Unsent messages to REESE

I don't consider you my "first love" but my first for a lot of stuff. It's funny how I believed everything you told me, how you loved me back then and that you actually cared about me. In the end you have no idea how much you damaged me mentally, life hasn't felt the same for me for 6 fucking months because of your immature lying cheating ass. I want you out of my fucking head after 6 months your still lingering in the back of my mind and I don't want to fucking think of you, I always have thoughts about the short amount of time we spent together and it always makes me fucking cry cause at that point I felt happy cause a guy actually wanted to be with me for me but in the end you proved me wrong. You called me immature but you were the one who fucked shit up, you always wreck everything I wouldn't trust you to look after something important cause your going to break it just like you broke me :) . I hate myself for going for guys like you without thinking that all of you are the same, you all have 1 thing in common your all cheaters. You are not responsible for your own actions and you don't own up to it and when I wrecked something of yours you were pressuring me to pay you, why should I pay someone for fucking me up this is what you get and what you deserve, you expect everyone to do as you ask but that's what I never did and when you wanted me to do some sexual shit I realized that it would scar me for life. It's sad not getting what you want in life :( . I've changed a lot physically and mentally which proves that you were the problem and that It's best if you were never in my life. I truly felt happy when I was with you and I know I wont have the same feeling towards another guy for a while so thank you :D, you just had to ruin it cause you couldn't control your urges. Anyways I know you'll never see this which is fine just wanted to let you know how I felt after shit :)

forever. a word we overused. i wish you would've told me why you left. why did u leave me wondering what i did to make u hate me do you miss us? I remember how happy you were when you were with me.i miss that. i miss us, but i have to move on. i try and try to let you go but seeing you with her makes it so hard. love u always

you were all i ever wanted. ever. i miss u like crazy but seeing you happy with her makes me happy. I hope i get to be with you one last time in the next lifetime, love u forever

I hate being your friend because you always make me feel like I come in second place. I wish we wouldn't have gotten close this year.

you're my bestfriend, and at times ik i frustrate you but you have a place in my heart, even though we didn't talk back then. I'm soso glas we're close now, I love you no homo n I hope that you never drop me or smth lolol

The universe has funny ways of sneaking things that remind me of you into my thoughts. It doesn't hurt now.

i love you, more than the world, and i am so proud of you. i know life is really hard right now- for the both of us, but i know that someday soon we will be little old ladies watching our grandkids play outside in the summer time, we will look back and think of life right now, and we will be so happy that we decided to stay.
ill love you forever reese. thank you for always loving me.

it’s been awhile since we’ve really talked and i miss you all the time. there’s so much i should tell you but it’s best that i keep it to myself. you were right about one thing, though. i really do love you and see you as more than a friend, but i was too scared to let my walls come down just like you always said. i hope to hear from you soon.

i’m trying so hard to get over u and move on like u said but ik soon enough ur gonna come back. but by then it might be too late

i shouldn’t have let your ex get in the way of what we had. i miss you. i hope your new girl is great.

you weren’t my first love. but you were one of them. you are my best friend. i remember last year when you gave me your hoodie so i can wear it to school. i still have it a year later. i’m wearing it right now. we used to be so close. we would facetime everyday until 3 am. your cousin told me you had a crush on me. we never talked to eachother about it. i had a crush on u. u helped me thru so much. we’ve been thru a lot together. and now you’re starting to feel like a stranger. and it hurts. i wanna talk to you everyday until 3 am. i wanna hang out with you and laugh until my stomach hurts. what changed? why don’t you want to do those things anymore? i love u so much. but i’m never gonna tell u that. ❤️

you're my best friend and i'm really glad we got this close in such a short time. sometimes you think i hate you but i really don't at all. you have better friends and i'm probably not your number one, but you're mine. i really hope we can be friends for a long time.

you’ve been there since i was little but now i can’t tell you about a big part of me because you won’t accept me.

i was too scared to say it at the time. but i love you. i hope you find your way back to me because i don’t know how to be without you. ?