Hey
I hope the text i sent you a few months ago didn’t make anything weird between us.
I am now totally over you and found someone new.
Ofc youre still very important to me as a friend and i would love talking to you again.

I like you a lot but you played with my feelings...Idk why I still want you but it hurts that I can’t

Du hast mich nicht verdient. Ich habe gelernt mich zu lieben und bin froh, dass du mich verlassen hast.

i’m sorry for leaving you hanging like that, i feel horrible about it. i still think about you some times but i can’t be with you anymore. i was really in my low and i’m sorry for not communicating to you about it. it felt impulsive to just end it there. when you asked if i still cared for you when i ended things i couldn’t respond because i still loved you right there and then. i didn’t tell you because i wanted you to forget about me easier.

i broke your heart on the same day as i broke mine, and sometimes i wonder if it was a mistake but it’s too late now

If things had been different, would you have loved me? Could you have died for me? I need you Jan, I will always need you

you’re my fricking last kiss. And that was almost 2 years ago. I miss you so much and I wished we could have become something more but the timing and place just wasn’t right. I love our friendship now and really want to see you again. You make me smile. xoxo

You really broke me but thanks to you my life has changed, thank you for that. Hope you are doing good.

Since I was young, I liked you, yet you didn’t and still don’t know. Even now I think we are soulmates, I just wish you liked me back.

sometimes i think about if i really loved you or just wanted to be with you so bad. i was just too scared.

I wonder when we're gonna stop talking, and whether I can get over you before we do. I wish you had stayed.

Sometimes I think about sending you this website so you'll search your name and find my old confession so I don't have to tell you myself.

Philia. That’s the type of love I feel towards you. Too be honest, I wouldn’t know where I would be without you in my life. The days where we would laugh or share our deepest secrets to each other will forever be my favourite. I’ll always be thankful for you being my shoulder to cry on. You were always there for me when I needed someone. Always there for me to bring me back to my senses.

A bank of random words is not enough to describe our friendship, so if I were to choose a song that reminds me of us, it would be all my friends. Of course there is more but this is our song.

I appreciate you so much. I wait for the day to see us both successful and happy, I love you forever more.

From R

Hey Jan,
thank you for reading this. Now just so you know this is out in public so now everyone will know someone feels this good about someone with the same name as you. :) anyways i just wanted to thank you for being the greatest person alive and for making me the happiest girl. You care more than you know and you have the biggest heart. And not only am i able to call you mine, but i have the opportunity of being able to have that heart as well. And in return, you have mine. I love you unconditionally and no matter what i will never stop. You mean the absolute world to me and I am beyond grateful that you are here by my side through everything. I hope this made you smile and i want you to know and realize how far you've come and grown as a person. You are strong, caring, loving, passionate, smart, and above all; Loved. You should be proud of yourself because I most definitely am. I love you Jan. Your princess.

You made me feel something. I‘ve been emotionally disconnected for such a long time. Stop sending mixed signals.

Hey, just want to tell u, dass ich dich vermisse. Ich weiß du magst mich nicht und ich bin dir ehrlich als du mir das geschrieben hast hat das schon mehr derbe wehgetan. Aber ist ok, musst mich ja nicht mögen, ich komm damit klar (hoffentlich). Aber schon derbe schade das wir das alles wegschmeißen. Ich mein wir haben uns immer Sau gut verstanden und haben richtig wild geschrieben (außer am Ende irgendwie). Hab paar Leute gefragt wie du so bist, hab tbh fast nur schlechtes gehört, aber das war (ist) mir egal. Also bis jetzt auf jedenfall ich mein wir haben ja nicht einmal richtig geredet. Und ich weiß auch ehrlich gesagt nicht warum du auf einmal kommst mit yo eig mag ich dich garnicht, also klar wie gesagt du musst mich ja nicht mögen, aber haben wir uns einmal alleine getroffen? Haben wir einmal eine Unterhaltung face to face geführt? Nein. Aber ja was soll ich machen. Du hast mich bestimmt schon vergessen und hängst mit jemand anderem an dem du interessiert bist. Blöd ist nur das du bei mir diese Person bist & ich dich auf ernst nicht vergessen kann. Ich tu mein bestes, ist aber schwer wenn du fast im gleichen Freundeskreis wie ich unterwegs bist. Und bin dir ehrlich ich hoffe immer wenn ich bei dir da oben vorbeilaufe, dass du aus deiner Straße rausbiegst, nur damit ich dich wenigstens 1mal sehe. Naja. Und ich sag allen ich will dich vergessen, aber irgendwie will ich das doch nicht.Vielleicht wird das ja wieder was. Vielleicht war es einfach die falsche Zeit.

You made me feel safe at a time everything else seemed to be spiraling. The few hugs and brushing of hands were electric. Your face and intellect and gentle mockery made a hellish situation bearable. All I wanted was to be alone with you, but I knew I had someone waiting at home for me. I'm glad I didn't cheat on him because I love him and you live 1600 miles away, but sometimes I wonder how it would have felt to have you touch me, to know you wanted me too. I found out that you're in a relationship today, and my heart felt a pang of regret. I'm happy for you, and the 1600 mile difference would likely have never worked anyways. I think you were the right person at the wrong time, at an inconvenient place. So perhaps a small part of my heart will always belong to you, will always hunger for another second spent laughing and walking around in the dark with you, puppy love in our eyes. Perhaps someday we'll find our way back to each other. Or maybe it simply wasn't meant to be. I need to let go of my feelings for you so I can move forward with my life and my relationship, but I have a feeling they will always be there, incrementally. I don't want to say goodbye to you because what we had was special, but I think that it's what needs to be done, for now. Goodbye, Jan. I hope you are happy where you are and where you will end up.

Ten years mean nothing. As a lifetime of loving you. I did it, I keep doing it and I will love you beyond this life.

I wish you would've never told me about your feelings to be honest. It would've made things easier. I know that's selfish of me.

Es tut mir wirklich leid was ich getan habe:( ich weiß das du mir wahrscheinlich nicht verzeihen wirst aber das ist okay weil ich würde mir selber auch nicht verzeihen ich habe mich wie ein arschloch benommen und das tut mir leid und es tut mir auch leid das ich dir dein herz gebrochen habe das war scheiße von mir ich hoffe du wirst glücklich. N

We were both not mature enough and unsure abt the things we do. but when i see u happy now my hearts breacks into piece, because i wish u would be happy w/ me

i'm afraid that the girl you loved after me will be ur biggest heartbreak. while i'm still here, one foot still stuck in the past. you'll forever be my greatest heartbreak :)


a.

Sometimes I really want to hug you. And sometimes I never want to see you ever again. It's quite annoying to be honest

You are my first kiss. The first one to touch my body so gently. I am thankful for meeting you. Let’s hope this lasts forever. I hope you’re not gonna hurt me. Please don’t. I trust you.

thank you for using me. thank you for traumatizing me. i love myself now. i am myself and i am better than ever before!! and i know: i deserve better than you. i hate you for what you’ve put me through when you „loved“ me. i was not your true love. one doesnt do such things to someone one loves unconditionally.

i should had seen how much you loved me. i wish i could go back.
i fcking miss you

in another life u wouldn't had dated him

I don’t miss you but I miss the situation. I miss how loved you made me feel

you make me so happy

I’ve liked you since the day we met, even tho I’m in a relationship for a year, I still think abt u

will always love you sweet boy (you hate that name) even if u don’t love me

you may be the last thing i ever know. i don't think you know this about me.

i miss u bro, miss playing genshin w u lol. my bad, forget abt it. have a good one

I am so so sorry but we just didnt work. I can never see LOTR normaly again

i miss our calls and my heart aches for you every day. ill wait for you forever

I love you. Please, come back. I love you, I really do

i love you much.. i wish we could be more than just fwb <3

I‘m sorry for what I said yet it was necessary to cut all cords

I still think about you even though it’s been years since I saw you.

Im actually at the lowest point of my life, I don’t want to try anymore. Im sorry jan

I wish we could both make those sacrifices because this is killing me and i will never not love you

Thanks for everything, I wouldn't have been the person I am today if it wasn't for you

I am so sorry for not loving you back you deserve better than me..

why?

I‘m so sorry for making you feel that way. Maybe in another universe we‘ll get another chance.

Atleast I had you, I may have only had you for a short time but it was the best time of my life

ur hugs are the only thing I look forward too every day

Our almost hurts way more than it should

i miss you sososo much bro it physically and mentally hurts me

i watch myself as you to bring meaning to my life. i never think of myself just as myself