Unsent messages to JEREMIAH

I hate that you were so alone that you fell for me. And I'm sorry I was too broken to fall for you. You deserve better in a relationship than your screwed up best friend can give.

i was smoking with a friend the other day, but i felt guilty, knowing how much you would roll your eyes if you ever found out i was partying again.

I was smoking the other night, when i started wondering if you ever needed our subway order lol. random ik but whatever. so here it is italian bmt, on italian herb and cheese with pepperjack cheese, toasted with lettuce and chipotle southwest

Though we truly had a connection, and as soon as we met we were friends, it didnt work for a reason. Im sorry for whatever I did to you...

That song you told me to listen to when we where dating, ever since you told me to listen to that song I’ve had it on repeat and I don’t go one day without listing to it ?

I miss you. So badly it’s like not even funny. I dream about you all the time and how much I wish things would have ended differently I wish we could have lasted you made me so happy you don’t even understand. Bro you had a vibe that I never had with anyone before. Please come back I miss you

Could we have been something if i wasn't with him? I love you, i hope you love me and im not building this all in my head. Im gonna miss you so much.

lol i dont even know why im writing about you. but yeah i honestly dont know what i truly felt about u. i think i still like you cause everytime i see you post about your ex, all i can experience is pain. one day ill be numb to it and im always here for you, waiting for you. but i think for now, i should just stop. im not your type anyways and idky i like you. i hate myself for it. in the end im gonna end up being hurt.

i miss taking to you. i miss seeing your face every day. i miss not being strangers. i’m still here though

i miss when we talked. when we laughed. when we talked every day. when you cared. we’re strangers now. i liked the way it was before you left

I’m sorry I wish I explained everything better for you. I’m sorry I hurt you I hope you can forgive me.

we were too toxic. i don’t miss you anymore but i was the happiest with you. go be happy. thank you for making me stronger

I’m so in love with you. I cannot wait to marry you. you have a piece of my heart that no one has ever held before. i love you mada

keith, i came up with that name and as much as you hated it, it was still yours,..my bestfriend, i had so much faith in you, i trusted you, i admitted to my friends when I realized I was in love with you.. then you just left, i can’t describe the heartache i face knowing that the person who i thought so highly of could leave me like i was nothing. how could you, you promised me we would have a future, we were bound to do so much together, even though i knew u were joking about getting married or having kids it gave me butterflies even thinking about it. now i sit here thinking it was all just the same game you do to every girl in your path. YOU WERE MY BESTFRIEND, my mother loved you, I talked about you all the time.. how do i tell my mom the guy she thought i would marry, left me out of the blue and explain to her i don’t know what happened or what to expect. i don’t even have the heart to say you’re name to anyone, when my little sister asks about you I have to sit there and act like everything’s fine, while the person who i loved walked away with no warning or reason. i wish i just had an answer. i wish i could say fuck you and i never think about you but none of that is true. i just want my bestfriend back, but even if i had him back, id be too scared for you to leave again. my heart aches for one of ur hugs, or to go hangout somewhere, anything. but now i know there’s slim to no chance of that happening. i wish things were different, but i guess this is how it had to be, goodbye keith.

You were terrible and I’m mad that I let you treat me like that. I don’t think I actually loved you I just thought I was supposed to

i want to be good for you i’m trying i promise i just don’t know how i constantly feel like i’m not good enough

there's so many things i wish i could say to you. but i guess i will just say, thank you for being my first love. it wasn't perfect. you hurt me a lot and continue to do so. but i don't think i could ever hate you. i just hate how you treated me and talked to me. but i dont hate you. i hope you have a nice life.