Unsent messages to NOLAN

Take a chance on me.

i really hope you stay, my mind hasn’t shut up about you since you said you loved me.

i always thought one day it’d be me n you and sometimes i think you thought that too

I love you and yet our souls haven't met :(

I wish we gave us a shot. we never tried and now i think about what could have been everyday.

Take a chance on me.

i hope that you get everything you dream of, i’ve never cared about someone the way i cared for you.

i love you. a lot. i’m sorry.

Youn won't even look at me while I still search for you everywhere i go

please don’t go back to her again

Dont ask me questions that you dont want the answers to.

I wish I could tell u how sorry I am

I wish I was able to say goodbye to you.

if i had known i would never see you again after that night, i would have hugged you longer

I miss you

Why did you lead me on for so long, was it just a game to you? I know you knew you didn’t like me.

you left me with trust issues.

i wish u knew how bad u hurt me

i want it to work out this time

i dont think you understand how much you hurt me

I think you’re a very special person

i wish i was someone you could bear to look at

i wish i were brave enough to apologize

i wish i wasnt just a choice to you bc to me u were it

i just wish your "pinky promises" were for real.

You don’t even know how much I love you

i wish u wouldve kept ur promises

You're the person i'll always look for in the crowd

I am so in love with you that if you were to ever leave I don’t know how I would be okay. I can’t think without thinking of you

Im not upset, im not mad, im not crying, I guess im just... disappointed but okay? Our mutual friends set us up because you were "desperate" and ive been broken so many times so I need a good guy. Our friends don't trust anyone dating me and they trusted you. I don't understand what happened, we started talking and our friends told me you were all giggly and you wouldn't shut up about me. But then you just kinda stoped replying as fast, stopped having good conversations with me, got kinda distant, but you kept flirting. I was overthinking bc I was really really into you and wanted us to happen. I just got tired after awhile so I asked how you felt and you seriously replied with "thats a no from me dawg" like I didnt know wether to cry or laugh. Im glad we are still friends. I feel something but I honestly don't know what I feel and I don't know what im allowed to feel since you were never my boyfriend. Our mutuals feel so awful bc they didnt want me to get hurt again but I don't even know if im hurt. Basically im saying im confused and I don't understand what you did to my emotions. Can you tell me why you said no so I can figure out how I feel. Ik that special girl is out there waiting for you and she will be so lucky.
Sincerely, you're friend- confused emotions girl.

were on facetime right now. i love your smile so fucking much. always say that my smile is better than yours. but we both know thats a lie. i love the way i can talk to you about anything. i feel safe around you. dont ask why because i have no clue. i absolutely cant believe that we became best friends in such a short amount of time. you are my go to. the person i know that i can always talk to if i need anything. and im always gonna be here for you. i pinky promised that i would never leave. im not going to. i promised i would stay. so thats what im going to do. you are such a dork. but thats why i love you. even though i havent told you. you are on my mind 24/7. every second. every minute. every hour. every day. so you can just say that youre all i think about. i always think that im gonna lose you because of the shit that goes through your brain. but im always gonna be here if you ever need someone to talk to. i love you.

I never liked you, part of me was forcing me too and the other was forcing me to constantly fix you and that part was too strong.

i used to say i love you. and begged you to say it back. to which you would literally say “it back”. now i’m in love and he says it first and MEANS it.

you broke me and shattered how i will ever love again, but i still love and care about you. i wish you the best.

you’re a piece of garbage LOL but honestly its on me for dating a guy named NOLAN. oh and btw i love girls you were always insecure about me cheating on you with guys but i love girls so suck on that asshole

while yes i love and care about you. it’s time for me to let go. i cant keep putting myself through this. while i loved you like no other. it’s time. i need to set myself free.

I’ve loved you for over a year now. You claim you still love me but then u literally replaced me when u got bored. I love you and I think I will for a long long time and the only way I get temporary relief is when I have a new guy to use for a few months and then you call and I’m yours again. Please fuck off or just take me back because it isn’t fair to me or her

I hope to god you know how much I love you. Even if we never get to be anything more, you still mean the absolute world to me. I could never tell you how I really feel because I know it would ruin everything we have and I can’t lose you. I love you to beyond.

i know i told you to leave but im really hoping you find it in that precious little heart to stay. i know i told you no but all along my answer was always yes, a million time yes. i went just those simple 24 hours without talking to you and i feel like i lost my mind. even though you hurt my feelings and i hated you, more than anything at all, i loved you. i love you. please dont go angel baby, please dont give up. i now i made it hard and i made it seem like i didnt care, but you were the one thing i like about myself. i know i did all these stupid things but i cannot lose you. you are every dream ive ever had, you are every perfect song, youre simple everything. blue eyed love, please dont go. find it in your heart to stay a little longer, i promise its worth it. i love you angel baby.

i loved you. you were the one person there for me when I needed it. i never told you. I'll always love you. i miss you but you don't feel the same.

its been 3 years. you were my first love. and damn was i happy. i look back now and smile when i think of us and all the memories we made. i still miss you sometimes and it hurts but im surviving. i just wish we could be friends, none of this walk by each other in the halls as if nothing happened shit. i almost wish that we just stayed friends from the beginning.
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mitski said it best. “when you go take this heart, i’ll make no more use of it when there’s no more you.” i haven’t.

bruh I don't even know at this point. I don't know why I care about ur opinion so much especially considering there is obviously no chance. But like i'm over it? I guess? it's strange. I like to think you feel like this, but I'm just a passing thought

I can’t explain to you the feelings I have for you. It physically pains me not knowing if you feel the same

i'll never be enough for you. i hate you so much yet im still in love with you. why did you have to lead me on for almost a year?

Geez I hope you see this. I've spend too long searching through my name hoping you wrote something. I've loved you since we first met. Every time we meet again even though its months in between I feel a connection to you. Nolan, why did you suddenly start ignoring my texts? I know I can sometimes be annoying but give me a chance. Surely you feel the same connection I do. Why would you spend hours telling me about the stars on the roof if you didn't feel something inside you. Just text me please. I promise I'm waiting for it.

we never dated but I’ve always loved you, you are the light of my life, what keeps me going and I don’t know what I’m going to do without you. You hurt me but somehow I forgive you every time because I have hope for us and in the fact that you’re my soulmate.

I fell for you 7 years ago. Now I'm in love with someone else. So why do I still think about you every day?

you made me genuinely happy and I’ll never forget that but why’d you have to lie to me after you promised me you wouldn’t?

a month ago i would have wanted to kiss you but now I still do but I won't because I deserve better than how you treated me. i thought that I was special to you by the way to looked at me but it turns out you looked at everyone that way. we created so many memories together but now they just seem tainted. i realize now that I was in love with the thought of you and how you made me feel but that wasn't you, was it? and if you truly felt the same towards me than you would have put the effort in. I also know that you are going through a lot and i care that your ok and i want to be the one you come to because you have no one else, but i don't think i can be that anymore because it just hurts too much. I still have to see you once and a while and that's just so painful because i know we had a connection. But its time for me to let go now. i need to show you that you missed out on a great person and that i don't need you and that i never needed you