Unsent Messages

I love you. Your smell, your smile, your jokes, your laugh, the funniness, the hat, the cuddles and nudges, and just you. I feel like I’ll never get over it no matter how many boys start to make me feel numb from you for a second. And now I realize that and I don’t think I can ever date other people the same without knowing I’m going to have dreams and think of you some nights and days. And my friends deep down are always going to know you’ll be in my head for how many times I’ve talked about it. Like fuck ray, I think they’re sick of it and just waiting for time to pass and me to realize I should move on. It’s hard to move on from someone like you though, you don’t get it. I wish you could understand and just tell me the way you feel, because if I told you all of this I feel as if I’m going to scare you. I miss you a lot and I hate the mixed signals I still get, i know I’m not ready to date anymore but if you asked I’d give it a second thought. Please don’t be a stranger anytime soon, I will forever hold a dark passion for you because the day these feelings started to rise, I feel like I gave a piece of me to you that will never leave and I hope you feel the same. I love you ray, even though I may not know all about love I think I know how much I fell for you and keep doing it for 5 years.