Unsent messages to JULIA

I am sorry for not commiting. I was scared of the feelings you caused in me and i pulled back bc i didn't know how to deal with it

I dont you think you seem to notice my hints, but I really like you alot. Although we know each other more then 10 years I hope we could be more then friends...

you just don’t get it do you ? I will sacrifice anything for you and u still choose the people who make you hurt, I chose you over everything countless times and you don’t care, I love you unconditionally and you don’t care. You pick me up and put me down like i’m some toy, then you try and show me off to your friends. You act like you care about me only when you need me to stay on a call with you because you are bored, but once you get another call you leave in a heartbeat that’s quicker than mine when you call. I will always be here, in the same spot, waiting for you, and you will always be there, leaving, running away from me only to come back when you are hurt. But i would never give those 20 minute calls up, because they mean more to me than they do to you, by now you know if this is for you and exactly who it’s from, i kinda wish i never met you in that “houseparty”, i kinda wish you never needed me to heal u in the first place, i took all you sadness and you left with my happiness, but i still love you, i love you julia, ik we said it to each other the first night we met as if it was nothing, but i mean it now, I’m here, please only text me if you are willing to stay ❤️

I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate having you in my life. For helping me through the bad times and being there to help me celebrate the good times, I cherish all of the moments that we share together. There aren’t enough words in the dictionary for me to tell you how glad I am to have you in my life. I am so lucky to have you by my side. Everything you do for me never goes unnoticed. I don’t know what I did to deserve someone as wonderful as you, but I am eternally grateful to have your love, support, and affection. Thank you for being you, and for having me by your side.

heyyyyyyyyty
what’s up shawty
i’m literally writing this bc i’m bored and listening to modern baseball ?

even though we haven’t spoken to each other since we dated when we were young, i think about you sometimes. you taught me a lot. i’ve only seen you a select few times since then and i wish it wasn’t awkward. it’d be different if we were friends as adults. i hope you’re doing well.

I wonder all the time if we could have worked. That day I told you I started seeing him it felt like something was off.. Were you upset cause you liked him, or me? Or was it cause of something else? I wish I could read your mind, you’re so hard to read but that’s one of the things I love about you. Let’s see what happens later down the road. We’re so young, there’s still so much to do and see.

Even if you are super quiet you are always fun to be around. Everyone in our friend group (theres only 3 but whatever) thinks you are like the coolest person ever ( not even lying) your like so funny and just really fun to hang out with, even if you are quiet. Dont be so hard on yourself. You aren't ugly and no one hates you. (NO LITERALLY YOU ARE GORGEOUS AND WE ALL LOVE U) Happy New Years !

No one hates you im serious. stop being so hard on urself. you are literally so pretty stop calling urself ugly because you could literally be a model. fuck ur parents for being so strict and so cruel sometimes. you are literally so funny and like cOoL and its just rlly nice to be friends with.

hi :) u made me feel so happy today , i love u so so much, u r everything and more to me julia im so in love with u , made me happy on my bday cus i always find it such a rough day

I just want to spend all my time with you, I don't know what you think of half the time but I know what I think of. It's you and you only. I know you constantly have other things on your mind and it pained me when u had feelings for someone else.



You said you were looking for someone, well here I am.

I've been waiting what took you so long?






but trust me I'm going to hold your hand one day and hug you and protect you from any harm.




If you'll let me.

your mine, I will tell you trust me I will tell you soon.

because I think we could do it if we tried.

my heart belongs to you, all the memory we made together and were going to make so many more because I'm never going to leave you. I don't wanna say goodbye, say you're mine.

I hate having my hair played with
but I would let you do it in a heartbeat
I hate hugs
But i would love to hug you
I hate dancing
but i want to dance with you
i hate being photographed
but i want to take cute photos with you
I hate being made fun of
but I want you to make fun of me
I hate cute couples
but its because I want us to be one
I hate going out of my comfort zone
but i want you to help me out of my shell
i hate that you make me want to do things i would never normally do
i don't hate you at all
infact
i think i love you

i hope you know she’s just a replacement for you. i’ll probably always be stuck on you. i think we were soulmates but like you said, the damage has already been done.

If you weren't busy on going to college
and getting a career, will you be my girlfriend? Will you be the one that I'll wake up next to every single morning for the duration of our relationship?

you truly were a bitch and idk how I never saw it we have some fun memories though sorry you were jealous

I can't believe I fell in love with you again. You mean the world to me. Maybe one day you will feel the same

You are my literal sister & I love u sm. I really hope we don’t drift apart cause we’re so diff but so alike.

I miss you. You were the most amazing soul on this planet. I wish I could have said goodbye. Rest well.

You expect so much from people but don’t care about them at all. You talk about your struggling friends behind their backs and I think it’s pathetic.

i feel like we have such a special connection and you have no idea how much you mean to me i love you endlessly ii

You've been by my side for years even if I have acted like a bitch towards you. I'm sorry, I really do appreciate you for staying even when it may have cost you a friendship. Don't take this the wrong way I hate her for leaving but maybe it was partly my fault. You deserve everything and I know one day you'll be happy. Please stop bringing yourself down what you say isn't true, if I only I could find a way to tell you this in person. I've always been bad at stuff like this. Thank you

you will never see this, unless you know what this website is, and i know were only young and dumb, but i hope you love me as much as i love you. and yes were dating atm, and i never want that to end

I thought it would be wrong to like you because we were both girls. But why didn't you like me back? I did everything for you.

I miss you. I know I broke up with you and I have a new girlfriend, but I just can't seem to feel as much for her as I did for you. I know that sounds so horrible and it is. I miss the feeling of waking up and knowing I would be able to see you. I miss your demon dog and how I could never understand what your mom was saying. well. until the next life. I hate that. I can't see myself not getting married to you. maybe I should block you again. if you see this, please text me. please just one more time.

i think youre so epic and i really hope i have another shot with you idk why youre on my mind all the time since not much happened between us but i had a really good time with you and would love to see you again

i wish we were as close as we used to be but you’re shutting me out. please stop throwing your life away

What you did was unforgivable but if I could do it all over again with you knowing the heart breaking consequences, I would!

u don't know but i love you lol. ik u have a bf. that's okay he's rly nice and u seem happy. i don't.

I miss you a lot and i wish you'd contact me like you used to, call me your hero, give me teasing nicknames and talk about our life problems over the phone. Now you don't talk to me.. I miss you

You're the reason why I realized I like girls and also the reason why I'm now okay saying that out loud. I miss you.

Sometimes I think you're the one and sometimes I think I need to run. I wish I knew what to do with you. I know I love you but good does that do? I meant it when I said you're the thing I'm most grateful for. Thanks for introducing me to myself.

Eres la única a la que he podido contarle todo y quedarme tranquilo. Y desde el día que ambos empezamos a confiar en el otro mutuamente, me empecé a enamorar de ti.

It’s 5 am and I’m here typing this. If by any chance you’re seeing this, I just want to say I’m sorry for everything. You deserved better. I will forever be grateful for you. You showed me what it feels like to be loved. I’m here for you, always and forever.

im not mad at you. i cant be. youre my friend after all. just please take care of him julia. you cant hurt him like i did. please take care of him.

thank you for being the best friend I could ever have. i know I'm too much to handle. I'm sorry I'm doing so bad rn and disappointing u. i love you so much jewels. thank you for being the person who stays by my side thru anything.

you are my best friend, and will always be my best friend. you make me laugh all of time time, and i feel like were getting closer like we were in middle school.

hi. it has been years since we talked. im sorry for being so pushy, it was just that you were my best friend and i didn't want to loose you. im doing much better though!

Dear Julia,
341. 122. You can 428, simply because 1543. Please, 15243. And 1925, if you want to...
50538,
Your best friend :)

i think i might be in love with you everyone says i shouldn't be but i am...i keep imagine kissing you and i keep imagine holding you...shit idk what to do

You are going through a lot but you don't dare to open up. I notice. And I want to help you the way you helped me without noticing. Love you.

I know that we were not meant for each other but I was too excited about a fact that someone actually could love me

Sometimes I wonder if things would be different if I had just told you the truth about how I felt that one time...

i’m writing this to myself because i’m high and wanna see if i can remember i wrote this. anyway love u future self

i miss you but i don't want us to ruin our friendship because of stupid feelings.
but i do love you a lot, i hope you start talking to me again soon.

It's been almost 5 years. I'm too afraid to tell you how i feel because i don't want to ruin our friendship.

i like you...a lot. but i can’t get through to you. please i want you so bad...i can’t help thinking abt you. i’m sry

I don’t know if I have enough words, or if the words I do have are even enough. You won’t recognise that turn of phrase, I suppose. It’s been 5 years since you read it in my last letter. Wish I’d put a return address.

engrained in my mind is that december night when we were just laying eye to eye and you kissed me first

I thank you everyday for being my bestfriend in 6th grade. A part of me still wishes we were bestfriends but always know I'll love you.