i really love you soph you are my absolute world, you bring me nothing but happiness and i really appreciate that. you have saved me from myself and i can’t wait to see you again. even if this doesn’t last long i’m going to cherish every moment we have together. you’re so beautiful so never tell yourself different. i hope we have forever together

you’d be so proud of me if you hadn’t of left me. it doesn’t hurt anymore I just wish you could see me now.

I’m talking to a girl with the same name as you. it’s not working for me. your name brings me nothing but pain.

i have always wanted you. there is truly nobody else for me but you. it’s you i'm always thinking of.

what goes around comes around. you can’t have a healthy consistent relationship, you’re just incapable. all you do is poison those you love and destroy them. you hurt people. you break people’s hearts, it’s just what you do. i don’t feel sorry for you anymore.

I think about you a lot, i think about calling and asking how you are...but we all know that's a bad idea.

Soph I rlly miss you. It’s crazy how much we changed from best friends to now total strangers even though we live so close still. I miss you and what we used to have. A part of me loves you.

Please text me, because I miss u like crazy and I should probably move on but I just can’t. So text me

I miss being friends and I still wish I could be with you. Everyday I think about you more and more :(

I hate you. like really hate you. you just make everybody’s lives miserable for no reason. you gain nothing. fuck you. you said you hate pink, so here it is.

hi sophie, i just want to say that your the best person iv ever met (even though we met online) you saved me from myself and to be honest i think i have feelings for you but i know i can never tell you

you've become a stranger who's laugh i could recognize anywhere :( the one thing i hoped you'd never be

I don't know what I did wrong & I most likely will never. But to let you know, I'm so much happier now than I was when I spent time with you. Maybe you should focus on YOU.

You really are the best person in my life and I thank god for everyday that I get with you. You saved me and I wouldn’t be alive today without you. You’re the first person who’s made me feel like I can be me. I love you always soapie

I hope you’re doing better now mentally and I’m sorry for hurting you back then, when i typed my name i saw a message which made me think it could be you, if you’re out there then please get in touch it would be wonderful to hear from you

you are beautiful. effortlessly beautiful. we will laugh forever together. you are my best friend, although i think about how it could be more, I'm happy i still have you.

Hola, como estás? Se que es muy de la nada esto... pero de todas maneras quería hablar contigo. como has estado? como va tu fin de semestre? me imagino que super copado ya que estamos a finales del año. Como está Misa? extraño mucho sus maullidos y su compañía, como ha crecido Atenea? ya es tan grande que no te deja respirar cuando se sienta encima tuyo? jajsja. Es raro esto, porque sé que no se enviará el mensaje en realidad, pero igual quería al menos imaginarme que es lo que sería que te diría si pudiera. La verdad son puras preguntas de cómo has estado tú y tus cercanes con la cuarentena y el año en general. Hay tantas cosas que me gustaría decirte, son tantas que si empiezo por una me arrepentiré de no haber empezado por otra. Es raro no? el cómo de alguna forma puedes tener tantas cosas para decir, pero sabes que si empiezas con una no sabes si saldrá como lo esperas. He aprendido mucho este año, la verdad (funny enough) la funa me hizo bien en un sentido, espero que hayas perdido el peso de tantos episodios de mierda que te hice pasar. O al menos, la capacidad de manejarlos más sanamente. Incluso después de tanto tiempo de que no nos hablamos, el más extenso desde que nos conocemos, tengo las mismas ganas de estar ahí para ti que he tenido siempre. Pero no quiero causarte ningún daño nunca más, y si eso implica que nos veamos nunca más, pues eso pasará. Tengo unas ganas inmensas de volver a ser tu amigo, pero no lo quiero ser sabiendo que aún está la posibilidad que te pase a llevar o te trigeree un mal recuerdo. Ese de hecho es mi mayor dilema. Porque me encantaría volver a hablar contigo, que nos juntemos y tomemos café y fumemos juntes, pero no si es que aún cabe la mínima posibilidad de que te haga daño de cualquier forma. Quizás el daño hecho no puede redimirse de ninguna manera, me gustaría que sí. Pero cada vez que pienso en formas de acercarme me da miedo, porque ya no sé como eres ahora; quizás cambiaste a una personalidad donde no seamos más compatibles, donde ya no nos llevemos bien. No quiero eso, de verdad que no, pero la única manera que hay para comprobar eso es acercándonos nuevamente y volvemos al dilema de hacerte daño. Es una situación paradójica no? donde de alguna forma no puedo alejarme, pero tampoco puedo acercarme y entramos a un limbo de closeness que solo terminará cuando une de les dos rompa el ciclo. Pero hay que romperlo? vale la pena probar una vez más conciliar una amistad? Me gusta pensar que sí, pero no quiero invadir tú espacio, tus tiempos ni tus necesidades personales y psicológicas. Sería recaer en lo mismo. Por tanto, el elemento central de este mensaje es saber como estás, quiero volver a conocerte y espero que tú quieras reconectar conmigo, al menos como para putearme (muy bottom vibes). Al final todo este mensaje se reduce a una pregunta que hice al principio, ¿como estás? y quieres ir al puentecito otra vez?

what a complete dickhead you are. we were so close n had so many funny memories together and then you started ignoring me and fucked off with another girl that u ended up calling your best friend, then when you got with your boyfriend you completely abandoned her too, when you and ur boyf split up, don’t come running back to me, i’m done. to be quite honest i’m glad i’m not your friend anymore, you’re a dumb cunt who’s had more pregnancy scares than hot meals, and you’re only 17 lmaoo, good luck with your future when you have 73 kids n your scrounging off benefits x

we were unstoppable, then u just left and i will never be the same, i still cry myself to sleep and everything’s gotten worse thanks to ur absence

hi :) i love you, i think i’m in love with you but i think you flirt with me as a joke and you’re not as attached as i am.

You're the first friend I've had in a long time that I look at and feel like I want to stay friends with you forever. I guess I just want to say thank you for coming into my life. You don't know about what happened a few years ago that changed the way I view friends. I just want to say thank you for coming into my life and I love you and I hope that we can be friends forever. I cried so hard writing this lol.

i was bad at move and expressing affection at the time, and now that i think of it. both of us could never come back to talking. we’re both too hurt.

I wanna fill that thight pussy with hot cum and fuck you so hard you’ll be paralized from the neck down
Sincerely big cock man

I wish there was a guy who cared about me enough to write to me on here. But there isn’t and you’ve gotta love yourself first so here I am writing to myself. I know you’re going through a lot right now but one day it’s all going to be worth it. You’re gonna get a family who really cares about you and wants the best for you. Keep going

I wish I took the chance to know you better, but now you're in a different country and I have no way of contacting you. That will be my forever regret.

Te ame, como nunca amé a nadie, por qué? Por qué me dejaste? Estar sin ti me rompió el alma, me ahogué en mi miseria y morí un poco cada noche, te amaba, por qué me dejaste?

You think you don’t deserve me but you do more than anything I’ve never loved someone as much as you but your happy without me

You always know how to make me smile and never ever ever make me overthink about anything I just want you to be happy and if it’s not with me I understand I just wish I would just say

I didn't know you were going to mean this much to me, I didn't know that one day I would go through hell and back to be with you. You make me happier than I have ever been; I am so scared for the day I possibly lose you. You give me the life I need, all the happiness I lost from the years and years of hurt. I don't know how I would survive without you. I will always go through hell and back if it means you're happy.

I'm sorry if me ending it hurt you. I love everything about you, I just didn't feel like it was meant to be, like I was wrong for you. You have an amazing voice, and you're fucking gorgeous. I hope I didn't hurt you and that we can stay friends. I feel like you deserve someone way better then me, whether that be a girl, or a boy if I was right and you aren't really gay.
I just want you to know I do still care, we just weren't meant to be. I fell out of love when you refused to stick up for me, when your parents were calling my father this big bad druggie that doesn't give 2 shits for his kids. Your parents told you to your face that they liked me, but if that's their impression of my father, who raised me, they're lying to you. It hurt me a lot that you valued not being grounded over standing up for someone you claimed to love.

You were amazing, but you did things that i tried to ignore and maybe shouldn't have. like going back to him that night. maybe if things were different we wouldn't be strangers now. i'll see you in the next life.

hey soph. I know the color yellow reminds you of the sun. I love you very much and I hope in the least cliche way possible that we stay friends forever

sophie, i love you in a way that a best friend shouldn't. you can never know, and i'm sorry. you are everything to me. i am happy just to have you in my life, even with this achy weight in my chest. you taught me how to be a person. i love you more than you will ever know.

I’m sorry for fucking everything up. I don’t like you like that anymore but we’re practically strangers and I desperately miss having you in my life.

hi, soph. i’m falling for you. i think i started falling for you the second i met you- being in love with you feels inevitable. when we met, i was a little nervous, but when we talked i felt safe. i felt unjudged. we just fit. we matched. we laughed, we shared. we text every day. about big things, small things, unimportant things. i love you so much. to say that i love you is an understatement though. i love you. your laugh, your smile, the way you talk, the way you feel, the way you care, the way you act, the way you act around me, the way you act around everyone else, the way i could come to you with anything and have your full support. i also love the bad things. the way you find it hard to commit to things, the way you find it hard to talk to people, the way you find it hard to trust people. if you know me like i know you, why dont you love me? you know me better than anyone- better than i know myself and you dont love me. you come to me about your crush that doesnt like you back and i’m sitting here, head over heels for you, smiling at you and telling you to shoot your shot. if me loving you is inevitable, why isnt you loving me the same? you called me “my love” and yet, when asked, you said you dont love me. it’s okay though. i cant force you. i want you to be happy, so im not gonna try to force you. if you come to me with a crush, i’ll tell you to go for it. because if that person can make you happy in a way that i cant, i want you to go for it and be as happy as possible. be happy, my love. please.

Eu sei q posso ter quebrado o teu coração, mais eu te amo muito q me arrependo de tudo q eu fiz, se eu pudesse eu estaria te beijando com muito amor, mas vc já tem outra então eu vou apenas olhar e aceitar, pq eu só quero te ver feliz. Sua irmã tbm me odeia né kk

You are poop you make me mad I think you poopie but hole you bicth I also how is the colour of them because that’s the colour of shit and that’s how you smell

you were my life untill..... you f up you made the biggest mistake of your life leaving me i had a huge glow up and you had a huge glow down b****

You know I still find it weird. I got hit by the feels the fastest I ever had, you were the first person to catch my attention in a long time. Why did you give up so quick? You know I would’ve done anything for you right?

i hate you. funny
how bitches you talk shit about are now ur best friends. are you really that desperate? i hate you. you’re exactly the type of person you claim to hate. you’re everything wrong with a person.
fuck you. and before u go crying to daddy remember who tf i am. you wanna be me and you know it. i hate you, and so does the majority of people you’ve met. no wonder your friends won’t stop talking abt other people. it’s kinda hard not too when being around your existence is so shitty all you wanna do is be by other people. go die :)

I’m sorry I used you to make me feel better about myself, I was in the wrong headspace and didn’t know what love was.

why was it always about you, if i was sad you had to be sadder and because i didn’t like to talk about it i’d say i’m fine, even tho people knew i wasn’t they would focus on you. everything was about you constantly and i never got a chance

You couldn't understand that I wasn't loud and confident like you; couldn't understand why it hurt when you got so annoyed whenever I did something you didn't like; why I can't trust you with my secrets.

Do you still rearrange your room at least once a month? Do you still play Mario Bros and listen to Hamilton in your basement without me?

my number one. you always have my back and i can proudly call you my best friend. i seriously think we are best friend soulmates.

I know I love you, but I don't think I ever loved you. And I also can't stand your Hamilton obsession.

no clue if that message you left was for me. i hope it was. i thought i did give you a sign, but maybe it wasn't clear enough. i'd go back in a heartbeat too

sophie, I never loved you as more than a friend. but your lies still hurt. hiding the truth hurt us all, forced us to rethink every time we hung out. shit hurt.

I miss you so much already, it’s so hard knowing that you aren’t there anymore to ask me about my dreams or how my days been but I know I’ll be okay in time

nobody ever hurt me like you did. nobody ever made me feel as happy as you did. you were always both sides of the coin. loving you cut me so deep.