Unsent messages to RAY

I finally moved on.

I deserved a kinder goodbye.

I hope things stay like this between us forever

You’re better off without her, I hope you realize that one day.

I wish we could talk to each other the way we used to

I still love you, I don't think that will ever change.

i’m glad you cut me off i’m doing so much better without you

i miss you sm, im still waiting for you its been 2 years....

I love you.but as a friend.

I’m glad you left, I’m doing so much better.

You're such a good kisser, my dear..

the best father figure ever fr, I love you sm<3

if ur seeing this go text me and say sorry.

I’m sorry

just please tell me you still love me.
please.

i still miss u pooh and im still waiting for you.

Holding on for so long was the death of me

i just miss you so much

i’m letting go of you and what I thought we were

I believed your facade for 8 months.

I love you to the moon and back handsome <3

You made me writing again.

Thanks.

I hope it’s still me. I pray it is.

I still think about you darling

i was going through old photos and deleting shit to save storage and i found an old ss of our texts where you said “i’m very terrified you’re gonna realize you’re too good for me and replace me with someone else.. please don’t break my heart like he did” lol

One night when we were skating down her street all I could do was stare at you. That night I realized I loved you. I know you'll never see this, but I want you to know how much you mean to me. I've never felt this way about anyone. I love you, Ray.

Loving you was burning red. It consumed me and still does. it never would’ve lasted but i will always love you even when you couldn’t

i hate you so so so much but it’s because I’m in love with you and I get to jealous and I’m a horrible person because I hate seeing you so much happier with other people because you were the only person who I actually felt real strong feelings for and I fucked that up and I wish I didn’t because I’m so in love with you.I want to block you. You wouldn’t care enough to try to reach out to me unless it’s for someone else. I made up people and got my friend to try to make you jealous and I tried to do everything to make you actually like me more and it was a horrible idea and I know I shouldn’t have done that and I’m really sorry. this is rlly cringe but I’ve wanted to do this forever so ya. love u and I know you would bring this whole thing up to ur friends to make fun of me

I said that I lost interest, too, that it turned out we both weren't meant for each other. I was lying. I don't think you were.

I can't listen to your favorite song anymore. I've known you since third grade; and I'm sorry you lost interest. I hope you find someone that truly makes you happy. I'm rooting for you :)

everyone does this to me. makes me believe that they love me. but they really actually love someone else.

please don’t hurt me i’m so scared of losing you too. you’re the first healthy relationship i’ve had don’t go. i love you buh

i love you so much i can’t explain it, i wish it was in better circumstances, i wish your parents liked me :(

im sorry ray, for hurting you as much as i have. i did love you, but it was just the wrong timing for us. im sorry for still texting you then ignoring you for days on end. you dont deserve that. its time you move on. i wish you nothing but good things ray.

babes i fucking hate this because i’m definitely not over you n i think about you n truthfully, even tho this is probably really fucking stupid, i believe that you honestly feel bad n are sorry.
but i feel so stuck, i cant tell any of the people that i’m close w that i wanna be with you or i’ll lose them.. but i just wanna see you and talk to you.

i just don’t know what to do aha, i’m not like asking you to make a decision or anything but i just want you to know that i miss my pretty girlfriend too n i just dk what to do but yea i wanna c u :’)

ps. merry christmas

hey im sorry for always making you feel sad and upset ik i wasn’t the best and sometimes i want to go back to fix everything i did wrong to fix what we had :( but i truly hope you are happy like i told you i wanted you to be.

I wish you had just let me live and forget about what you did. I hate you for that I think I always will. But somehow I'm still nice to you because I hope just one day you can come up to me and apologize for all the pain you caused me.

i like still miss you too or whatever, i hope we run into eachother one day just so i can see you again lol xp

Hi. As you know, i liked you for a long time. but because we were younger it means it didn’t mean anything right? I mean, that’s what it should be like. but it’s not. i still think of you and my stomach starts to hurt. i miss you so much, even if all it ever was was a silly ‘crush’. i don’t know why i liked you so much, nothing ever happened between us other than the fact we were close friends. but i loved you, i think; and i still do. i don’t LIKE you, but i love you. for no reason whatsoever. i wish i could hug you one more time, or have just a day together like things were 2 years ago. i miss you

i don’t think i’ll ever not miss you, we got along so easy and being with you and getting to kiss you was the happiest i had been in a while.. but i know the only reason you came back briefly was because you wanted someone again.. not specifically me but just someone.. i’m not upset with you and that the whole incident even tho i should be, but i kinda understand ngl, but yea i’m not upset, just sad cause i think we could’ve been something really great ,’:/ but that’s in the past.. and yea i rly don’t think we should be friends even tho i want to bc i know that will lead to smth which sucks but it’s for the better.. yea neways i just wanted to get this off my chest cause i stopped talking to you very abruptly.. i’m doing pretty okay tho :) i really like yk who n i know they will treat me like i should be treated n same w me to them :/ so yea.. i just needed some closure.

but i hope you’re doing okay just in life in general n i hope you get everything sorted out w your mom, but even if not i know you’ll get through it eventually.. ill never forget u xoxo

u have no idea how much u help me get through every day, ur my reason to get up every day and ur genuinely the loml, thank you for loving me through it all even when its hard or I shut you out

Man, I miss talking to you. Laughing together. Hanging out. I just miss the moments we spent with each other. But, you’re gone now. And I think I’m finally moving on. So, thank you for all the beautiful memories you made with me :)

hearing u talk last night and me not doing anything abt it. i’m sorry i rlly just wanna be there for u

I remember the first time I saw you. I remember our first kiss and exactly how it happened. I remember the first time you came over and the first time I went over. Youve hurt me over and over again, but you always had a way with your words. Every time you made me believe that you had changed and that it was different but then, again, you always knew how to fix it. I was so stupid. I hate you.. but for some reason, I still miss you. I still think about you. I miss every moment we had, all our hangouts, every facetime call. I miss when you would call me telling me to come upstairs because you missed me. I miss talking to you.. but you've made your decision on who you want. It breaks my heart because when we were together you made it clear that you had chosen me and she wasnt in the picture.. but two weeks after we break up you guys are back together? then you have the audacity to be texting me you miss me, knowing that I would be there every time. I am trying to let you go, I really am. But its hard when youre on my mind literally 24/7.

I love you. Your smell, your smile, your jokes, your laugh, the funniness, the hat, the cuddles and nudges, and just you. I feel like I’ll never get over it no matter how many boys start to make me feel numb from you for a second. And now I realize that and I don’t think I can ever date other people the same without knowing I’m going to have dreams and think of you some nights and days. And my friends deep down are always going to know you’ll be in my head for how many times I’ve talked about it. Like fuck ray, I think they’re sick of it and just waiting for time to pass and me to realize I should move on. It’s hard to move on from someone like you though, you don’t get it. I wish you could understand and just tell me the way you feel, because if I told you all of this I feel as if I’m going to scare you. I miss you a lot and I hate the mixed signals I still get, i know I’m not ready to date anymore but if you asked I’d give it a second thought. Please don’t be a stranger anytime soon, I will forever hold a dark passion for you because the day these feelings started to rise, I feel like I gave a piece of me to you that will never leave and I hope you feel the same. I love you ray, even though I may not know all about love I think I know how much I fell for you and keep doing it for 5 years.

te dejo ir, será lo mejor solo recuerda que te amo y te admiro un montón quiero abrazarte de nuevo quiero conversar contigo quiero hacer todo contigo por que tu eres mi mundo aunque suene ridiculo solo tengo ojos para ti
te amo

HOLA, YA NO HABLAMOS PERO QUIERO DECIRTE QUE TE QUIERO Y ESPERO QUE TE ENCUENTRES BIEN, YA NO TENEMOS NINGUN TIPO DE COMUNICACIÓN Y LA DISTANCIA NOS SEPARÓ, RECUERDO NUESTRO PRIMER BAILE QUIERO QUE SEPAS QUE JAMAS EN MI VIDA LO OLVIDARÉ, TEN SUERTE EN TU VIDA Y ENCUENTRES A ESA PERSONA ESPECIAL QUE SE QUEDE CONTIGO EN LAS BUENAS Y EN LAS MALAS TE AMO

well i could’ve said i loved you :/ but yk.. i wish i could still be w you, but you gotta figure some shit out i’m gonna miss you

god before you i loved myself so much and you made me hate the real me..and now i don't know who the real me is..

I think it is time we end things before I get too attached. My abandonment issues are telling me to end it before I fall in love with you.