Unsent Messages

I don't consider you my "first love" but my first for a lot of stuff. It's funny how I believed everything you told me, how you loved me back then and that you actually cared about me. In the end you have no idea how much you damaged me mentally, life hasn't felt the same for me for 6 fucking months because of your immature lying cheating ass. I want you out of my fucking head after 6 months your still lingering in the back of my mind and I don't want to fucking think of you, I always have thoughts about the short amount of time we spent together and it always makes me fucking cry cause at that point I felt happy cause a guy actually wanted to be with me for me but in the end you proved me wrong. You called me immature but you were the one who fucked shit up, you always wreck everything I wouldn't trust you to look after something important cause your going to break it just like you broke me :) . I hate myself for going for guys like you without thinking that all of you are the same, you all have 1 thing in common your all cheaters. You are not responsible for your own actions and you don't own up to it and when I wrecked something of yours you were pressuring me to pay you, why should I pay someone for fucking me up this is what you get and what you deserve, you expect everyone to do as you ask but that's what I never did and when you wanted me to do some sexual shit I realized that it would scar me for life. It's sad not getting what you want in life :( . I've changed a lot physically and mentally which proves that you were the problem and that It's best if you were never in my life. I truly felt happy when I was with you and I know I wont have the same feeling towards another guy for a while so thank you :D, you just had to ruin it cause you couldn't control your urges. Anyways I know you'll never see this which is fine just wanted to let you know how I felt after shit :)