Unsent messages to JADEN

Can we still get a dog together? I still remember u like pitbulls, golden retrievers, and german shepards

fuck you. you ruined me. i’m still terrified to run into you in public and it’s been almost a year since we broke up. every time i see someone we both know i go into panic mode. you fucked me up so bad. i hope you never hurt someone else how you did me. i won’t forgive you. i’m doing better now though. someone actually cares about me, unlike you did. i’ve always deserved better, like you said. bitch.

I’m completely in love with you. I wish you will choose me over her. Give me a chance Jaden, please give me a chance. You’re the only reason I’m happy at all

You hurt me but i still forgive you :) i don't hold grudges to anyone no matter what they've done, ik u prob have forgotten me but i wish you the best

it’s me. I’m scared i traumatized you. and every time we talk i wonder all the pain i’ve ever caused you. you’ve never caused me pain. you’re a great friend man. and i threw my mental health bullshit in your face. i wonder if you’re scared i’ll try to kill myself again. i wonder if you’ll now be scared that your loved ones will do that one day. i wonder if you feel like you can’t open up to me bc you have to be strong for the both of us. and if you feel like any of those things i’m so sorry. i feel guilty everyday for what i put you through. i was so mean that week when you told me you told kaylia. i’m sorry. i’m sorry. i’m sorry. you’re my bestfriend and i love u. and i’m sorry. i’m so so so sorry jaden.

so...i let you back into my life again. shocker. i really thought this time could just have been easy. it was summer, we're both single, and just trying to have fun. i never knew that being fwb could be so hard?? im so happy you used me to your advantage tho. i hope you think about all those ft calls before you go to sleep. cuz that shit is never happening again. and i know i should be pissed and never want to talk to you again, but there's still that super tiny part of me that still wants you. even tho all of my close friends say to cut you off, never go back to you, i just don't think i can accept it. it's too hard to be just friends with you so idk whether im gonna try that or just hate you.

You’ve changed, and it’s helped me stop seeing you through rose-tinted glasses. Though I think you’re kidding yourself with what you want now.