Unsent messages to ISABELLA

Happy for you.

Why did u have to love him

sorry

i love you isabella I think deep down you’ll know it’s me

I really wish you’d see me the way I see you. I know I’m just your friend, but you’re much more to me. I really think I could love you. Please give me a chance

From the time you're born (until death), I want to try living with you until we die, But I can't seem to write it out quite as the myth I'd like.

Summers turn to summers (and connect), as we slip through the space between history and helix,

Falling to Hell, and pulling that trigger at the very end;

Becoming nothing but dust.

She made me think that true love was real. When she held my hand it felt warm and soft. She was the only person to make me feel safe and happy. When she hugged me it felt so comforting and like fireworks. I could go on and on about her and my love for her

I fucking miss u :( You meant the world to me but idk what happened in your life but u don’t see me like before.. I still love u

I know i ended things but i never have ever regretted anything or felt more sorry about anything but i think it was just suppose to happen i’m thinking about texting you

you were such a shitty friend and i don’t regret cutting you out. but ig it stings that you have these new friends, and you guys are all accepting and shit. ig i mean i’m jealous, i’m jealous that they have what i wanted, what i needed from you and i hate that i’m jealous because i’m the one who ended us. but man does it stings, i’m really glad that you are happy

there are these moments where i cannot help but look back on us. you never knew, but i loved you with every cell in my body, and you didn't give a damn about me. you used me like tool. you only call me when you have an issue. you only call me when you have no one else to rant to. you only call me when your friend group is falling apart for the third time in a month. you only call me when it is convenient to you. the sad thing out of all of this, is that we were never a thing, but i still feel heartbroken. maybe it wasn't love. maybe i was obsessed. maybe it was just the idea of you, but it still burns. altho, you seem okay. you have friends that can put up with your bullshit. you have people that care about you mutually. one day i will recover. one day i will be able to admit what happened. but for right now, i am so mad and yet i will still say "I love you."

i still love you.

Why did you choose to stay with her instead of me? I needed you. But you didn't care enough to stay with me.

isabella we're texting each other right now but one day we'll talk face to face. you're the best person i've ever talked to and remember that ur amazing and pretty and cool and swag. im serious. love u a lot and no matter what happens u will always be special to me. damn i wrote bella at first and u told me to always write isabella in letters so i changed it lol. ah sometimes we wont be able to text each other but i will always say goodnight love you and good morning love even if u wont hear it. i should end this letter now but i dont want to. "i hope we're still friends i hope u dont mind" i love this sentence, and also "you never call..." both from Not allowed. why am i saying this idk but im serious in this letter, love u a lot remember that. "why d'you only ever call me when ur high?" i also like this lyrics. okok im gonna end this letter now.

You're probably my favorite person in the entire world. You're my best friend and I'll stay with you until the end. I know we're starting to drift away from each other, but I still care about you.

honestly the way you just completely stopped talking to me nor only hurt me but it hurt my family. you were basically their daughter. i hope your friends treat you better than me and my family did.

fuck me for saying this but i still love you until now. and yes i know you moved on but i didnt. and i never will.

i hope he treats you better than i did. because you deserve the whole world. im sorry for whatever i have caused you.

You're one of a kind Isabella T.

Te extraño, pero me partiste el corazón en mil pedazos. Nunca me explicaste porqué te fuiste, ni qué pensabas sobre lo nuestro, siempre me lo preguntaré; ojalá pueda olvidarte pronto

I swear I’ve never liked anyone more in my life.You means the absolute world to me.I can barley explain how much I like you.I have never felt this way about anyone,and I just have so much to say about you.You’re really outgoing,funny and smart,and I’m just a shy introverted wanna be indie kid,but when we are together it feels like every star belongs to us.The way you smiles at me is the best feeling in the entire world,the way your eyes sparkle as you laughs,the way you makes ME smile :),the way you even just LOOK at me during practice.You’re the best :) and I want everyone in the world to know how pretty you are.Of course you don’t like me back,you likes this dude named Sebastian,I literally cannot compete with him at all tho :/Anyways back to venting about you lol.You’re not like other girls.You’re funny,amazing,gorgeous,caring,smart,and you can make anyone laugh.I always try my best to keep you friends with me.Yeah we might get into small arguments about stupid shit sometimes but I always let you win :) Throughout the day all I can think about is you.You’re the definition of perfect all together.I’ve never called anyone perfect before because it’s a very strong word with a very strong meaning,but for you it’s different.Without you I’m just another lonely girl that listens to music on the side of the road.You accepted me at my lowest and brought me to my highest.You look like some basic brunette girl but you really aren’t.You are actually WAY more than just that.You surprise me in a way that makes me fall in love with you so quickly.I would literally take you to the stars.Without you I would be nothing.You are the most amazing person I’ve ever met.Not to mention that you are STUNNING.I cherish every single moment I get to spend with you.I’d walk beyond this world,beyond the stars,beyond the universe just to make you happy.I swear you are the most caring person on this world,you go out of your way to make me happy,and I do too :) I love to see you be happy and smile.and oh my gosh your smile is literally the most beautiful thing anyone could ever experience.She always finds a way to make your day better,if I’m having a shitty day you’ll always be there to help me.You has the most beautiful personality ever,You’re so different from any other girl in this world,I can’t even explain it.You’re not just some girl you’re THE girl.When I see you the whole world pauses and all I see is you.I swear I’ve never seen a girl like you.You have a lot of insecurities about you’re body but to me you are perfect.I can never love a girl the way I love you,I’m so in love that I can’t even focus on anything else.You accepted me for who I was and changed me into a better person that I didn’t even know existed in me.I feel like I need you in life,you have that effect on people.
Before I met you I wouldn’t even leave my room,before I met you I didn’t even wanna wake up,and then you came into my life.You showed me the bright side of things,you changed the view of the world for me.You saved me.You make every moment I spend with you feel like a dream.You’re my happiness.All you has to do is look at me and my heart will start beating.I will never look at any girl the same way that I look at you.You never fails to make me happy.You’re literally the most amazing thing that’s ever happened to me.I don’t wanna lose you.

i miss talking to u i really liked u,ik we only met once but im scared i scared u off somehow lol i hope u read this somehow and i hope u got into oxford xx

only girl i was acc in love with. even though we dont talk much now, i wish u nothing but the best. i will always love u

im writing this to myself
so hi isabella

i hope one day you can realise that you have to put yourself before others
because everything and everyone is temporary
no matter how big their words, actions, affections are
they will leave sooner or later

stop overloving someone
stop giving your all
stop believing every single word they say
stop thinking they will change
stop being so attached to them
stop depending on them
stop yourself before getting hurt

we both know i cant survive another heartbreak
im fragile enough
everyday we’ve been walking on a thin line
each step closer to get hurt

i feel like i’m losing myself
i feel lost sometimes
i feel destroyed
by someone who i love dearly
this person has my whole heart
but i still feel like i dont have his
his words are very different from his actions
i hope im wrong.

anyway i will always be alone at the end of the day
even if people promised me otherwise.

I talk to you everyday like I just met you and it’s truly amazing how much live I have for you, I feel like your meant for me low key soulmates? Kinda wierd but I actually love you so much it hurts how much I want to be by you right and just lay there an hear you rant about your day, like just talking to you has been a blessing to my heart you beautiful girl.

i am so in love with you. it been a year and i still think about you. i could never ruin out friendship but oh god do i love you. i just wish you would text me back.

hi
i know you dont wanna hear of me but i just gotta let few things of my chest

i never stopped loving you
i keep looking for you in everyone else.
i cant stop comparing you to every single person i meet.
everything that i see reminds me of you.
i stopped my bad habits just incase you came back to me.
i started to give my plants more water cuz you told me to do so one time.
i miss your voice, hair, smell, touch.
i visit ur city as often as i can just to encounter you one day on the streets.
sometimes i think you’re still mine.
but i know you have moved on.
and im happy for you.

im really sorry for what i have done to you. you are the greatest person i ever met on earth. an angel sent by god. for my eyes to be blessed.
im only writing this cuz i took something. ha ha ha.

isabella i love you more than how much you love the color yellow

I don't even know how to explain the love I have for you. I love you so much to the point where I will put you before anyone in the world.

It’s been a long time, I think we both had feelings for each other, and we knew but we just sort of let it linger and left things unsaid, and that’s alright. I wasn’t ready to admit how I felt, I was scared it would push you away, but i guess it didn’t really matter because somehow I managed to push you away all the same. I don’t love you anymore, I just miss you sometimes.

bitch, minion lookin ass, built like gru, toxic ass motherfucker. u know copying people isn't a personality trait right? maybe if u took care of your hair it wouldn't smell like ass :) also u should probably start brushing your tongue. the smell of feet isn't really pleasant sweetie.

eres una idiota que no sabe controlar sus sentimientos
u just go after what u want
y hasta puedes dañar en el proceso.
i had to see you differently because i was so fk in love with u
no sabes cuanto
you finished breaking someone
pero tu no te salvaste.
i wont try something because i known u.
eres egoista, manipuladora, sagaz, inteligente.
but you´r totally worth it
esa noche, fue la mejor noche que he tenido, en mucho tiempo.
pero eso se acabo.
and with that, my opportunity
si es que la tuve alguna vez.
-just another in your pocket

hi, you don't know me but i do. i never accepted and would never accept what i feel for you, bc im too weak to show love or show my "sensitive" side, i just hate it, and the fact that my bestfriend is always making jokes about how in love im with you is so annoying that it's funny. im not afraid of getting rejected im just afraid to look "weak" bc i show my corny side in public, which instead of being cute i replace it with insults, funny, but still insults (my friends take them as a joke obviously) and i take my love to you, as a joke too, you will never see this and i probably would never tell this to you (unless i become friends with you which is kind of impossible) so, i hope, if somebody reads this and feels the same, welcome to the club.

its officially been a year since i last saw you. i always think im over you, until i hear your name and my heart jumps into my throat and i keep using this colour because it reminds me of your room. i guess i'm not there yet

Depuis trois ans quand se vois pas et tu me manque trop, je sais que tu es entrain de vivre ta vie mais je peux pas suivre la mienne sans toi, t’es ma meilleure amie, ma soeur et j’espère que notre destin se croisse encore une fois
Je t’aime

We haven’t see each other since almost three years, and I miss you, I think of you every hour of my life... I just wish you send me a message to know if you are happy

i really miss you i really do because of how i assumed our friendship would last forever. i cant help but wonder if you miss me too or if im just some forgotten friend you drifted away from. i hope you’re happy you’re a good person. you are.

I couldn't take it anymore. im sorry i blocked you. It was never gonna work. Sorry, hope you live a great life.

i love you. i always have and i always will. no matter how much you hurt me i will always chose you. i went back and counted how many playlists i have made about you, and there are five. three out of frustration and two out of lust. will never see this and you will never know, but i just wish that you cared.

ik that we are siblings not lovers like never but i have never been in love so this is to you. ik that i am annoying and i’m just a cry baby but i really need support with everything in my life

we were bestfriends, then i fell in love. we dated, you cheated. all because i overthink. i was so in love with you. and i miss you for no fckn reason bc you hurt me so much. i hope someone causes you the pain you caused me.

You're the first person I've ever fell in love with. I have to let you go, but know that I'll never forget you. I love you

I’m sorry that...I couldn’t be enough for you, I’m sorry that we couldn’t work out, every night I wonder if you would still give me a second chance

I don't understand how you made me so happy and so sad at the same exact time. How'd you do that to me, honest question?

A day hasn't gone by where you didn't cross my mind, why is it so hard to let go of you? I know you think of me as a brother, it's really not hard to figure that out, but why didn't you like me back? why?

Dude I still miss you every day.... but I don’t think you’re coming back and I need to get used to that.

you ruined Clairo for me, now every time she comes on my shuffle; I think of what we were meant to be. I'm sorry for being toxic.

You mad my life even more of a living hell while i was at my lowest. I will never forgive you and you are continuing to do it to the only friends you have left. I hope you end up alone in the end then maybe you’ll realize how bad you treated everyone around you.

We talk so much and hang around each other but I feel as if I will never be able to truly tell you how I feel about you.

I’m sorry I lost you. You were the one person I knew I could not stand to lose, but I did because I was the thief and stole my happiness away from myself.

you were never good to me, but i stuck around. i love you but u hurt me like no one else could. i miss the best friend i fell in love with

I was really that stupid to think that you were my friend, u saw how my mental health had change since I met him and u didn't care about that when u did what u did.
Thanks "friend"

It’s funny, I know we were just friends but that conversation felt like a real break up. And I still don’t think I’m over you yet.

I wanna let you know I love you so much and I am here for you even though i think you hate me. I love you and wish you so much in life