Unsent messages to LANDON

I don’t have feelings for you anymore but I still think about you more than I should. Maybe it is because I never got closure or because I always thought we were capable of so much more. I guess we will never know.

You probably don’t even think about me anymore and it has been a year since I saw you but I think about you everyday. I still like you and I always will.

Allison

I wish you can help me quit. It got worse since but it’s the only thing that makes me feel something.

i know my landons still in there somewhere. i miss the old you. everything i absolutely loved and adored of you just disappeared one day

You recently got with a girl, I’m so happy that you’re happy. But sometimes I catch myself wishing you were happy with me instead.
-your bestfriend

I miss you every day and I think of all our memory's and how different this could have gone and I'm sorry I never saw what was right in front of me all along

Hey Landon, thanks for always making me feel special. I know you're closer to some of the other guys, but I really wish we could be better friends. Because when I'm with you, everything just feels right.

god i just...i just miss talking to u. i hate not knowing why u started ignoring me. i’m sorry if it was something i did

Hey Landon, thanks for being the most loving boyfriend ever! I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you❤️

i really wish u were talking to me rn. i really need to talk to someone that might understand me because i am not doing good.

God fucking damn it, I hate the fact you used to be into me and I took it for granted, I took us for granted- I just want summer back when you cared and I could tell that you cared..

i’d do anything and everything for you, i love you as much as a person can love another one. sadly you don’t feel the same.

I've liked you ever since you moved to our school and I miss you and I think I'm in love with you. All I want to do is be with u.

i wish things had gone differently. i think of u when i listen to chicago. i listen to chicago a lot.

you ft me yesterday. you told people it was an accident, but a part of me felt like it wasn't. u said u were supposed to facetime someone else, but u never hung up. U let it ring. it took everything in me to not pick up. I wonder what would have happened if i did. its almost been 3 months. idk what im feeling anymore.

i hope you know i’ll never forget about you. i hope this place in my heart you filled is never abandoned

even though ive moved on, i will never be able to lose the love i have for you. you will always have a special place in my heart but i never want back what we had

When we were together, you were my "yellow." I'm sorry that things had to end the way that they did, but I really appreciate all of the late night car rides in your big ole truck, the ice cream dates, and random little acts of love you did for me. I hope you are doing well and that you've found a girl that makes you even happier than I did.

we were flirting and you had to bring up that you had a girlfriend. we stop talking and I have moved on but I will still love you with all of my heart.

I love you. I haven’t been able to get you out of my head for 3 years and now i’m watching you fall in love with my best friend.

sometimes i wonder if you actually care about me. you surely don't act like you do. some things you say really hurt me. i'm not gonna tell you that but please be mindful of how you treat girls. we are really sensitive at heart and take what you say seriously. this is my truth and to be honest i still care a lot about you. you choose everyone over me but i choose you over everyone and maybe that's why there is no we. we live in two completely different worlds. you know i was wrong about you. i thought that we would have a chance if i tried really hard. but what i failed to realize is it takes the both of us for this to work. if you're not going to meeting me half way i'm not sure if this is going to work. the future is uncertain but i want you to be in mine. but then again nothing hurts more than knowing you'll never get to know how i feel. i was wrong to think that you and me would be any different.

i loved you for so long and i’m so sorry because i realize now i didn’t even know you at all. thank you for being so nice when you didn’t have to, i genuinely hope you are happy.

it took me 4ever to get over u. ty 4 showing me how to love and how to overcome the feeling of being broken.

Landon, you were smarter than everyone else kinder than everyone else and yet you still chose to love me and yet you still left on that fateful summer in 6th grade now we are both nothing in the great wide universe but sometimes I wonder if you now look at another the way you once looked at me you were my first crush my first love and yet it’s silly to think I still dwell on the past and something so silly but I hope you still think and wonder about me as I do you I miss you and I hope you found your peace I know I was not good enough for you, you got in the Harvard in the 5th grade you were on the news and were a professional smart you did everything so well you were a prodigy and I was your student you tutored me everyday and could make every word sound as sweet as maple syrup and yet you slipped out of my reach I hope you do well I know you will you are a prodigy and am just the dumb girl who sat in the back of your math class and yet I will never look at another the same it’s sad to dwell on the past so much but still with those blue sky like eyes how could I forget you I love you and hope you find someone who looks at you like I do, I love you.

i laughed with you, u ghosted me, i thought u where different, i didn't care how you looked, i liked your personality...

sometimes i wish you understood the hurt i go through to be with you. i wouldn't change it for the world, but please be kind. this relationship has been harder on me than you’ll ever understand. i love you hun

I've never met anyone who reminds me of myself before. I didn't think I'd like it but you're pretty cool

i realize that it’s mostly my fault that things are fucked up. but fuck u for making me feel stupid for hoping that u actually liked me. u made me feel fucking crazy and i will forever resent u for that. fuck u and have a good life

you make me forget everything bad in my life. you make me feel worth it, even when i dont want to be.

you taught me how i need to be loved. im sorry i gave up the first time. please dont give up on me this time.

I blame you for making me fall In love with you. I just blame myself more for believing when you said it was alright to.

I blame you for making me fall In love with you. I just blame myself more for believing when you said it was alright to.

I crave you when you're not around and I'm so grateful when you're here. I cherish the love that you give me. I want you forever.

I have liked you since the first time I saw you but I couldn’t tell you because my other friends liked you too and you were also dating one of them. And till this day I still like you.
———Someone you knew in the 6th Grade

I will never forgive you for hurting me. You are a monster from hell. I've suffered every day because of you.

i hate that i still think about us even after you lied and treated me terribly. I guess a part of me will always wish we were the ones that ended up together.

Why did you make me fall In love if you were going to leave. You knew what you meant to me. was us even real?

i love you so much. i miss you more and more everyday. i’m so glad to see you happy. you’re my person even tho i know i’m not yours. you’re my forever. i’m sorry for letting you slip away so easy. if i could i would go back and never let you leave :(

You said my name was cool, that my hair was nice, and that it shouldn’t matter what anyone else thinks of me. Hearing it from you hit really hard actually. We both dress the same, listen to the same music, and your favorite colors are the same as mine. Black and red, in the exact order I say it. I want you to be my soulmate, more than anything. I’ll take you with all your baggage. Fuck your diagnosis, fuck this town, fuck the two year age gap, fuck it all. I don’t care if I can say fuck it with you.

i’m so sorry for everything. i love you so much. i hope you’re doing okay. please take care of yourself.

i wish you knew that im doing better now. i just want to know why you gave up on us and why you changed when you promised you wouldn't :(

I’m sorry I couldn’t be what you wanted. I’ll let you go now, maybe I’ll find peace without you some day. I love you, sweet boy.

i’ve written here multiple times and every single time my feelings for you change. i don’t know what u want anymore and it’s just so confusing for me. i’m so tired of feeling unwanted by u. i keep thinking it’s my fault, like i did something wrong but i know that’s not true. i’m doing nothing wrong, it’s ur fault for not treating me how i deserve to be treated. i don’t think i’ll ever let myself give up on u but i need to take a step back and breath for a bit bc it’s so tiring.

Don’t ever say I didn’t care. I had to leave because you didn’t treat me right. There’s no compromise to that.