it’s me. I’m scared i traumatized you. and every time we talk i wonder all the pain i’ve ever caused you. you’ve never caused me pain. you’re a great friend man. and i threw my mental health bullshit in your face. i wonder if you’re scared i’ll try to kill myself again. i wonder if you’ll now be scared that your loved ones will do that one day. i wonder if you feel like you can’t open up to me bc you have to be strong for the both of us. and if you feel like any of those things i’m so sorry. i feel guilty everyday for what i put you through. i was so mean that week when you told me you told kaylia. i’m sorry. i’m sorry. i’m sorry. you’re my bestfriend and i love u. and i’m sorry. i’m so so so sorry jaden.