Unsent messages to MARCO

You choose her over our friendship and you didn't even talk to me before blocking me for HER
FUCK YOU

im so sorry i hurt you. im so sorry that i let my insecurities get in the way of what could have been an amazing relationship. i love you

te extraño y no sabes cuanto, quiero que vuelvas a mi pero ya no se puede lo entiendo, nunca olvides que te quiero

yo it’s Laurence yk I’m sure you’ll never see this lol but I hope you’re doing okay man. Your cool hope life’s not being to much of a bitch anyway congrats on making it to 15. proud of you:)

I forced myself to love you because I didn't want to hurt you. I ended up hurting both of us instead.

Ti amo così tanto che non c'è niente che non farei per te, grazie di avermi insegnato cos'è l'amore. Per sempre al tuo fianco.

Hey you probably don't even know my name because I'm new to the school. You also happen to be a senior while I'm a junior. One of my friends also likes you and I know she has a better chance than me. I can't even get the courage to follow you on insta. but I think you are funny and cute Xx

i still think about you everyday, i wish i could listen to lil peep with you again, sometimes i ask myself if i should visit him instead

i miss you marco. i wish i didnt but i do. i wish you were nicer. you are a pretty mean person ;/. you hurt me alot more than i first realized. youve left a hole in my heart, and left me struggling to trust. you hurt me marco. you hurt me so much. i dont know how long itll take for me to recover, or if i ever will. i miss you. its a muted, numbing pain. no more violent sobbing, just looking at pictures of you with a soft pain in my heart. did you ever love me ? i dont believe i was ever anything special to you. it all feels fake when i look back. it hurt to see you move on while i was still in that summer phase. i wouldve never grown out of that phase if you kept that mask up. ive seen your true colors now, and i now know that its better for me to not get back you you, as friend or girlfriend. you are a draining person who refuses help and puts problems onto others. you are pessimistic all the time and its draining. my heart does hurt for you, i cannot imagine what you must be going through, but it seems like you are content with it. you dont seem to want help marco, and its draining to try and help someone who doesnt want it. to care for someone that obviously does not want it.i dont like how you always turn it around to you. its not nice of you to make me comfort you when i go to you for comfort. i dont like how you flipped it to you. i remember dreading to tell you about my relapse because of how much you would overreact. and i know its no easy thing to hear from someone you "love" but least you couldve done was comfort me. i was hurting and you made it worse. its quite obvious you arent in the right headspace for a relationship. it was obvious with your previous relationships too. you need help marco. please if you take anything out of this just please get help. please. you are hurting people by not getting help. youre hurting people alot. please. your problems are not ones you can solve yourself. your problems are severe and need proper advice and help. please marco, love get help. you arent in a good place, and thats ok and theres people who know how to take care of you, people who know how to treat you. please, you arent well. you may think you are under control but when you step outside of your perspective, youll see how dire your situation truly is. i love you and still care about you and i hope you heal from whatever may be hurting you. wish you the best.

i miss you. i miss your laugh. i miss your smile. i miss being able to call you my bestfriend. thank you for everything. i hate that it had to go this way. im sorry that you didn't feel the same way. i wish i hadn't ruined thing between us. i love you forever and always bubs

It's been a few years now, yet I still think about you. There's so many things I want to tell you about, but I know you won't care to listen. :/

Even though I actually did hurt you, I always think about what our relationship could’ve been like ? Wished we stayed at least as friends.

yknow what? fuck your sorry ass. tired of you fucking guilt tripping me. fuck you marco. and i fucking mean that. not gonna fucking take it back. you are such a toxic manipulative fuck and i hope you know your depression isnt a pass to act like a fucking asshole. fuck you for maing me second guess myself. fuck you for making me walk on eggshells. shouldve fucking listened to you when you said i should leave. fuck you marco . im so fed up with your shit and if you read this, i dont give a fuck if this hurt you. really dont fucking care at this point. so fed up with your bullshit. tired of fucking taking care of a fucking child. fuck you. cant believe i wasted tears on your ass. fuck you never fucking sacrificing my fucking well being for you anymore. fuck you.

Well, you are the person who hurt me most than everyone else.
But I’m so grateful just because that made me stronger, that made me love myself.
So, I just got a question for you:
Did you ever love me?
Or just I even care you once?
NOOO.
I don’t know, sometimes I try to understand why you did everything on that way but I never find an answer.
I want to hate you, I swear but I can’t.
I CAN’T.
YOU REALLY FUCKED ME UP.

I did love you, however you broke me and then blamed me. I don’t hate you. I hope you are happy and thriving. I hope you accomplish all the things you once told me

ya dun goofed. seriously. i empathize with literally everyone, but i cant seem to empathize with u anymore. oh i try! just like, heal bro. heal. dont lead people on. dont make people worry about you. did you ever apologize for the pressure and guilt youd put on others? see, the thing is marco, i cant empathize with people who can't admit or realize where they went wrong first. work on that. sincerely, an acquaintance.

we both made the same mistakes, both hurt each other except im left still loving you. i wish i knew how much i was hurting you earlier. im so sorry

been looking through our texts for about 2 hours. it hurts so much. seeing texts saying id crumble without you. saying that id be dead before i hurt you. not sure what hurts more, seeing me hitting 3 week milestones multiple times or you saying you love me and that i was perfect, and that we were healthy. saying there was zero toxicity and that we were perfect. i miss that phase. i love you marco.thank you for those memories love

do you still think about kissing me ? think about how my lips felt against yours ? i still crave your kiss. still crave your warmth, your body. all i want to do is hold and kiss you. play with your hair as you lay in my lap once more. look into your eyes and just get lost in how beautiful they are. just want to hold your perfect face in my hands and tell you i love you. tell you its all gonna get better. all i want to do is comfort you. it hurts not being able to do anything about your pain. really miss playing with your hair. shits hella soft and pretty. i miss you.

i still love you so much. it fucking hurts seeing you so distant love. it hurts so much man. it hurts. please just love me again im begging you. why are we so distant? what happened to us? what happened to being soulmates man fuck. i miss just endlessly texting you. i miss you so much. please marco love me back. please. why cant it go back to the way it was in summer ? i miss gushing over text with music playing on the call. miss that lil flirty phase we had. i miss you so much, please just love me back. i swear i dont hate i you. i love you marco. i remember you asking once if you said i love you too much. i would do anything to go back to summer. would do anything to have you love me back. do i even mean anything to you ? am i still your summer love ? or at least your friend? i miss you so much marco. miss being on call all the time n hearing you breathe at night. i miss it all. are you not hurting ? does it not hurt to ignore me for hours on end ? to be so dry to me ? i miss you so much. miss the love you gave me. miss our summer nights just playing minecraft and having innocent fun. i miss you marco. i hope you still love me.

Me sigues poniendo nerviosa cada vez que te veo, han pasado años pero siempre tendrás un trozo de mi corazón

i don't know why but i really have wanted to text you these past couple days. i can't because it would be unfair to you. i know I broke you months ago and texting you would break you again, but what if i don't text and i end up broken? i cant ask you these questions since you don't want to talk anymore. i will just submit this stupid form instead even though that will hardly fix anything. help

I guess I just always imagined we’d end up together. We could’ve been the real life movie love story of the one next door.

There's many things I wish I could say to you, but I know that'll never happen again because she makes you happier.

I saw you at your worst and never thought to leave you. You saw me struggling and you left. I still love you.

an unrequited love, i loved so much it didn’t last for both of us. i think i loved you, but your not and will never be mine:) thank u for letting me love you

You leaving devastated me. I don't believe people much but when you said you would stay I trusted you. I should have said that I loved you back. Each day you're still on my mind and it's been months. I still hope you'll return even if it's unlikely.

You told me that you loved me. I should have said it back. I haven’t stopped thinking about you since you’ve left. I still have hope that you’ll come back one day even if it’s stupid. I miss you.

You told me that you loved me. I should have said it back. I haven’t stopped thinking about you since you’ve left. I still have hope that you’ll come back one day even if it’s stupid. I miss you.

I will always think that you were the right person at the wrong time, I will try to overcome you but deep down I will be waiting for you, for me it will always be you, when you left you took a part of me please take good care of her, I miss you a lot and be without it hurts a lot, I will always love you

I think what hurts is that you'll never understand how you've made me feel. How that the way you treat me affects my mood. I know I deserve better but I can't let go

you helped me learn how a girl should be treated by not treating me in that way. thanks for being there some of the time.

I wonder how Things would have been if I had met you earlier. Maybe you would have reciprocated my Feelings. You were my first love but to you, I was just another Girl.

i wish things could be different. i hate this age gap. i hate your father. i hate everyone for tearing you away from me. ill forever think of you.

you killed me inside. i would give anything to go back to being the girl i was before you. happy, care-free, secure, and fine with being alone. you came in and you broke me. i loved you more than i loved myself, and i loved you unconditionally. you used me and left when you no longer needed me. i thought i had found the person i was going to spend the rest of my life with. even after all this time, i still hurt as if it happened yesterday. you shattered my heart to pieces, and i'm so sick of hearing about how you didn't mean to and that you still love me, because you could never do the things you did to me to someone you were genuinely in love with. and even after all of that, i'm still here waiting, and begging, and hoping you'll come back. fighting for someone who was over me before the relationship was even over. no matter how many guys i talk to they will never be you. and the thought that i might never feel the way you made me feel again scares me so fucking bad. i love you so much, but i can't make you love me back. i don't think i'll ever not love you. i pray every day that maybe this was all supposed to happen but that we'll be able to find our way back to each other because all i want is to be with you. you broke me, but i will always love you

i miss you. getting over you is my biggest burden. you suck. i want to hate you. im sad. im sorry, i suck. i love you.

We were trying too hard to hold on, it was too toxic. I began falling out of love for you and we both need to move in. Being friends is too hard.

why. i was getting better you fuck. i have to fight the urge to relapse every fucking minute of every day all over again

i was only 13 and you ruined my life. you made me feel like asking for help was a bad thing. but i loves you and i think i will till the day i die. i just hope to never see you again.