Unsent messages to MATHEW
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: October 18, 2023, 3:49 am UTC
If you miss me just call me, I’m here with arms wide open
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: October 17, 2023, 6:08 am UTC
Watching your photos just make me so happy, but that’s not enough for me, is it for u?
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: October 12, 2023, 5:22 am UTC
I haven’t met you yet, but maybe one day I hopefully will and be your muse
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: October 11, 2023, 4:24 am UTC
I like you, I do. Idk if you feel the same way. I will always wonder.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: September 23, 2023, 4:54 pm UTC
i’ve been in love w u for so long u ignore the fact that i am, like u leading me on
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: September 20, 2023, 3:55 am UTC
Last SMS-You don’t even acknowledge me in my own dreams, it’s time to let you go
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: September 15, 2023, 5:09 am UTC
i wish you didn’t let me go so easily
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: August 2, 2023, 11:22 pm UTC
why do u still fck me up a year after it all happened.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: July 31, 2023, 3:40 pm UTC
i don’t know how we ended up like this. i miss you my love ♡
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: July 19, 2023, 5:34 pm UTC
please take good care of yourself even i'm not with you anymore
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: July 18, 2023, 4:03 pm UTC
I'm too mentally unstable to love you. I'm sorry.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: July 11, 2023, 5:30 am UTC
I love you so much, I'll never get tired of you :>>
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: January 12, 2021, 9:15 pm UTC
i write about you. a lot. poetry. one day i might have enough for a book or at least a chapter of one. part of me wants you to read them, part of me would die if you did. they are so personal. but at the same time it might be things i would say to you. see, i am very contradictory. but you know that. i love you. and i know you love me too. thank you for trying.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: December 28, 2020, 8:19 pm UTC
I knew better than to reach out to you before I left, but I just wanted to make sure you were doing okay. It’s so embarrassing that I’m still ruminating on this, but whenever I think about it my whole body cringes.
I remember feeling like we could’ve been really good friends when we met. Opening up to you was easy, and that scared me. I never wanted to bother you or make you uncomfortable. I was anxious and insecure about it the entire time. I could never tell if you liked me as a person or if you were just too nice to tell me otherwise. I’m fairly certain it was the latter considering how things ended, but I should’ve picked up on that much sooner.
Maybe I gave the wrong impression, but I never wanted to make anything out to be more than it was. I would be lying if I said I hadn’t thought about the possibility of it being more at one point, but I never expected anything beyond a platonic friendship (not that I would’ve actually told you that—you liked somebody else who was better for you anyway).
I can tell that you’ve been through a lot, and I really hope that you get the help you deserve. You don’t give yourself nearly enough credit. I would say I’m sorry and that I’d take it all back if I could, but I still think both of us need to work on apologizing less.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: December 14, 2020, 1:54 pm UTC
it’s been 4 years and i still remember our memories together, even the little things, like that one time u put ur head down on the table and looked at me, i was trying so hard not to smile. i know i should move on but it’s hard letting go of people who made you the happiest. i miss your smile, your laugh, the face you made when we were in math class, and the look you gave me when i first saw you. enjoy the rest of high school and i hope you succeed in life, i love you matthew and take care.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: December 7, 2020, 7:25 pm UTC
i was in love with u, and i think a part of me will always be. i never got to tell u bc i was ur bestfriend, nothing more, nothing less. i have to let go of you bc holding onto you like this isnt healthy. goodbye matty, i love you
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: December 6, 2020, 11:48 am UTC
I can’t get over you, even when I’m with someone else I still think of you. I know you’re happy with her and I’m glad you’re with her, I wish it was me. I’ve excepted that we will never happen, we were never a we anyway but I wish we were :(
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: December 6, 2020, 10:09 am UTC
at first i added you because of your truck then we started talking everyday, i learnt more about you and i started to like your personality, i didnt find you cute at first but now i do, i think about you 24/7 and i LOVE talking to you, but you take ages to snap me back :( i really really like you but i dont think you feel the same, its been 6 months ?
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: December 4, 2020, 4:47 am UTC
i catch myself almost saying the L word every night we're on call but i know it's too soon. i really like you
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:30 am UTC
hi baby, i hope ur doing okay, i rlly miss u rn. i wish i could’ve said a better goodbye, but it ended so fast, i will always love you, and i’m so thankful for everything u did. i miss you.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: November 12, 2020, 7:54 pm UTC
ah yes. first real "love" if you want to call it that. best friends, but one caught feelings while the other "never knew". classic. you were sweet, charming, funny, and supportive. you knew how to make me laugh when i wanted to cry and you did homework with me over facetime so i didn't feel lonely. pushing you away when i left was a blessing and a mistake. i realized that i loved you so much, that you were my best friend. nothing more. but in the process, i lost you for a little bit. although i used to think i was in love with you, all i want is for you to find love. that is my wish for you. i love you matty. best friends
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: November 11, 2020, 9:49 pm UTC
i hope youre okay. i want to talk to you i just dont know how. im sorry i didnt respond differently. i wish we could go back to the way things were before. i can tell the way you text me is different. it breaks my heart to know that things wont be the same, but thats just the way it is now.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: October 3, 2020, 10:14 pm UTC
soo hey, ik ur never ever gon see this, but im tired of waitin, i want u to be mine rn ! just ask me out already !
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: October 3, 2020, 7:18 am UTC
I know you hate me, even though you said you don't. I will always love you, Matty. The door will always be open.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: October 2, 2020, 1:24 am UTC
i want to talk to you. it has only been two days but i promised myself i would wait at least a week. i miss your voice. and i miss your presence. and i miss your jokes and laugh. i miss you.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: September 19, 2020, 12:32 am UTC
i never think of you anymore but i saw a photo of you recently and i love you and i’m proud of you even though i never told you
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: September 16, 2020, 6:58 pm UTC
i care about you so much. i know that you are going through and have gone through a lot and there is not a single thing anyone can do to help. but i am here, always.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: September 16, 2020, 4:44 pm UTC
irony is a bitch isn't it. ironic how messages are left. ironic how words are misconstrued and misinterpreted. ironic how i do love you and i may never even let you know it. and ironic that i am not the only one.
From: ABC
To: mathew
Date: September 7, 2020, 4:18 am UTC
i hope one day i don’t think of our future, not because i don’t love but because it’s so bad for us to keep thinking that way. i just want for us both to be happy even if it means with other people, which would probably be best.
