You werent my first love, but i think im falling for you now. honestly, i hope im not i dont want to fuck things up. but yknow thats what i do best. u wont see this but if u ever wanted me im here

you just need to calm down, stop being so mean to those you love just stfu and say something good for once

I fucking miss u :( You meant the world to me but idk what happened in your life but u don’t see me like before.. I still love u

You're probably my favorite person in the entire world. You're my best friend and I'll stay with you until the end. I know we're starting to drift away from each other, but I still care about you.

i love you. i always have and i always will. no matter how much you hurt me i will always chose you. i went back and counted how many playlists i have made about you, and there are five. three out of frustration and two out of lust. will never see this and you will never know, but i just wish that you cared.

i’m so sad. i’m so so sad. i have no one and i loved u so much. u hurt me but i still love u and miss u so much. i don’t know what to do it just hurts

You took advantage of me. You knew what I went through and you still did everything that you did. You took my virginity when I was too drunk to consent. You made me a toxic person to others when you’re the one who cheated and continuously manipulated me into staying. I’m so glad that I left. I wish I left sooner. I’m finally healing from you.

You took advantage of me. You knew what I went through and you still did everything that you did. You took my virginity when I was too drunk to consent. You made me a toxic person to others when you’re the one who cheated and continuously manipulated me into staying. I’m so glad that I left. I wish I left sooner. I’m finally healing from you.

You took advantage of me. You knew what I went through and you still did everything that you did. You took my virginity when I was too drunk to consent. You made me a toxic person to others when you’re the one who cheated and continuously manipulated me into staying. I’m so glad that I left. I wish I left sooner. I’m finally healing from you.

You mad my life even more of a living hell while i was at my lowest. I will never forgive you and you are continuing to do it to the only friends you have left. I hope you end up alone in the end then maybe you’ll realize how bad you treated everyone around you.

bitch, minion lookin ass, built like gru, toxic ass motherfucker. u know copying people isn't a personality trait right? maybe if u took care of your hair it wouldn't smell like ass :) also u should probably start brushing your tongue. the smell of feet isn't really pleasant sweetie.

i really miss you i really do because of how i assumed our friendship would last forever. i cant help but wonder if you miss me too or if im just some forgotten friend you drifted away from. i hope you’re happy you’re a good person. you are.

I wanna let you know I love you so much and I am here for you even though i think you hate me. I love you and wish you so much in life

It’s funny, I know we were just friends but that conversation felt like a real break up. And I still don’t think I’m over you yet.

I was really that stupid to think that you were my friend, u saw how my mental health had change since I met him and u didn't care about that when u did what u did.
Thanks "friend"

We haven’t see each other since almost three years, and I miss you, I think of you every hour of my life... I just wish you send me a message to know if you are happy

Depuis trois ans quand se vois pas et tu me manque trop, je sais que tu es entrain de vivre ta vie mais je peux pas suivre la mienne sans toi, t’es ma meilleure amie, ma soeur et j’espère que notre destin se croisse encore une fois
Je t’aime

we were bestfriends, then i fell in love. we dated, you cheated. all because i overthink. i was so in love with you. and i miss you for no fckn reason bc you hurt me so much. i hope someone causes you the pain you caused me.

I look for my name hoping he wrote something for me. I look for his name to see the way people love others with his name. And I look for yours. I don’t know yet if it’s because I’m reassuring myself that he didn’t write to you, or if I’m secretly desperate to see his words, even if they aren’t to me. I’m forgetting his voice.

its officially been a year since i last saw you. i always think im over you, until i hear your name and my heart jumps into my throat and i keep using this colour because it reminds me of your room. i guess i'm not there yet

I sit here writing things to people I once knew with shit I wish I could say to them, but I can't. I wish he had wrote me a message and with false hope I go through looking even though I know he wouldn't write me shit. i haven't even spoken to him since may and I thought for sure I got over him, but I saw him for the first time at the beginning of September and all the feelings came rushing back. the thing is now he has a girlfriend and he's cut off all communications with friends that were girls, except for her friends. I've been friends with him since 6th grade and now he won't even speak to me, for what a girl that he probably won't last with over a bestfriend that would do anything for him, even if that meant just being friends, no feeling involved. the sad thing is he never knew I loved him and now he never will. I would have never ever gotten in between him and a girl ever, even if that meant me being in pain to see them together because im not that type of person, but to cut off all ties with your bestfriend, that's plain out wrong. your a fucking piece of shit, but I will always love you.

hi, you don't know me but i do. i never accepted and would never accept what i feel for you, bc im too weak to show love or show my "sensitive" side, i just hate it, and the fact that my bestfriend is always making jokes about how in love im with you is so annoying that it's funny. im not afraid of getting rejected im just afraid to look "weak" bc i show my corny side in public, which instead of being cute i replace it with insults, funny, but still insults (my friends take them as a joke obviously) and i take my love to you, as a joke too, you will never see this and i probably would never tell this to you (unless i become friends with you which is kind of impossible) so, i hope, if somebody reads this and feels the same, welcome to the club.

eres una idiota que no sabe controlar sus sentimientos
u just go after what u want
y hasta puedes dañar en el proceso.
i had to see you differently because i was so fk in love with u
no sabes cuanto
you finished breaking someone
pero tu no te salvaste.
i wont try something because i known u.
eres egoista, manipuladora, sagaz, inteligente.
but you´r totally worth it
esa noche, fue la mejor noche que he tenido, en mucho tiempo.
pero eso se acabo.
and with that, my opportunity
si es que la tuve alguna vez.
-just another in your pocket

Te extraño, pero me partiste el corazón en mil pedazos. Nunca me explicaste porqué te fuiste, ni qué pensabas sobre lo nuestro, siempre me lo preguntaré; ojalá pueda olvidarte pronto

It’s been a long time, I think we both had feelings for each other, and we knew but we just sort of let it linger and left things unsaid, and that’s alright. I wasn’t ready to admit how I felt, I was scared it would push you away, but i guess it didn’t really matter because somehow I managed to push you away all the same. I don’t love you anymore, I just miss you sometimes.

I don't even know how to explain the love I have for you. I love you so much to the point where I will put you before anyone in the world.

Why did you choose to stay with her instead of me? I needed you. But you didn't care enough to stay with me.

fuck me for saying this but i still love you until now. and yes i know you moved on but i didnt. and i never will.

i hope he treats you better than i did. because you deserve the whole world. im sorry for whatever i have caused you.

You're one of a kind Isabella T.

you were never good to me, but i stuck around. i love you but u hurt me like no one else could. i miss the best friend i fell in love with

hi
i know you dont wanna hear of me but i just gotta let few things of my chest

i never stopped loving you
i keep looking for you in everyone else.
i cant stop comparing you to every single person i meet.
everything that i see reminds me of you.
i stopped my bad habits just incase you came back to me.
i started to give my plants more water cuz you told me to do so one time.
i miss your voice, hair, smell, touch.
i visit ur city as often as i can just to encounter you one day on the streets.
sometimes i think you’re still mine.
but i know you have moved on.
and im happy for you.

im really sorry for what i have done to you. you are the greatest person i ever met on earth. an angel sent by god. for my eyes to be blessed.
im only writing this cuz i took something. ha ha ha.

isabella i love you more than how much you love the color yellow

She made me think that true love was real. When she held my hand it felt warm and soft. She was the only person to make me feel safe and happy. When she hugged me it felt so comforting and like fireworks. I could go on and on about her and my love for her

i am so in love with you. it been a year and i still think about you. i could never ruin out friendship but oh god do i love you. i just wish you would text me back.

I’m sorry I lost you. You were the one person I knew I could not stand to lose, but I did because I was the thief and stole my happiness away from myself.

you ruined Clairo for me, now every time she comes on my shuffle; I think of what we were meant to be. I'm sorry for being toxic.

I talk to you everyday like I just met you and it’s truly amazing how much live I have for you, I feel like your meant for me low key soulmates? Kinda wierd but I actually love you so much it hurts how much I want to be by you right and just lay there an hear you rant about your day, like just talking to you has been a blessing to my heart you beautiful girl.

Dude I still miss you every day.... but I don’t think you’re coming back and I need to get used to that.

I couldn't take it anymore. im sorry i blocked you. It was never gonna work. Sorry, hope you live a great life.

We talk so much and hang around each other but I feel as if I will never be able to truly tell you how I feel about you.

im writing this to myself
so hi isabella

i hope one day you can realise that you have to put yourself before others
because everything and everyone is temporary
no matter how big their words, actions, affections are
they will leave sooner or later

stop overloving someone
stop giving your all
stop believing every single word they say
stop thinking they will change
stop being so attached to them
stop depending on them
stop yourself before getting hurt

we both know i cant survive another heartbreak
im fragile enough
everyday we’ve been walking on a thin line
each step closer to get hurt

i feel like i’m losing myself
i feel lost sometimes
i feel destroyed
by someone who i love dearly
this person has my whole heart
but i still feel like i dont have his
his words are very different from his actions
i hope im wrong.

anyway i will always be alone at the end of the day
even if people promised me otherwise.

From the time you're born (until death), I want to try living with you until we die, But I can't seem to write it out quite as the myth I'd like.

Summers turn to summers (and connect), as we slip through the space between history and helix,

Falling to Hell, and pulling that trigger at the very end;

Becoming nothing but dust.

I really wish you’d see me the way I see you. I know I’m just your friend, but you’re much more to me. I really think I could love you. Please give me a chance

there are these moments where i cannot help but look back on us. you never knew, but i loved you with every cell in my body, and you didn't give a damn about me. you used me like tool. you only call me when you have an issue. you only call me when you have no one else to rant to. you only call me when your friend group is falling apart for the third time in a month. you only call me when it is convenient to you. the sad thing out of all of this, is that we were never a thing, but i still feel heartbroken. maybe it wasn't love. maybe i was obsessed. maybe it was just the idea of you, but it still burns. altho, you seem okay. you have friends that can put up with your bullshit. you have people that care about you mutually. one day i will recover. one day i will be able to admit what happened. but for right now, i am so mad and yet i will still say "I love you."

i still love you.

you were such a shitty friend and i don’t regret cutting you out. but ig it stings that you have these new friends, and you guys are all accepting and shit. ig i mean i’m jealous, i’m jealous that they have what i wanted, what i needed from you and i hate that i’m jealous because i’m the one who ended us. but man does it stings, i’m really glad that you are happy

A day hasn't gone by where you didn't cross my mind, why is it so hard to let go of you? I know you think of me as a brother, it's really not hard to figure that out, but why didn't you like me back? why?

I don't understand how you made me so happy and so sad at the same exact time. How'd you do that to me, honest question?

I’m sorry that...I couldn’t be enough for you, I’m sorry that we couldn’t work out, every night I wonder if you would still give me a second chance

i miss talking to u i really liked u,ik we only met once but im scared i scared u off somehow lol i hope u read this somehow and i hope u got into oxford xx

to say you hurt me is an understatement. but i’m not innocent either. i miss how we were. we were closer than anything. i miss that. i don’t miss you but i miss the times we had. you were my best friend at one point and i just. it’s just hard to have life without you. whether we talked all the time or not. we were always there. i miss you.

I can’t do being without you like you can. Every second is killing me knowing that I’m not with you going to the beach or Irvine while we sing our playlist together. You made me feel again and i can’t thank you enough. I’ll be waiting day by day as i think about you wishing i could text you because texting you somehow made everything better everyday. I love you forever and always, i just hope the forever part includes being with you because thats all I imagine. I know you need time, but in hoping somehow its next week?idk i think time will hopefully fly like the 8 months did before i talked to you again. I’ll just exist until then.

only girl i was acc in love with. even though we dont talk much now, i wish u nothing but the best. i will always love u