was so scared but my nerves just went away as soon as you walked in the door. You give me butterflies every time I'm with you and everyday is a new adventure. I love you and hope one day I'll be brave enough to send this to you.

i'm really sorry I feel like a shitty person for what I did to you. i want you to know I wish you the best and you deserve better.

I miss the friendship we had. I'm sad I ruined it. There's a whole past we will never recover and a future that won't ever start.

you are my first love still yes I have other boyfriends but with you it’s just different. Everything about you is. And I know you aren’t the best kid and my mom doesn’t think your good for me nothing is going to change the face of how much I love and care for you. I see a future with you and I don’t think anything could change that. I love you so much it’s crazy I’m just afraid you’re going to get into your head about things. Please never leave me I don’t know how I would cope or if I could find someone to love again because I think you are the one for me. I love you tanner so much.

i really cared about you. i still do. why did you have to hurt me, is she worth it? does she ask you how your day was or how you're really feeling? is she funnier or nicer or more caring than me? i dont know anymore. i miss talking to you

We were to young to have talked about forever. I think deep down I knew we wouldn't last. You were to controlling and jealous, while I just wanted to be free and live in ways you never let me.

you’ll be back. i didn’t deserve what you did to me. i hope you get whats coming and realize what you left behind.

We weren’t an extraordinary love story or anything and I doubt you think of me but I miss you sometimes.

You made me happy, your were my whole world, then my world turned upside down, you turned gray and slowly all the smiles turned to tears.

Dude I fucking love u but all u do is drink and smoke and I’m the only one putting effort in this relationship. Fuck u. I’m losing myself again. I fell for u and I shattered.
~ur unknown lover

you suck so bad and i want to say you look like a monkey and when you died your hair gray you look like my dead grandpa

i’m happy you found love again. it’s something i’ll never be able to do. in my mind, ur still my person. even if we don’t talk.

I hate you.But I love you.We were in love.Fuck.I can’t function without you.Please come back what we had was made for movie screens.Please tanner.I need you.Your favorite color was orange..

You taught me what love doesn’t look like..you messed me up so bad it still hurts. I can’t stand you.

you keep leaving and coming back into my life and i always let you come back, no matter the countless times i tell myself i wont. i wonder if you or things in general would be different if it weren't for all that happened with the girl before. would you have been different? also why am i not enough for you? i try the best i can it just never seems to be enough. there is always someone better. and i shouldn't left you put me through that pain again and again. but what can i do. i wish i could get through to you. i know you're a good person i just wish i could make you realize how you constantly do not need someone by your side to feel better about yourself. i wish you would listen to me. this color reminds me of you. to me gray represents a sense of purity. but also loss of innocence, which,yes, are two contradicting statements but that's how i think of it. because i feel like your a pure soul who got messed up at a young age. a vulnerable age, a age where you only craved love and affection, but instead got manipulated. ugh im writing this and want to backspace and delete this whole thing bc i don't want a single person or myself to know i wrote this about you, cuz you don't deserve my time or energy. but i won't delete it. i wanna look back at this and realize how much i've grown. so see you next time ig. bye t.

god i miss you, please just come back i promise i changed i just need you i need us. it’s always been you and it’ll forever be you

I love you, I want to spend the rest of my life with you but I'm scared you won't feel the same way later in life

i miss you so bad. even though you hurt me i would do anything to get you to come back. you were and still are my first love. i dont know what i did wrong. why wasnt i enough for you? why did you not want me anymore? and if you dont want me why do you keep running back to me then cheat and leave me? i didnt do anything to deserve that. you just know you have me wrapped around your finger so everytime your bored you text me and make me fall in love again. then you just hurt me. at first you were such a loving boy and then i seen your true colors. you bodyshamed me and called me so many names. yet i forgave you and always will forgive you:/ i want my sweet and loving boy back again. i love you tanner and i dont think i will ever stop loving you.

You were my first love. The first guy I ever had a crush on. You broke me in ways you’ll never know. I wonder what you think of me, because you are my everything. I probably have never crossed your mind but you are on mine all the time. I love you from your voice to your cockiness when you are around your friends. I love you and you probably will never love me back and I am completely destroyed because of it.

I only fucked you bc you’re a ΛΧΑ. I never expected to have feelings and I never expect it to get this far.

I miss you. Not just in a I miss that first love way, but in a piece of me is missing without you kinda way

I loved you so much because you were the first person to care. I find myself unable to get over you. Please come back...

I still check every black Ford Fusion license plate in our hometown to see if it’s you. I’m always hoping to run into you & talk

would you let me talk to you if you knew I wanted to still be with you? would you want to be with me again?

I honestly don't know where to start, but first i gotta say i really miss your mum. I miss being so proud of you for everything you've done. I hate myself for not realizing i wasn't into you as a boyfriend, but i was into you more so as a friend. Being boyfriend and girlfriend was just easier for you to show affection i think and you are a very loving person. I miss the old tanner, the sweet one that gave me all his attention. Now all i hear about is the tanner that sleeps around and has every girl's nudes in his phone. I cant help but t blame myself for you changing. I hope the new girl brings you back down to earth. You have a pure soul i know you do deep down i just hope she brings it out in you. I love you and im sure she does too. i didnt cheat on you btw and i know deep down you believe me.

I like you so much I’m not much different cuz a lot of girls like you but I just feel something different when I talk to you but you’ll never see that

Well I don’t know what to say but I liked you in kinder to 5th grade, then you spread a rumor that we dated like c’mon man then when people asked you denied it like bruh :,(

I wish I could make you understand how much you have changed me, made me a better person, even if you couldn't love me back.

things are so hard rn. we’ve been through a lot... somehow we always get through it. tbh lately i’ve been confused with my feelings but when it comes down to it i know i want to get through everything with you.. forever :) love, ur cactus? lol i love you

you’re my safe place. i feel safe in your arms. staring in your eyes. holding your hands. being so distant from you is an overwhelming pain, i love you.

i just wanna explain why i always say sorry. i genuinely feel so annoying. i feel like i’ve never been enough for you. i don’t want you to settle for me. i don’t wanna push you away with my problems and i feel like my thoughts are too overbearing for you. i care abt you, that’s all.

I said I'm done. I feel sick thinking that was the last time we'll ever speak again.

i love you so much!! ur the best bf ever <3

you're so unfair haha. you left and came back like it was nothing. i hate you.

i love you. please dont ever leave

I still think about you every single day. I’m sorry I had to walk away.

I don’t think you’re as bad as he says. I think you’re just a sad guy who really wants his dad back.

I hope one day we can try again. You’re the greatest guy I’ve ever known.

are you into me, like i’m into you?