Unsent Messages

keith, i came up with that name and as much as you hated it, it was still yours,..my bestfriend, i had so much faith in you, i trusted you, i admitted to my friends when I realized I was in love with you.. then you just left, i can’t describe the heartache i face knowing that the person who i thought so highly of could leave me like i was nothing. how could you, you promised me we would have a future, we were bound to do so much together, even though i knew u were joking about getting married or having kids it gave me butterflies even thinking about it. now i sit here thinking it was all just the same game you do to every girl in your path. YOU WERE MY BESTFRIEND, my mother loved you, I talked about you all the time.. how do i tell my mom the guy she thought i would marry, left me out of the blue and explain to her i don’t know what happened or what to expect. i don’t even have the heart to say you’re name to anyone, when my little sister asks about you I have to sit there and act like everything’s fine, while the person who i loved walked away with no warning or reason. i wish i just had an answer. i wish i could say fuck you and i never think about you but none of that is true. i just want my bestfriend back, but even if i had him back, id be too scared for you to leave again. my heart aches for one of ur hugs, or to go hangout somewhere, anything. but now i know there’s slim to no chance of that happening. i wish things were different, but i guess this is how it had to be, goodbye keith.