Unsent Messages

you killed me inside. i would give anything to go back to being the girl i was before you. happy, care-free, secure, and fine with being alone. you came in and you broke me. i loved you more than i loved myself, and i loved you unconditionally. you used me and left when you no longer needed me. i thought i had found the person i was going to spend the rest of my life with. even after all this time, i still hurt as if it happened yesterday. you shattered my heart to pieces, and i'm so sick of hearing about how you didn't mean to and that you still love me, because you could never do the things you did to me to someone you were genuinely in love with. and even after all of that, i'm still here waiting, and begging, and hoping you'll come back. fighting for someone who was over me before the relationship was even over. no matter how many guys i talk to they will never be you. and the thought that i might never feel the way you made me feel again scares me so fucking bad. i love you so much, but i can't make you love me back. i don't think i'll ever not love you. i pray every day that maybe this was all supposed to happen but that we'll be able to find our way back to each other because all i want is to be with you. you broke me, but i will always love you