Unsent messages to JAN
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 26, 2023, 4:20 am UTC
I still love you, but don’t come back to me.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 23, 2023, 8:27 pm UTC
I miss you and I miss what I thought we could be, I just don't think you want to see me again.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 22, 2023, 4:09 pm UTC
I really wish we didn't rush our last convo so much. loads of questions n feelings are unresolved.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 19, 2023, 10:28 am UTC
i watch myself as you to bring meaning to my life. i never think of myself just as myself
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 18, 2023, 9:10 pm UTC
i miss you sososo much bro it physically and mentally hurts me
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 15, 2023, 6:24 pm UTC
Our almost hurts way more than it should
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 15, 2023, 12:52 pm UTC
ur hugs are the only thing I look forward too every day
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 13, 2023, 10:21 pm UTC
Atleast I had you, I may have only had you for a short time but it was the best time of my life
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 12, 2023, 8:20 pm UTC
I‘m so sorry for making you feel that way. Maybe in another universe we‘ll get another chance.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 9, 2023, 8:21 pm UTC
I am so sorry for not loving you back you deserve better than me..
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 9, 2023, 2:33 pm UTC
Thanks for everything, I wouldn't have been the person I am today if it wasn't for you
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 7, 2023, 5:17 pm UTC
I wish we could both make those sacrifices because this is killing me and i will never not love you
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: September 1, 2023, 2:09 pm UTC
i wish i never met you , you did more bad than good to me
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: August 29, 2023, 12:42 pm UTC
I loved you but your heart was still hers
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: August 29, 2023, 6:32 am UTC
Somehow I think of us and what could've been. I'm going crazy.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: August 28, 2023, 11:49 am UTC
you've hurt me so much, I can't even put it into words
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: August 10, 2023, 2:31 pm UTC
i seriously dont get why did you do that
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: August 4, 2023, 2:47 pm UTC
i miss you baby, please forgive me i still love you.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: August 2, 2023, 12:02 am UTC
I love you but you can seriously hurt me sometimes.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: July 18, 2023, 6:58 pm UTC
I‘m sorry for what I said yet it was necessary to cut all cords
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: July 18, 2023, 5:08 pm UTC
i love you much.. i wish we could be more than just fwb <3
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: January 18, 2021, 11:07 pm UTC
Sometimes I really want to hug you. And sometimes I never want to see you ever again. It's quite annoying to be honest
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: January 15, 2021, 2:52 am UTC
I wish you would've never told me about your feelings to be honest. It would've made things easier. I know that's selfish of me.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: January 3, 2021, 12:52 am UTC
you’re my fricking last kiss. And that was almost 2 years ago. I miss you so much and I wished we could have become something more but the timing and place just wasn’t right. I love our friendship now and really want to see you again. You make me smile. xoxo
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: January 1, 2021, 7:33 pm UTC
i broke your heart on the same day as i broke mine, and sometimes i wonder if it was a mistake but it’s too late now
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: January 1, 2021, 7:26 pm UTC
i’m sorry for leaving you hanging like that, i feel horrible about it. i still think about you some times but i can’t be with you anymore. i was really in my low and i’m sorry for not communicating to you about it. it felt impulsive to just end it there. when you asked if i still cared for you when i ended things i couldn’t respond because i still loved you right there and then. i didn’t tell you because i wanted you to forget about me easier.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: December 30, 2020, 1:48 am UTC
Philia. That’s the type of love I feel towards you. Too be honest, I wouldn’t know where I would be without you in my life. The days where we would laugh or share our deepest secrets to each other will forever be my favourite. I’ll always be thankful for you being my shoulder to cry on. You were always there for me when I needed someone. Always there for me to bring me back to my senses.
A bank of random words is not enough to describe our friendship, so if I were to choose a song that reminds me of us, it would be all my friends. Of course there is more but this is our song.
I appreciate you so much. I wait for the day to see us both successful and happy, I love you forever more.
From R
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: December 28, 2020, 5:17 pm UTC
I wonder when we're gonna stop talking, and whether I can get over you before we do. I wish you had stayed.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: December 13, 2020, 11:11 pm UTC
Hey
I hope the text i sent you a few months ago didn’t make anything weird between us.
I am now totally over you and found someone new.
Ofc youre still very important to me as a friend and i would love talking to you again.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: December 12, 2020, 10:19 pm UTC
thank you for using me. thank you for traumatizing me. i love myself now. i am myself and i am better than ever before!! and i know: i deserve better than you. i hate you for what you’ve put me through when you „loved“ me. i was not your true love. one doesnt do such things to someone one loves unconditionally.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: December 12, 2020, 4:17 pm UTC
We were both not mature enough and unsure abt the things we do. but when i see u happy now my hearts breacks into piece, because i wish u would be happy w/ me
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: December 9, 2020, 11:00 am UTC
Ten years mean nothing. As a lifetime of loving you. I did it, I keep doing it and I will love you beyond this life.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: December 8, 2020, 10:35 am UTC
You made me feel something. I‘ve been emotionally disconnected for such a long time. Stop sending mixed signals.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: November 29, 2020, 9:04 pm UTC
Hey, just want to tell u, dass ich dich vermisse. Ich weiß du magst mich nicht und ich bin dir ehrlich als du mir das geschrieben hast hat das schon mehr derbe wehgetan. Aber ist ok, musst mich ja nicht mögen, ich komm damit klar (hoffentlich). Aber schon derbe schade das wir das alles wegschmeißen. Ich mein wir haben uns immer Sau gut verstanden und haben richtig wild geschrieben (außer am Ende irgendwie). Hab paar Leute gefragt wie du so bist, hab tbh fast nur schlechtes gehört, aber das war (ist) mir egal. Also bis jetzt auf jedenfall ich mein wir haben ja nicht einmal richtig geredet. Und ich weiß auch ehrlich gesagt nicht warum du auf einmal kommst mit yo eig mag ich dich garnicht, also klar wie gesagt du musst mich ja nicht mögen, aber haben wir uns einmal alleine getroffen? Haben wir einmal eine Unterhaltung face to face geführt? Nein. Aber ja was soll ich machen. Du hast mich bestimmt schon vergessen und hängst mit jemand anderem an dem du interessiert bist. Blöd ist nur das du bei mir diese Person bist & ich dich auf ernst nicht vergessen kann. Ich tu mein bestes, ist aber schwer wenn du fast im gleichen Freundeskreis wie ich unterwegs bist. Und bin dir ehrlich ich hoffe immer wenn ich bei dir da oben vorbeilaufe, dass du aus deiner Straße rausbiegst, nur damit ich dich wenigstens 1mal sehe. Naja. Und ich sag allen ich will dich vergessen, aber irgendwie will ich das doch nicht.Vielleicht wird das ja wieder was. Vielleicht war es einfach die falsche Zeit.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: November 22, 2020, 5:10 pm UTC
You are my first kiss. The first one to touch my body so gently. I am thankful for meeting you. Let’s hope this lasts forever. I hope you’re not gonna hurt me. Please don’t. I trust you.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:00 pm UTC
If things had been different, would you have loved me? Could you have died for me? I need you Jan, I will always need you
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: November 18, 2020, 11:34 pm UTC
sometimes i think about if i really loved you or just wanted to be with you so bad. i was just too scared.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: November 1, 2020, 4:42 pm UTC
Es tut mir wirklich leid was ich getan habe:( ich weiß das du mir wahrscheinlich nicht verzeihen wirst aber das ist okay weil ich würde mir selber auch nicht verzeihen ich habe mich wie ein arschloch benommen und das tut mir leid und es tut mir auch leid das ich dir dein herz gebrochen habe das war scheiße von mir ich hoffe du wirst glücklich. N
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 23, 2020, 7:18 am UTC
You made me feel safe at a time everything else seemed to be spiraling. The few hugs and brushing of hands were electric. Your face and intellect and gentle mockery made a hellish situation bearable. All I wanted was to be alone with you, but I knew I had someone waiting at home for me. I'm glad I didn't cheat on him because I love him and you live 1600 miles away, but sometimes I wonder how it would have felt to have you touch me, to know you wanted me too. I found out that you're in a relationship today, and my heart felt a pang of regret. I'm happy for you, and the 1600 mile difference would likely have never worked anyways. I think you were the right person at the wrong time, at an inconvenient place. So perhaps a small part of my heart will always belong to you, will always hunger for another second spent laughing and walking around in the dark with you, puppy love in our eyes. Perhaps someday we'll find our way back to each other. Or maybe it simply wasn't meant to be. I need to let go of my feelings for you so I can move forward with my life and my relationship, but I have a feeling they will always be there, incrementally. I don't want to say goodbye to you because what we had was special, but I think that it's what needs to be done, for now. Goodbye, Jan. I hope you are happy where you are and where you will end up.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 9, 2020, 9:07 am UTC
You really broke me but thanks to you my life has changed, thank you for that. Hope you are doing good.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 2, 2020, 8:41 am UTC
Du hast mich nicht verdient. Ich habe gelernt mich zu lieben und bin froh, dass du mich verlassen hast.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: October 1, 2020, 3:47 pm UTC
I like you a lot but you played with my feelings...Idk why I still want you but it hurts that I can’t
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: September 30, 2020, 5:01 am UTC
Hey Jan,
thank you for reading this. Now just so you know this is out in public so now everyone will know someone feels this good about someone with the same name as you. :) anyways i just wanted to thank you for being the greatest person alive and for making me the happiest girl. You care more than you know and you have the biggest heart. And not only am i able to call you mine, but i have the opportunity of being able to have that heart as well. And in return, you have mine. I love you unconditionally and no matter what i will never stop. You mean the absolute world to me and I am beyond grateful that you are here by my side through everything. I hope this made you smile and i want you to know and realize how far you've come and grown as a person. You are strong, caring, loving, passionate, smart, and above all; Loved. You should be proud of yourself because I most definitely am. I love you Jan. Your princess.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: September 20, 2020, 7:32 am UTC
i'm afraid that the girl you loved after me will be ur biggest heartbreak. while i'm still here, one foot still stuck in the past. you'll forever be my greatest heartbreak :)
a.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: September 12, 2020, 9:02 pm UTC
Since I was young, I liked you, yet you didn’t and still don’t know. Even now I think we are soulmates, I just wish you liked me back.
From: ABC
To: Jan
Date: September 9, 2020, 8:59 am UTC
Sometimes I think about sending you this website so you'll search your name and find my old confession so I don't have to tell you myself.
