you are such a good person whether you realize it or not. don't underestimate yourself. you matter so much and you my homie.

If we had gotten one more night together before you ruined it, I would have told you something like this... “ I know that you’re going to live such a beautiful life and be so genuinely happy it’s unreal. you’re gonna be so successful in all aspects of your life and you’re gonna have a gorgeous wife who you’ll love more than life itself and probably few kids running around who will bring you such joy. i also know that uou are so smart and you have so much potential and such a good heart, you really do. and you are so deserving of all these good things that are gonna come your way. the world truly isn’t ready for all that you have to offer it.” Part of me is glad I never got the chance to tell you this because even though I still think it’s true, you don’t deserve to hear it from me.

i don’t know if the thought of me and what could’ve been crosses your mind. i don’t know if you even give one single fuck about me. you’re still constantly on my mind, i just got better at hiding it. it still doesn’t make sense to me. was i really anything to you other than a chance to have a girlfriend? i know what i did wrong and it’s my biggest regret but no matter how long we’ve gone without talking and how long we decide to ignore each others existence, i still love you and care about you. i would still do anything for you. i don’t know if we’re ever going back to how we were. the sad thing is i still have hope we will even after everything i went through after you chose to throw away 3 years for someone you barely know. what’s wrong with me? everyone made it so hard on me when i would hang out with you or even talk to you but i just ignored it because i really liked you and i’ve never met anyone like you. i had a special connection with you but i’ll never know how you felt. i wish we could’ve actually told each other. i wish you luck and i want you to be happy, but not with her.

whew you are one toxic mffff. you are also HELLA a catfish! you did not deserve to be treating me the way you did. you are a dick. im VERY glad that you acted way different in person at the zoo than you did over social media. thank god. i dodged a bullet.

if you're reading this yeah its about you I really wish that you could choose me over them but its okay I know you're just going to hurt me in the end I don't care about that as long as you'll talk to me forever

I’m proud of us for getting cutest couple in highschool. We were the cutest. I forgave you a long time ago, please take care of yourself

PLS why are all the boys named joey toxic I went thru to find the ones I wrote for him and jesus theyre all the same huh LMFAOOOOO

I think about what happened between the 3 of us a lot. I hope you can understand that it was my first sexual experience and I didn’t remember it. Even though we made up and I forgave you, it still confuses me to this day. But I still love you, I could never stop. I miss you.

being with you was when i felt safe, ever since you left i cant escape the darkness. your my first love. im afraid i wont ever find such a whole and genuine relationship again. being with you felt like that split second of peace when you wakeup. when everything's calm and none of your worries become reality yet. i miss you bubs.

It’s difficult for me to feel comfortable. I never thought you’d hurt me, yet you did. now I think everyone close to me has bad intentions.

I really did care about you... you just weren't ready for anything. not one day goes by that i dont think about you

Why do you still ask around about me ? Do I take it to seriously or is it bc you were the first guy I loved

I’m sorry for failing you. I’m still in love with you to this day. I still have hope we will start over again in the future. I can’t say goodbye yet.

wow i havent talked about you in a while. i kinda just wanted to forget you because of the big impact you had on me. i think you were the first person i was "in love" with. i never really felt that strong vibe from anyone until i met you. i thought you were the one and i guess not. i feel like if you wouldve made more of an effort, we couldve still had something. then again, you have a completely valid reason on why you left. i totally get it. but fuck man. i really liked you. i could be truly myself with you and i have never felt that with anyone and i mean that. your humor, your laugh, you you you you. that was once mine. now its not and i have realized that. i guess this is my final goodbye and i will not feel anything next time i see anything of you. a step in the right direction. thanks for the memories. goodbye joey.

I look for you everywhere I go. You’re always in my mind and heart. I will always love you, and miss you terribly.

i've been in love with you for nearly five years, and you still play a big role in my life, as big as you once did years back. i wish you loved me as much as i love you. but im just so grateful that we're friends.

joey, tonight, right now, would be the most perfect time to be with you. just because i can’t sleep and i know that if i couldn’t sleep and i was next to you, you would try and comfort me, and if that didn’t work we would watch something or i would watch you play games because i like seeing you happy. or you would just sit there with me holding my hand bc that’s how you are. if only we were together. but you didn’t choose me.

you make me so so so mad, the worst part is that i know you use me but there is always a bit of hope that its not true. I always convince myself that its not true because I cant admit that you actually dont care about me. Im so tired, so tired. I just want you to appreciate me.

i loved you and you left me. i’m doing fine without you but i fucking hate you for making me how i am now.

i'm terrified that now you've gone again I won't be important to you anymore, and I'll never be as good as your other, better friends. I miss you so much.

you are the only person in the world who gives me hope for myself. I don't know what to do without you here.

i’ll love u forever lol i miss u every fucking day i known u couldn’t give a single fuck ab me but i’m so in love w u it physically fucking hurts lol

You were always too good for me and I took advantage of that, I'm so glad you're able to be yourself and I'm sorry for being so hopeless,, no one has ever loved me as hard or as amazingly as you. Do you remember the first Christmas we spent together? I do.

I never told you, but I really did love everything about you. Thank you for making me feel as if I were exactly who I was always meant to be.

i still listen to the mixtape u made me but now it's only sad memories. i wish we had more time together but u fucked everything up.

I failed you. im sorry i went left you out of nowhere, i did love you. by the time i got back you had a girlfriend already and that crushed me.

Maybe i wasn’t good enough
Maybe i did mistakes
Maybe i broke you,me,us
But i loved you more than you’ll ever know

you were the one who always had my back, my first true love, you put me in my happiest self, you taught me to grown as a person. being with you always put a smile on my face. I could never justify my feelings for you, they were just so strong and unbelievable. falling in love with you was unspeakable, that feeling like was so amazing. I always knew you would have a piece of my heart.

I love you so much. We don’t talk anymore but any interaction stays on my mind for days. I hope that in time we see each other again. I know that you moved on. and i did too. but you truly showed me what it was like to be appreciated. I still love you, you might not think about me or whatever. But i really do hope you make it out. I hope you accomplish your dreams and put our city on the map.Sounds corny ik yada yada yada. But i really would like to see you again. your hugs are the best. it’s weird cause i was looking forward to you telling me happy bday and w/e and now i keep rereading it. i’m always one call away. i’ll always be here for you. i hope that someday if we do meet again i get to tell you. It sounds dumb but it would be nice to just sit and talk about everything. if you ever find this it will be a miracle. but overall i just wish you the best. May the universe have so much in store for you. love you always.

thank you for being around for some difficult parts of my childhood, even if we never spoke about it. i hope to see you again sometime soon.
love from a

I think about you a lot. I can’t help but wonder what we would have if things were different. Maybe in another life I guess.

i miss what we had. we’re complete strangers now. you have another girl now. we haven’t talked since last year, and all i want to do is just call and ask if you’re doing okay. i’m sorry my depression got bad. i love you forever and always joey. i’m sorry.

You couldn't treat me better if you tried. I'm sorry it's hard for me to reciprocate, but i do truly love you.

I wish you the best luck on your date. It tears me apart that you don't know I'm still not over you - one of your best friends

You made me understand what real love is and i’m grateful for that. hopefully we get married cause i love you too much to let you go.

YOU are the manipulative one. youve hurt so many people. youve constantly gaslit me and i wish i could break away from you but i cant. we were really close once. why cant it just be like that again?

i hope you know who i am. i hope you know that ive known youve been in the wrong from the beginning. ive just been too weak to leave. i know youve baited me into telling them about you during fights youve had with them. at first glance you look like wonderland but deep down youre just twisted.

i still cant decide if you really are manipulative on purpose or if youre just accidentally toxic and truly dont understand. you are a genious. you are so smart. i know youre capable of orchestrating everything. but i want to believe you. please try harder. i dont know how much longer i can hold on to you. be better.

i almost fell for you once. it felt like we were partners in crime. but as time goes on ive become afraid of you. intelligent as shit manipulative scum. i hope you bask in whatever chaos and pain your schemes create.

You weren’t my first love but your were my first something. My first person I really had feelings for and I am forever grateful for that

how many people have you done this to? i know i wasn’t the first and i’m positive i won’t be the last.

I like how were my 6'7 teddy bear before, now its too late to have you again anyways. you're taken...

I like how were my 6'7 teddy bear before, now its too late to have you again anyways. you're taken...

i know you get upset and pull away at times, but i wanted to help. i tried being there for you, saying good morning or something nice, but you never responded and just pulled away. everything was fine, but why? was i suddenly annoying or bothered you? but then why Christmas?

3000 miles away and we still managed to fight everyday. I'll never be able to explain why I still miss you to this day.

3000 miles away and we still managed to fight everyday. I’ll never be able to explain why I still miss you to this day.

i know i ended it but i still want to talk to you? i fucking miss you so bad but you considered leaving me for another girl. you're shit but i still love you.

i can’t tell if i miss you or if i’m fine without you. i’m either perfectly fine or i’m absolutely miserable without you. i don’t miss you i miss the way you said my name. i always hated my name till you said it.

I feel like you’re such a genuine and kind person. I really hope I can learn more about you. Wishing for a lot of memories with you. :)

I hope you know that sometimes you make my life a bit easier to handle. You’re such a nice person. Thank you.