Unsent messages to JADEN

i think about you every day. you are in love with someone else and happy without me, and i still can't even figure out if i have actually moved on or if i am pretending to be. i just want you to hold me again. i want to feel the feeling of you crushing me with your biggest hug or giving me your best kiss, but i know i will never feel that again.my heart goes out to you and i am so proud of you. i love you so much jaden, so much. i hope life gives you so much more than you anticipated and i hope you grow to be happy, because even though you hurt me so badly, i know that you deserve it.

when i first met you, you where just another stranger. now 2 years later you're a stranger with all my secrets.

jaden you were amazing. you were perfect to me. im sorry i ended things the way i did. i still think of you everyday. i listen to love songs and think about you every day. you deserve more then i could give you, and im sorry. im sorry for even getting involved with you, knowing i couldnt fulfill my half of the promise. "ill never leave you". but i did. im sorry. jaden i cry for you every night. you are the keeper to my heart forever. i miss you. im sorry. i hope you find someone who makes u happy. read them the Shakespeare you read to me. send them the notes you sent to me. send those paragraphs every night to her. send her ur pictures. win those basketball games for her. i was lucky. you will always be my cowboy, jaden. my bub. i love you forever and always. keep being amazing, my love.

don’t tell people you love them when you don’t. i can’t believe i was willing to be there for you forever. always. and you just leave me like that. you left me i was so confused so fucking confused and i needed you to explain that’s all i wanted- an actual explanation that made sense but you just shut me down.. the snap of your fingers. you’re terrible. you’re so fucking terrible. you hurt me.. and now i’m a vengeful bitch stay the fuck away from me or your life will be hell. xx

I still dream of you every night. I messed up and will never forgive myself. I love you. I always will.

it frustrates me so much when one day you act like you like me and another day you act like i don't exist

you used me to try and replace another girl and i didn’t know until she told me months later. i thought you’d hurt me enough already, but somehow that hurts more

What hurts the most was knowing I had to walk away knowing I still wanted you. But at the end of the day thank you for showing me what love is.

i like to say that i hate you a lot- but i don't and i never will. i don't have feelings for you anymore but i want you to know that i did, truly, love you even after everything wrong you ever did to me

the moment i met you, i knew you were special. i cant explain the connection we had, it was probably one sided anyways. i hope ur doing okay. i miss you so much.

I think i still like you. lol help. but maybe one day it will work out. i hope you’re doing okay. let’s call sometime.

I don’t know why I like u so much lol ur just another random person but I still can’t stop even tho I wanna and you’re so loved by so many people im not that special either I’m so close yet so far lol also ur fans are scary

i miss you so much. i hate the person you became. i miss the goofy, kind, cute boy i used to know. she changed you jaden, you just haven't realized. but i have to let go one day, right?

i know you fucking hate me & that’s understandable. i left us off on bad terms, i’m so sorry. i want to talk it out so bad, and go back to how we were before.

You only complement me when you know I am vulnerable and can give you what you want. You only want me at night

before i ever looked at you, into your blue ocean eyes, i had never felt a single connection like that before and i haven’t since

there are random periods of time where i continuously think of you, and it takes me a while to grasp on to the fact that you are no longer, and were never mine

I love you forever and ever, infinity and beyond.
you hurt me but I forgive you.
I know you're gonna come back soon.
love, J

If I could’ve held you that night I so fucking would. I deserved better so why don’t I want better? Why do I want you? I’m glad she hurt you I hope she does it again. P.S. I’m hot as fuck and she’s the complete opposite.

i just fucked it all up so bad. i feel so stupid even though i did nothing. i fucked up you hate me now

Hey, Jaden
I hope you are well
I wrote this to apologize for acting so horrible towards you
telling you my problems
and just assuming you were happy with me
I want to thank you for always being with me
and giving me the attention i needed
I still love you
but I am almost completely moved on
it has been hard without you but I hope someday we can be really good friends once again.



I love you, Jaden

I just wished you'd loved me back all those years ago. Before life got complicated, and before you moved away. Some day we'll meet again, I'm sure of it.

The words you said a few nights ago are lingering in my thoughts. I still think we might end up together some day

hey jerk...its been 8 months since we broke up. for awhile I was doing fine but, recently ive fallen into this weak spot were im missing you. because yes missing you makes me feel weak. there are days where I miss you more than ever and days where I feel as if you ruined everything for me. so maybe its a mixture of both... you ruined everything for me because everything is what I wanted with you and all hope for that is gone.
-#1

We probably would have been good for each other you're dumb. And you have the worst views on stuff. Battery acid energy. Little dick energy.

I wish you didn't only talk to me when you want something, i actually like you but its starting to get painful again. You have no idea how hard i cried over you that night, and i told myself never again but i cant hold myself back, and i think you know this, please just love me back.

I like you. Even though we don't even talk. I wish we would, you seem really kind, and funny. I wish I had the guts to say something, 'cause we'd be good together ngl. Maybe one day. all the best, T

i can’t imagine a future that doesn’t end in you. i’m sorry i wasn’t there when you needed me. i’m here now.

you’re one of the very few things keeping me here. you genuinely are the only person i can talk to about how i feel without feeling overbearing and rude. i go through moods where i feel that you don’t care, and those are the deepest and darkest points of my existence.

I know it’s been a few years and we have been in and out of love but when I see you I still feel the same when I first met you.

I wish I could tell you how much I love you. Im so proud of you Jaden, just so proud. We may be young, but who cares? Love can come at any age, and at anytime. You have helped me so much. I was close to ending things, but then you came into my life, and made me feel like I deserved love. I know I can annoy you at times, but its just because I'm terrified of loosing you. You are all I have, and I need you to stay. I know you have been through so much, and I'm so proud of you for handling your problems the way you did. Just please remember, I love you so much and I'm always going to be here for you. I love you Jaden.

i am still loving you from a distance. I hope i get to see you again. If not ill meet you in another life time. i really believe we were soulmates.

It's time for me to let go of you.I can't take the restless nights thinking about you when you don't feel the same feelings for me.Goodbye.

i have a crush on you i know you dont like me back and there's someone that already confessed to you and i could never compete to them im sorry im not good enough for you

I fell in love with you when I first laid my eyes on you.. I stayed for 3 + years and I left for my depression and I still love you but you're mad at me from leaving but im still in love I still love you forever and idk how ill get over you ever..

congrats on being my first boy ever. i’m so mixed up and terrified you might be annoyed with me right now. i hope you feel the same as i do.

i wish we had more time together. you left without a trace or thought. i loved you more than i could ever love another. i just wish you felt that way for me. was she prettier? did she bring you more joy? i still think about what we had. or what we still do, if its anything worth waiting for. we still talk time to time, but its nothing like what i want. you use me because you know, deep down, i still love you. you use that silently against me.

You make me so happy I love you so much. I’m so in love with you and you’re the most important person in my life

it was never about time my dear
because there will never be enough
it's about appreciating the time i did have with you
even if it wasnt much

sometimes i think of how much i want you to touch that lil dangly thing that swing in the back of my throat

i didn’t mean to hurt you, i know what i did was wrong. i knew i wasn’t good enough and i couldn’t bring you down with me, i’m sorry...

I think I’m finally starting to get over you. You’ve been very important to me, but I’m finally ready to move on.

i’d like to think we would be together if it wasn’t for covid. but I don’t think you ever loved me back.

You made me smile when I couldn't. I'm sorry I can't make you smile. But, I hope she makes you smile and laugh. Goodbye love

If happy ever after did exist...I could be with you unimpeded, but just remember, happy endings don't exist.

You’re my best friend. I never tell you how much I appreciate you, but I really want you to know I do. You’re the bestest friend that I’ve ever had. I don’t know what I would do without you. You’re the only one who really cares about me. I never say this, but I love you. Forever and always ?

just wanted to tell u i'm in love with u. not that i'll ever actually send this to u, because that would ruin shit. but u know. sometimes u have to get things off ur chest.

You promised you wouldn’t leave ... you know I’ll always be here for you and you take advantage of that . If only you knew that if I could give you the world I would .

Anytime we talk it feels like it’s still freshman year and nothings changed. Wonder how things would be different if I gave you that second chance. Wish you the best.

i don't know if you know this or not. but you broke me. a lot. i got my hopes up way too high for you. i should've listened to my friends and i should've known better. i blame myself for all of this happening. we always argue 24/7 now. and it's rlly not fun talking to you like it did before. i really thought you were the one too. but sadly you weren't. i have to understand that now and i have to move on from it. i rlly wished that things between us would go differently. but sadly, that is not what happened. you hurt me a lot from what you had to say about me. but just know, i hope you're happy now. :)