you hurt me more than words can explain but i will always cherish the good memories we had. thank you for making me the stronger version of myself.

It's not because I didn't like you. It's because I liked you too much. The kind that I want to spend time with you and only you. How am I supposed to tell you that when I know that I'm that complete opposite of the girl you once fell in love with? You're so dense sometimes.

When you went with me to see that movie, all my plans were ruined. I wanted to enjoy it, you know. But you just had to sit next to me. I was so nervous I thought I'd pass out when the movie ended cause my heart was racing so much, I was so busy thinking about you that I can't even remember what the movie was about haha

I hate how i know you’ll think it’s cringey when i show you affection. Yea, i do want to kiss you, hug you, give you the warmest cuddles, and play with your hair. I do think about doing that with you all the fucking time. All the fucking time. But all you ever see of me is a friend you can use to make fun of. Someone “cool” enough to keep up with your immaturity. I hate it. We’re not little kids anymore. I’m showing affection towards you because i’m so inlove with you and it hurts how all the fucking time you think i’m joking. It hurts when you make fun of me for wanting to spend time with you. I should’ve told you that we’ll be moving states soon. But, at this point, I don’t think it even matters anymore. Once i’m gone you’ll forget about me, just like you always do.

ay amix te considero uno de mis mejores amigos se que no hemos hablado tanto estos dias pero verga no sabes cuanto aprecio tu amistad D:y espero poder durar hasta que seamos viejitos vale verga aun asi todo rarito te tkm y espero siempre puedas confiar en mi perdon por haberla cagado tantas veces

I wish we met at a different time. You were my special someone and it hurt to let you walk away from me so easily. If you ever came back I would still feel the same love I had before.

I was so mad at you for giving up so easily. It’s so hard for me to fall asleep knowing you’re not mine anymore. I changed all my bad habits for you. I shouldn’t have let you take advantage of the soft spot I had for you. All those endless nights waiting for your call and you using the same excuse. I never asked for much. All I needed was your attention. I pretended not to be hurt with how little effort you had put in. Yet after all of this I still love you.

We aren’t together anymore but I still have feelings for you. Yet you keep playing with her instead..

hi Julian we just had a little arguement,nothing big lol.You made me cry a little lol.i hope the best for you and her.tbh imy lol.bye

As my eating disorder gets worse my hair falls out and i bruise easily. I need you. But you dont need me.

i miss you. i miss 3 years ago you. i miss you’re stupid jokes, i miss you’re stupid tic tac toe games, i miss you’re crooked smile looking at me while we laugh together . but it meant nothing to you bc you chose her. why would you choose me when you could choose her. i’m sorry for not being enough for you

I want to do what we always did when one of us needed a hug, to run up to each other, and you would pick me up and hold me close

it was right person wrong time... even i have so much growing to do... i hope we find our way back to eachother...

I am so in love with you, but you act like you love me and then you flirt with other girls, I don't want your indecision, I don't deserve that.

You hurt me.I hate you so much, but my love for you is so strong that whenever you do something wrong I’ll always take you back because you are probably the only person I loved with all your flaws I hate myself so much for loving you after what you put me through and Ik I can be rough but it’s because I’m scared to show what I actually feel I just want to love you and I want you to love me I want you to tell me how much I mean to you and not call me bro you know what pisses me off and you still do it but when we do talk about certain things it’s like you make up for what of a bitch you are we both seem happy we both laugh and it’s like wow I really like this boy but than you disappoint me once again you do some dumb shit and it’s back on step one and Ik I’m gonna allow myself to get stepped on by you and no matter how hard you hurt me I always push it behind me because I can’t see myself accepting the truth I know that sooner or later it’s gonna end but until that day Ik that you will always be a big impact in my life so thank you for ruining me but helping me as well and never forget that I’ll alway care for you and I hope that one day I’ll see how much of a bitch you were so yeah goodnight.

I wish I could’ve had u. But everything happens for a reason so I wish u the best wit whoever u end up wit .

i gave you so many chances, why couldn’t you just keep your promises? we could’ve made spotify playlists together, instead of having sad ones about each other. i look at the songs you add each day. i know you look at mine too. it could’ve been us J. but I can’t just keep giving you chances. I can’t keep letting you hurt me.

You're my best friend and I think I'm truly in love with you. I hope I never loose you. I wish you felt the same.

where do i begin?
you’re really good at drawing. You can go a long way with that type of talent. we kinda drifted, and we should definetly talk soon. if you’re up for it. hope you’re doing good. wish u the best

FUCK YOU! Honestly!! what you did was sooo wrong and i didn't deserve it!! I really want to tell you that in person but then i would be the crazy one cause you are the guy and you cant do anything wrong

YOU KNEW WHAT YOU WERE DOING!!! YOU KNEW IT AND YOU STILL DID IT.. i didn't expect it from you to be honest.. that hurted

YOU KNEW WHAT WILL HAPPEN YOU KNEW WHAT YOU DID!!! and you still did it.. i didn't expected it from you.. that one really hurt

i saw you and your girlfriend together. it hurt. you were never mine but i was always yours. i still am.

so your at your cousins birthday right now, but i just wanted to say i love you so much and miss you even though its only been a few hours. if i could stay up all night talking to you i absolutely would i wish i could do it every night. im in a kinda weird place right now and wish you could talk to me because you always seem to make me feel amazing and safe and loved. i dont think you know how much you mean to me julian, ill love you forever even if you ever loose your love for me

your soul is like no other. i want to be held in your arms forever. trapped in your gaze forever. your touch is so gentle. i love you more than yesterday and ill love you even more tomorrow.

julian, im sorry, ur too good for me. i wish i was different, i wish i could be who u think i am. come visit soon please.

i really did like you. you were the first guy i had real feelings for. but you toke advantage of that. fuck you.

there was a time where i had a crush on you but realised that i preferred you as my best friend. i miss you, i am sorry for leaving you. i am so sorry, love niikii, please come back

I hate you but I don't in a way. I know if you tried to come back I would let you because you made me so happy. But you probably won't ever try. I wish you the best and yes I did love you.

All because you joined a gang... “I need to know now that we’re apart what did you do with my heart”..

Why did you feel the need to speak to others girl while we were together? You were my first love, and ever since I still haven't been able to love anyone else.

hey, how are you, its been a while since we talked and I just want to know but I can't talk to you. even tho we dont talk anymore and im over you I still think about the possibility and if you ever actually loved me the way I loved you, we've been through some shit and I know you've moved on but do you still think about me

you were my first love and i still think about you all the time.. but you have a girlfriend now and youve probably forgot all about me

If you wanted to you would. You’re the first boy I ever loved. It hurts to think you never saw me that way. Nor you ever cared. Because you still long for her... I watched it all. How you never saw me in the room because your eyes were fixated on her. I almost got used to the loneliness I felt as I watch you look at her as if she’s the only girl in the world. I watch and I watch. I cry myself to sleep as I get reminded that I wasn’t enough. For you, your friends, your family. I wasn’t enough. I get it, you know? She’s beautiful. I hate that I cant even hate her because she’s the kind of person I wanted to be. Strong and beautiful. I get why you were so charmed by her— that’s the worst part. I thought supporting you throughout it all would make me forget that I’m so inlove with you. It didn’t. I thought I could just forget all about it. Everyday I tell myself “I’m fine I’m fine” as I imagine dancing with you under the stars and you kissing my cheeks while caressing my face. I find it hard to seek comfort from the presence of other people because they just remind me that I’m no longer with you. Merry Christmas, Julian. Thank you for the good times. I love you, I always will. You know that.

you deserve the world. i miss you, but i really dont want you back in my life. we were right for each other while we were. not anymore.

i think that it was meant to be, in another universe at a different time. i love you so much, some parts of you, others not. i would do anything to be what we were before.

I've liked you for a while i think you knew but you said i wasn't your "type" and i get that but i wish that we could've been friends and then maybe get closer.

you told me you wanted me to move on but that you would be back so we can get married... we could've made each other so happy rn tho :(

I’m sorry for ever making you feel like you weren’t good enough- thank you for teaching me
how to be myself.I will always love you and you’ll always be the best friend I ever had.

i look for you in everyone i meet. i truly loved you. and i still do. maybe one day things will all make sense.

I love you, or maybe who I thought you'd be. You hurt me so much sometimes, but I can't help but love all the little things about you. It will always hurt, knowing I'll never be what's easy, I'll never be your first choice, I'll never be enough.

Dammit bruh. I cant stop missing you. Although we never dated I miss you so damn much. I miss the endless hours of talking to you. My heart fluttering every message sent. The secrets shared that we had kept silent. The secrecy of our relationship. The dirty little comments. The damn flirting. The constant flirting. You made me laugh and you r so cute. It been years since we last talked but I still miss you. I can't stand listening to my friends have crushes cuz I end up thinking abt u. And I end up going in circles convincing myself that u were bad aft what u did. But I cant help it. I don't know if I love you or if I just miss the ecstasy of falling in love. I hate u. But I miss u so much.

If you have any doubt being with her please just come back, I'm here with open arms waiting... I miss you so much, nothing has been okay since we parted ways, I need you but I can't reach out when you're with her again : (

Merry Christmas! Hopefully you will never read this. Hopefully you don’t snap me about this. Hopefully my friends don’t see this. This is me expressing my feelings for you. You are my best friend. My best friend that I will protect and appreciate. If you need me, I’ll be there for you. Don’t care about the distance but you are my best friend. I’ll do anything for you. I don’t want to see you hurt or be broken. Thank you for the smiles to gave me. Thank you for the present. You may not be perfect but in my eyes you are. You are my forever.

"They wanted to see us apart", I thought. They just wanted to see us apart, right? All I have to do is fight. But you couldn't do that for me. They wanted us apart. You wanted us apart.

julian, i love you. does are big words huh?i know. but i felt it whenever i talked to you. i know things arent going to work out or go any further then this. but these few months, ive never felt so amazing ive been struggling with depression and just seeing your texts brightens my day. im so in love with you i really wish you knew how much you mean to me. than you for being my first love even when ive dated a guy before you i just didnt love them, but youre so differnt from the rest and whenever what we have going on right now ends i hope you know that i woudlnt be here with out you and that youve made my world way more brighter.

maybe u could’ve liked me if i were a girl

i miss how we were

Love made me sick. Me being sick made you not love me.

you are in my heart… my soul
my being burns for you