Unsent messages to LILY

I MISS YOU SO MUCH. Words can not even explain the way you make me feel. You're my favorite person in the whole entire world igggg? kant wait till i cum and c yhu again

every day i feel terrible for what i did. you told me you forgive me but the idea i ruined love for you breaks my heart. i wish we could talk about rhis because im a much better person now but i dont you'll ever see that

idk why it’s not working, but basically what i said was - it might take a while for me to fall, but i promise i’ll try, either way - you’re definitely going to make 2021 a lot better

I liked you, maybe still do... but you don't like me and the timing was never quite right. I wish we had a chance to do it right.

you were the first one to show me what love really is, it makes me feel Kinda of attached, but just know I'm grateful for all our memories together, I shall cherish them forever. I love you

hey its me, riana. i wish you knew about this website so that you can read this. i cant imagine being with anyone else, i love you and i know that i'll never stop. you have a part of my heart. i know you said you'd wait forever to be with me, but now idk if you would. a lot has happened in the past 24 hours, i know that we are not supposed to talk. lily my heart is broken, and i know that if i ever had to see you with someone else my heart would shatter again. im not sure what you think about me this point, but i want to ask you, Could you ever imagine being with someone else? i know i cant, i want to be with you and only you. we told each other we are soulmates, and i really hope that i get to have your last name one day.

i want to see you, but i know thats not possible. i want to hug you and tell you im sorry, but i know that cant happen either, so ill hug myself, because maybe you want to hold me and tell me that everything will be ok, because that's all i want to do to you.

in response to your message and to bring back something jamison once sent on my phone - there are 14 billion in the world and i only want yours LMFAOOOOO

I’m sorry I left for her I was just in a bad mental state at the time if you want It would make me the happiest person alive to be with you once again.

hey lol, ilysm but like i wish we could hangout, i feel like i'm too clingy and i wish i could cuddle with you at all times and i've really wanted to kiss you but like the timings never right and the few times it is your friends advise me against it, i wish we could hangout alone and like i wish at this point you would make the move cause im too worried but anyways ily and fuck i just showed you this site so you may find this but welp lol.

Thankyou for saving me, I don’t think you realise you did. But I wouldn’t be here without out. I’m sorry

i never got the courage to tell you how i felt. seeing you not care for all the love i shined onto you hurt me, but only made me love you more. i want you to pity me, but even i know I'm better than that. its just... when do i get to be the girl you choose.

I hope you're doing good and every thing Is well but I miss you Soo much and wish u would come back...

I love you please return my feelings before I give up on us.. I fucking hate your toxic boyfriends they can literally die.

I loved you, and i broke me when you would flirt with him in call, i told you i liked you.Maybe you were just straight, or maybe you just didnt like me.Youre a beautiful girl and you're amazing.Keep living.

you hurt me so much and you don’t even know that you hurt me. i don’t hate you but fuck you knew i was vulnerable

I know you’ll never see this but it’s me... I love you so much lily.. you know who I am.. and I know you’ll see this someday.. but please don’t ever forget about me.. goodbye love

I love you, ever since I met you in that one group I never meant anything I was scared in afraid so I left, I’m sorry I hope you forgive me

(I'm so sorry but this is your dead name I think but idk what your new name is so forgive meh :/ )
I fancied you for ages... fuck it I still do, I told u and u didnt feel the same so I tried to forget about you but everyday i see you i fall even more cos no matter what happens u r more and more attractive... u dont notice me but I notice u... I told my friends I dont like u anymore but that's a lie... I hate school cos I see you and freak out... so yeah :)

I am so sorry about all the pain I've caused you. I think too much about you and I hope you're doing well

I love you, I do but I'm very conflicted at this moment. Things are confusing and I don't know if i can keep us going much longer. It's wearing me out. You depend on me emotionally, it's hard. I am just lost, I'm sorry.

fucking christ i’m embarrassed about what i wrote, yeah and it’s me lmao. i’m sorry i don’t know what i was doing. i was immature asf. it’s ok that we’re not friends. i’m so embarrassed omg

Lily- I miss you more than I ever thought I would. I have to come home. I don't care if I have to uproot my whole life and quit my job. It will all be worth it if I am with you. I'm booking a flight. See you soon, love, Chuck

chuck, I was just telling you about this website a few hours ago. if you ever see this, please come home. I miss you so much I don't know what to do with myself. the city isn't as bright when you are not here.

i’m sorry for everything you went through and all the nights you cries i’m sorry fir putting others first i’m sorry for all the lies i’m so proud of you and i love you with my whole heart 2021 is a new year and a new start

lowkey in love w you but i cant tell if you feel the same oops anyways im sorry if this is weird lmfao but yh

im so glad that you dropped me cause i finally get to make my own choices and not be controlled by a selfish greedy bitch who was jealous that i had other friends fuckuuuuuuuuu

To lils, I’ve only know u for a couple of months but it feels like longer. U already know things abt me that no one else does and that’s bc I know I can trust u and that u won’t judge me. U have the biggest heart, ur always putting everyone else before yourself and u make sure everyone’s ok. I love ur sense of humour and I feel like I can be myself around u. Plus u are a very fun drunk person to be around. U deserve so much so stop going for guys who treat u like shit bc ur a freaking goddess ur so so so gorgeous and u deserve better than that!! I love u loads, M xxx

hi lily, hope all is ok. looking back we were literally best friends, sisters even. sometimes i miss u a ton and want everything to go back to how it was in 8th grade being annoying and lab partners at school. u are pretty short tempered and that's probably the reason why we aren't friends anymore. hurts a lot a lot and i miss our friendship so so much. its a lot to take in us going separate ways but i hope your way leads you to happiness, something that you have always wanted .

i think we are actually friend soulmates and you are my whole world. even if i give up i hope you never do

the number 1 thing that brings joy to my life is your fake laugh. you know the one you do when we both know the joke wasn't funny but we feel bad. it lights up my life idk why

fuck you lily. You took advantage of that soft spot I had for you. You were the first person I met and really fucking enjoyed being around. You meant so much to me without realising. I often think about how youre doing, wonder if you think the same. I doubt it. Anyways im doing better now. started talking to someone but it doesn't feel as good as what we had. It feels wrong. I cant even talk to a girl without comparing her to you. Ive changed so so much it be funny to see your reaction. I hope one day we bump into each other or meet at a party and were the only two not talking to anyone so you walk over to me. Or one day I get that tap on the shoulder, it turn around and its you. I sometimes dream about you messaging me. I still have that custom message tone for just you. I dont remember what it sounds like anymore but I know if I hear it, everything would stop for a little while. I really hate you for what you did to me. I can live with it. One thing that's always going to be stuck in my head is the question why. I never got an answer and I always think about the reasons whenever im drunk. I cant drink anymore and be happy. Thanks lily. Hope youre doing well.

hi bbg you deserve the whole world, and nothing less. i want you to be happy, and he didn’t treat you right.

what you did was so selfish, u knew how much he meant to me. he's the only person I've ever loved and you know that, you just had to hook up with him leaving me forever in pain and longing for that relationship that I can't go back to because of u. I forgave both of u but god I wish it was different it's so hard to hate you because u both were my best friends and one my first love and I don't wanna resent either of you but fuck you lily ffuucckk you bro. ik it takes two to tango but if u were a true friend u wouldn't have even talked to him let alone do the shit you did. if you just stopped being an attention whore for one moment i could probably be with the boy i love. the fact that I'm still hurting bc of u and yet i forgave you and stopped you from feeling hurt kills me i should be the one doing okay but I'm not.

Sometimes I rest my hand on my face the way you did just to remember what it was like. It's not the same. I wish you knew how you changed my world. I had never felt love and then something clicked with you and I suddenly saw it everywhere. Couples holding hands and leaning on each other everywhere I looked, I saw love everywhere for the first time and it's like I suddenly understood a part of the world that I hadn't even known existed before.

Lily I love you. The fun chats at the park and how we always laugh. I want to ask you, but I am afraid you are looking for the other men.

every time I look at you my heart fills with happiness, but you are stuck looking at other guys. I really want to ask you out but I am fearful you will say no and I will be forever sad.

you’re one of the reasons i’m alive. we look at these together sometimes so if you ever come back to look, just know i love you more then words can describe. you’re my best friend and my rock. even if i do make fun of you constantly yk i appreciate u

I miss how you talk and laugh.
I hope you smile more with them then you did with me. You deserve to be happy

Hola Lilian
I miss you and i wish my mom would let me sleep over your house again. Your bed is rlly comfy

I think I could fall back in love with you if I tried. I'm not in love with you anymore, but you're still one of my best friends. I know you're having a hard time right now, and so am I, but I promise everything is going to be okay. I know its hard to believe right now but I swear we're going to get out of here, you and me. we don't have it easy right now but it's all going to be worth it soon. please, keep your head up for me. you're a literal blessing to this earth and you deserve to be able to live life to the fullest. you are one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I love you.

I wish I didn’t fall for you the way I did, you broke me in a million pieces and said thank you when you forgave me

i still kinda miss you, you were always there to listen but you really didn’t care in the end, you hurt me.

Hey queen, please don't hurt yourself because i don't know what I'd do without you. You saved me, but i don't know how to save you back.

i hope you know i miss you. i messed up and i didnt appreciate what i had with you. i still love you but im too scared to text incase you dont feel the same.

You told me you may have not made the right choice with him. It got my hopes up, but it's been nearly 6 months now.

i tell everyone i'm over you, but i still get high every night, put on movie by tom misch, and wonder what would have happened if i had been good enough for you.

i was never in love with u romantically but u were my best friend. i am so mad at myself for ruining what we had, and i wish i could go back and change what i did. i am sorry for acting like i was better than you, and i didn't need you, but i did. i still miss you so so much and if i could go back and change everything i would.

Hey,
I forgive you.
But I just don’t think we could work again. Being with you was the experience of a lifetime but I just can’t see us together in the future. Even if We don’t talk anymore, I will still always love you.

I love you so much. Thank you for being there for me since first grade. You have helped me shape the person I am today. Even though I've been distant recently, know I love you forever.