Unsent Messages

if i could do one thing over, it would be what i did to you. i sit and wonder if you really do hate me, or if it’s all in my mind. i stare outside wondering where we wouldve been if i realized what i was doing sooner. i wonder how our friendship would be if i wasn’t so full of myself. i wonder what life would be if i did what your best friend told me to. i wonder sometimes, if i had listened and stayed away, what would’ve happened between us. would you see the truth, or would you still be blinded by her. would you forgive me for what i did. or would you forget me for i what i didn’t do. i wonder. but sometimes im grateful for what happened. i just hope you don’t hate me for it. reach out to me sometimes, i promise i’ll respond. i’ll tell you everything that happened, so you can finally know the truth. and if you ever come across this-just know she made me tell her. i didn’t mean to. and that’s why i wish i would have done what she told me to.