Unsent messages to SEB

i love your bright blue eyes i wish i could see them everyday

I think I’m in love with you but I’m not sure.

what are we

I love you so much thank you for sticking by me

No one knows me like u did. I miss that. I'll always love you

i still wonder what we could’ve been if you had chosen me

i love you so so much <3

i miss you, do you miss me too?

even if meeting u was a coincidence, I’m glad I got to

fuck you, you left
me for her , i knew it all along . fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

you sexually assaulted me. i confronted you and you refused to admit it. you ruined me. im so glad you dumped me

You don't love me anymore and it kills me. You feel so comfortable and familiar but I have to stop doing this to myself because I know its ruining me. I'll love you always and will wait for you until forever

I tell everyone I’m over you but the never knowing what it’s like to be yours still keeps me up at night.

I didn’t love you but I do miss you and I wished we’d speak again and idk why I’m writing this here but I hope you’re good?

why did u pretend? why did u make me feel like u cared about me more than u did? i’ll never forgive u but i’ll always miss you

seb.
you weren't my first love, you won't be my last, but you're somewhere in the middle. i think i loved you, but a girl like me falls hard and fast, and i never really know if it is love or if you just make me happy when i need someone to do that. i think i miss it, the facetimes, the texts, all of it. but then i think of some of the things you said that made me feel a way that i don't deserve to feel. im not perfect, ive made mistakes, im making mistakes and im probably going to continue making mistakes. but that doesn't mean you get to treat me however the hell you want. i deserve better than that. it took me a while to realise that though. you really fucked me up to be honest. you had me thinking that it was me, i was the problem, i was the one doing everything wrong. i wasn't, maybe at some points, yeah i messed up. but that doesn't mean that i had to feel the way i felt. i think i kind of want to thank you though. you made me happier than anyone has in a while. granted, you also made me feel worse than anyone has in a while. but most of all, you made me remember who i am. i think you broke my heart if im being honest. and that's why i want to thank you. cos it made me remember who i am and what i deserve. which is a lot better than you. i don't hate you, i just don't want you in my life anymore.

sebby,,, you mean more to me than me than youll ever understand,,, it makes me so sad that we have drifted sm,,, i miss talking with u a lot,,, i hope u stay in my life a long time,,, and get heal,, if youd have me still,,, if or when i get married,,, i want u to be the one to walk me down the isle,,, your one of my favorite people ever,,, much love kith.

The pain you’ve caused me over the years has brought my life so much more happiness as a result. Thank you.

guess what? I watched star wars and liked it. A lot.
wish we could talk about it for hours, I'd really enjoy that and I know you'd probably do too

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to explain to you how much you mean to me. I love you so much. I am the luckiest girl in the world to be able to call you my bestfriend. ?

i love you more than i thought it was possible to love anything and it still wasn’t enough. you hurt me so many times but i think of you every day.

I get mad at myself that I will never be able to tell you how I feel properly. all I want is you, and one day I wish you would finally feel the same about me, maybe you do but I am way too scared to make the first move, and I mean come on you know that I usually do. I have loved you since the first moment we spoke and I miss seeing you in person with all my heart

i miss you so much. you’ll probably never see this but i just wanted to thank you for everything you did for me when we used to talk. you’re a good person and you deserve to be happy. just know that i always cared about you and i still do.

we were so happy. what happened, what made things change? I wish you just broke up with me instead of cheating.

You were perfect for me. But I was the worst person for you. I hope you find happiness, you deserve it! Know that there's nothing your mind can't do. Except see colours and understand emotions. But colours are dull and emotions are over-rated.

Thank you for everything and know it was never your job to take care off me. I'm so sorry I put you in that position.

you were mad when you found out I was being used, but now you’re doing the same thing you damed another for, now I feel as if I lost you all over again.

dear seb
u mean the world to me, honestly. I know i may be only young, but u truly mean the world to me, u bring me so much joy, it’s unreal, u made me see the light in people again, which i never thought i would do, u make everything good possible, i love u millions.

i'm sorry that i'm leading you on. i like you as a person and friend but my mental health can't take being in love again:(

Maybe it's time to accept who you are, and that's what you wanted. I don't want you to stay in me, you already hurt me enough, thank you for helping me find out who my friends were really. I hate you, but I take you in my heart forever.

If you loved her more than me you could’ve just told me in the first place. I’m sorry I didn’t satisfy you. I wish the best for you though.

i've liked you for a year now. a whole fucking year, and i've barely spoken to you in person, just over snap. weird how much you can fall for someone over snap, isn't it?

Dicen que nunca serás suficiente para alguien que no sabe lo que quiere. Y tú, definitivamente no sabes lo que quieres. Me voy imaginando lo que no será y sabiendo que no te amo a ti, amó la imagen que tengo de ti. Pero es cuestión de tiempo, los amigos imaginarios se olvidan y yo olvidare a quien creia que eras. Te deseo lo mejor y que encuentres un rumbo en tu vida.

I wish you knew how much space you take up in my mind. Yesterday, today and tomorrow. Your were there, you are here and you'll be there. Am ever in yours I wonder?

all i do is think about what it would be like if we were still together and it breaks me when i realise it’s all just empty wishes

i trusted u w almost everything, i cared abt you, i fell in love w you and what do i get in return? absolutely nothing because you dont give a fuck.

i love you so so much. you made my life days and months better:) i hope we are still there for each other in the future.

Bless ? find the happiness in life my lil bbqutie !!
Life is too short for unsolicited contradiction ?

I miss you. You know I am sure we're soulmates cause I've only felt this instant connection with you and my bff, but maybe we rushed into something bigger than ourselves. I'm so sorry for that. I want you in my life and even tho you hurt me so bad, i love you in a way I can't explain. I hope you're doing fine. Remember to drink water, get enough sleep, do good in school and eat well. Maybe one day we'll be together again (that's my biggest wish rn) but for now I just want you to be happy, even tho I'm not doing great without you. Love u babe

My love for you is unconditional. No matter where you are, or what you do, or who you love .. i will always love you babe

My love, I fell for an idea of you because even though you love me, I don't feel it. You had my heart

I want to say it I want to say it I want to say it and that’s all I’m stuck saying... I think I’m in shock

I can never explain to you how much you mean to me, but i desperately don’t want to hurt you. This sounds stupid and i don’t usually believe in this stuff but i feel like you might be my soulmate or something please don’t laugh at me I already embarrass myself enough around you but just know that our time will come and this will happen, but in the meantime i love you and i always will and i’m sorry, you deserve better than me.

I never really knew you, but I really wish I did. This could all be in my head, but I just genuinely wish you the absolute best and I have no idea why.

You were the only person who cared about me. I loved you with every bit of my heart- until you messaged her expressing your love for her ?

When I look at you time stops. My whole worlds turns slow motion. All I see is perfection. But the thought of you not even thinking of me is breaking my heart.

When I look at you time stops. My whole worlds turns slow motion. All I see is perfection. But the thought of you not even thinking of me is breaking me.

Hey, just know that I really love you and I wanna hug you so badly I wish you know what I feel for you. When I looked you in the eyes I just fell in love with you. You are probably never gonna read this, but if you do, I wanna hug you talk about life, and everything that I wanna talk about. I need you so badly, your voice is so calming and soft. I just want you and only you.
With love, e

im over you, and im over what we had. yet im hung up on why you didn't love me back harder? why was i not good enough? why did it hurt more to be with you than it did breaking up with you? just why

ive told you before your the only one i've really loved and all you did was use me. id do anything to see you again

I still think about you everyday, honestly. But at this point, you’ve proven that everything you had ever said to me was all a lie. I’m glad I left and I don’t ever want to go back. You were a really good friend, but a terrible boyfriend.