Unsent messages to MILAN

i still want you out of everyone and i miss you but dont have the guts to tell you

why r u using me as an option

Ik you’ve been through a lot but you will forever be loved

perfect person, worst time.

i like you

youre the only real person ive ever met

I love you I love you I love you

i wish i was exactly what you wanted.

I LOVE YOU BITCH. sexy mf?‼️‼️ i hope u see this and realize how much of a bad bitch u are. thank u for being my best friend for almost 5 years. u keep my heart beatin and u keep my emotions in check and for that i am forever grateful

i asked you not to go, and I know it was stupid- you had a future to chase, i just wish we could’ve been that future. well I miss you bubs, I miss my friend, I miss the love we had and if you need to hate me to move on that’s okay. Hate me all you want if that makes it easier to unlove me. Anywaysss ;) I’ve thought bout you recently so I hopped on here to let you know

fuck you. i did everything for you, i gave you my all and then you just leave?!! have fun with jason.

hey, i love you. but i don’t think i can do it anymore. i dont think i can be the person you deserve. im not in love with you like you are with me and it hurts both of us. i deserve no one and you deserve better. i think that this week im telling you this. im tired of seeing you sad because im crying and unstable, when you deserve someone you can laugh with. i will love you forever, as a friend, as a person. thank you for all the good times, for being my first love. you are incredible and i wish that you show that lucky girl the same (or even more) love that you showed me. love you always

i fight the urge every other day to just add you back and make amends again. but then I remind myself of how you just didn't appreciate me

I just wish you could see yourself through my eyes. You don't know how beautiful you are even if your insecure about your whole body. your stunning and deserve more.

It’s unfair to say: “ I have the feeling that I’m not good enough in a relationship for you”. It’s clear, you want attention from other girls and me not saying anything of it.

I don’t believe in soulmates but then I see you and that changes because if you’re not my soulmate then what are u. I know our time past and we’re not going to be together but I just wanted to tell u ily baby

Maybe I’ll find someone else but you’ll always be my first love and soulmate. I wish you the best and that you achieve your dreams. I’ll see you on tv.

I really love you very much, and I wish this story would never end. to have you by my side and the most unexpected thing in the world

if i could do one thing over, it would be what i did to you. i sit and wonder if you really do hate me, or if it’s all in my mind. i stare outside wondering where we wouldve been if i realized what i was doing sooner. i wonder how our friendship would be if i wasn’t so full of myself. i wonder what life would be if i did what your best friend told me to. i wonder sometimes, if i had listened and stayed away, what would’ve happened between us. would you see the truth, or would you still be blinded by her. would you forgive me for what i did. or would you forget me for i what i didn’t do. i wonder. but sometimes im grateful for what happened. i just hope you don’t hate me for it. reach out to me sometimes, i promise i’ll respond. i’ll tell you everything that happened, so you can finally know the truth. and if you ever come across this-just know she made me tell her. i didn’t mean to. and that’s why i wish i would have done what she told me to.

i love you so much and u have made me a better person and got me out of MANY toxic situations ily bae face

Eleven year old me thought it was the end of the world when we went to different secondary schools. I didn’t think I could ever love someone like I loved you... how are you - it’s been a long while :)
A x

i didn't get over you for years. i didn't think i could ever really love anyone again... how are you now? its been too long :)

i understand why you picked her over me, i just wish i could tell you how much you ment to me. but that would be unfair to her. the thing that makes this even worse is that i can’t be mad at her either. it was insane of me to think that

Hey! I messed up, but I wanted to make something out of us so bad that I almost missed the point of being in the moment. I really liked you and didn’t have the guts to admit it. Now you have a girlfriend I respect you guys so much and hope you last for as long as the future holds. I just want you to know that I never gave up on what I though we had I was just too scared to show it.

I don't even know what to say, I just like you, I want us to have something, what do you mean when you look at me while explaining things to other? what does it mean when I see you in my dreams and can't stop thinking about you? tell me, talk to me, I can't keep it in anymore, I want you

I can't describe but the way you look at me gives me butterflies and idk if you look everyone that way but yeah.

you really left without saying goodbye... and then wrote to me on here (wonder if you knew id find it) PS: the lavender was what gave it away