Unsent messages to GRACE
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 19, 2020, 7:34 am UTC
hi bb, i hope you woke up knowing how fkn amazin u r & that u r very beautiful. you are definitely my soulmate, i’m so thankful for u amor. dont ever forget that you matter & that you are so strong & powerful. love you forever, you have me forever. love youuuu errrrr
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 19, 2020, 2:41 am UTC
ru kidding
using my best friend to try and get her away from me, just bcuz u don't like me? if you don't like me or if I did something to hurt you, just tell me id rather fix it than have u destroy multiple of my friendships
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 18, 2020, 7:23 pm UTC
i wish i had known that we liked each other I think its kinda funny that we had the same birthday I loved it when you came to my games and watched me hopefully ill be able to tell you how I feel about you so
love jake
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 18, 2020, 6:46 pm UTC
I wish that you wouldn't hang out with her, why are you so addicted to toxic people. She's hurt you so many times.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 18, 2020, 7:58 am UTC
the truth is that its unbelievable that I fell for you. i was young. we were both girls. it hurt me so badly to know that you weren't actually attracted to women. i kept those feelings hidden for so long and i never properly told you until i got over you.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 18, 2020, 2:06 am UTC
We met on Bumble. I catfished you and proceeded to ghost you. The truth is, the real me would not have been enough. I hope law school is treating you well.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 18, 2020, 2:06 am UTC
We met on Bumble. I catfished you and proceeded to ghost you. The truth is, the real me would not have been enough. I hope law school is treating you well.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 17, 2020, 9:45 pm UTC
two souls dont meet by accident and i know things arent going to work out but just know you will forever be my best friend
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 15, 2020, 5:31 pm UTC
you're my favourite person on the planet and i love you so much.
when i first heard stuff about you i thought you sounded cool. developed an "i-want-to-know-you" crush. that was probably about 2 years back now.
well, i finally got confident enough to talk to you, and every exchange and every conversation makes me fall more madly in love with you. every time you post a picture or send me one of you, my heart near explodes at how perfect i think you look. it's literally not fair how cute you are.
you're an amazing, inspiring gem of a person and i just hope that eventually i get confident enough to meet you in person.
i get there's probably no chance for us... but i love you very deeply. i just wish i could tell you.
i don't know if contacting you was the right thing to do. getting closer, but knowing you'll never like me back just taunts me. perhaps i should've just stayed quiet. but i couldn't do that, i couldn't ignore the draw, the pull, the attraction i feel to you. it's a stronger feeling than anything i've felt before. it's raged away for some time, and is most definitely not going away.
i love you, you're amazing.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 12, 2020, 10:54 pm UTC
do you know i scroll through your tumblr when i miss you? its the only way i can feel close to you anymore
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 11, 2020, 5:13 pm UTC
i messed up when i went out w him. sometimes i still think about calling you, apologizing for real. but it’s been a year now.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 10, 2020, 10:23 pm UTC
i dont know if you'll ever see this but i know it feels crazy that i like you so much already since we both met but youre one of those people i have one of those special connections with. sometimes i rlly wonder if i like girls and then i met you. and i wanted to protect you and talk to YOU when i was sad. although we havent met yet, ive never been so excited to live in the same state as someone before. we arent together, and i fear im not going to be able to win you over but youre so amazing. im so scared of being clingy and scaring you off but i just wanna talk to you 25/8. idk what it is about you. you're just so beautiful inside and out and i wanna give you the biggest hug ever. i want to not only give you the entire world and more, but also show you that you do deserve it and deserve to be in it. i hope you dont think im overwhelming or creepy for this, but im so ready to fall in love with you whenever you're ready. if u ever see this , it's signed from your rosa de dia de los muertos. i hope you remember making that comparison because i havent stopped thinking about it. xoxo endlessly.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 10, 2020, 8:21 pm UTC
hey. i need to let this out but idk who to tell. so here i am. i haven’t been eating full meals for the past nearly 2 years. whenever i’m around you and our other friends i’ll always eat a lot. but when i get home i won’t eat for atleast 2 days. i don’t get my period anymore but i always fake it cause i don’t want you guys to worry i’m really worried and i need help but i don’t know what to do.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 2, 2020, 8:28 pm UTC
Im sorry. I still cant get over you. I wish I could be to you what you are to me. I know you love him thats why im not sending this to you but i wish it were me
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: November 1, 2020, 12:26 am UTC
recently i have been thinking of you quite a bit. i wonder if you ever think of me too? i doubt it. before lockdown you asked me if we could hold hands ‘premaritally’ which overwhelmed me with gay panic and fear so i said something like: “no way I’m not a whore”. im so so stupid. not to sound like an idiot but I’ve kinda been hoping you’d ask again sometime. i know you have a boyfriend so of course i would never say any of this to you or even hint at the idea. i respect you and shall not be selfish. but, if you ever wanted, i hope you know i would love to hold your hand (premaritally) even if it did make me a whore. if you ever end up reading this please dont bring it up. i will cry. ive made it blaringly obvious in an attempt to reject my cowardice and also writin just makes me feel better. but god this post will haunt me, i know it. my hands are a lil shaky but imma press submit now.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 30, 2020, 12:07 am UTC
The last message I wrote to you when I was upset. Today, I’m just here to tell you “fuck you”. Have fun with whoever you rushed to replace me with. I guess more than 2 years meant nothing to you. I’ll find someone who will appreciate every little thing I do for them unlike how you often reacted. I am almost ashamed that I loved you and spent so much time on you. Some day you will stop getting handed everything in life, some day you will have to work for everything you have, and you will recognize how much I gave up and worked for just to make you happy. Hope you appreciate the next guy at least a little more.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 27, 2020, 6:05 pm UTC
although things didn’t work out in the end i really wish it would’ve worked i know i was paranoid overprotective possessive and a jealous boyfriend but you still left you left me for being a good boyfriend but after all you were my first attachment first love first everything just know that i’ll always have so much love in my heart for you in the very end i love you and thank for everything
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 26, 2020, 7:28 am UTC
i miss u so much.. i really hope ur doing okay nd that we can come back together, ull always be the loml please never forget how much u mean in this world 2 so many people. please dont forget me :c
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 25, 2020, 10:09 am UTC
i hope u see this, i hope u know what a terrible person u are. i used to be upset at seeing u hurt, now i dont even care. fuck u:) im happy without a POS person like u in my life, thanks for the ptsd tho
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 24, 2020, 4:10 am UTC
I miss you. I wish you would text me. I hope you’re doing well. I hope band is good for you. I love you forever.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 23, 2020, 9:54 pm UTC
You always said you’d be there for me and yet you weren’t when I needed you the most. I wish I was surprised.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 10, 2020, 11:57 am UTC
you massively fucked me over when i tried to be nothing but a good mate and a good girlfriend and i still forgave you. then you went and did it again.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 10, 2020, 7:17 am UTC
I love you, please don't hurt yourself it hurts me to see you like this. I will love you until the end of time.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 6, 2020, 9:23 am UTC
i'm sorry i couldn't figure out my emotions and was too cowardly to talk things through with you. please stay healthy and live happily.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 3, 2020, 11:01 am UTC
I know you’ve been through a hard time since we parted so long ago, so have I. I sincerely and with love wish you happiness and love in your life.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 3, 2020, 3:47 am UTC
If I knew what I knew now I would’ve never let you go. You were both my biggest success and my biggest mistake.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: October 3, 2020, 2:25 am UTC
I would do anything to make you happy again. I wanted to grow old with you. I wish I would have been enough.
I wish things would have played out differently. I haven’t been able to say this since July, but I love you. I always will.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 27, 2020, 8:30 pm UTC
dude. im literally in love with you like deadass. but ik u just gonna use me and shit so. imma just leave us at friends and nothing more but there's always gonna be something and i think you feel it too? idk but when you look at me thats either hate in ur eyes or...
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 23, 2020, 2:08 am UTC
You are a selfish bitch that used to give a shit about me and other people who actually care about you so way to go have fun with other people pretending to have fun.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 21, 2020, 10:19 pm UTC
thankyou for everything you’ve done for me. i’m so happy we’ve been able to grow so much together but i feel it coming to an end. i never would’ve thought we would make it as far as we have, 8 years. i love you so much and i wish nothing for the best for you i’m sorry we’re going in different directions.. we used to mirror eachother but i just don’t really see myself in you anymore. thankyou for everything, bye gece.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 21, 2020, 7:40 pm UTC
i really thought we could fix what we had going but i dont even know why im surprised because all you ever do to me is lie. im leaving and if you ever do see this, dont text or call because i wont answer.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 20, 2020, 9:09 pm UTC
You have been my best friend my whole life so thankyou so much. I just wish I was there for you whenever you weren't feeling good, I wish I told you how much I cared about you. I love you.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 20, 2020, 3:40 am UTC
the worst part of moving on was realizing i was only really a rebound to you, but you were my first everything...
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 18, 2020, 12:49 pm UTC
The best I could’ve expected from you was the bare minimum. Even then, you never failed to disappoint.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 17, 2020, 3:10 am UTC
i never stopped loving you. even though we were torn apart by distance, i still love and want you back in my life :(
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 15, 2020, 2:15 am UTC
you're the only person who i have deeply fallen for, and you're the only thought that i wake and fall asleep to. I hope my thoughts don't become memories. i love you grace
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 14, 2020, 7:38 am UTC
i will wait for you. even after you tell me to my face to leave forever, ill still wait. we’re too right for me to give up. ily2t✨.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 13, 2020, 9:24 am UTC
I don’t think you’ll ever know how much you broke me. And I don’t think I’ll ever know why I loved you as much as I did
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 13, 2020, 12:25 am UTC
the only true thing that ever came out of your mouth was when you told me i deserved better than you.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 13, 2020, 12:15 am UTC
what’s it like to break someone into pieces and not even feel guilty about it? i wish you’d hurt the way that i do
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 12, 2020, 3:22 am UTC
Ur really annoyin when u say bye to me 24/7 and act like u hate me buh das ok buh ive known u for more den a year and u really stink bye?
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 12, 2020, 1:07 am UTC
hey grace i love you so much and i know it’s been tough but we’re working through it and i hope we stay together forever
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 10, 2020, 8:21 am UTC
i saw u today for the first time in 5 months, i loved seeing ur smile again.but i don't think we will ever go back to being the same, i hope u miss me as much as i do
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 9, 2020, 5:40 pm UTC
i’m so glad we are where we are. i was so scared i’d ruin things between us and i’m so happy i didn’t.
From: ABC
To: grace
Date: September 7, 2020, 9:36 pm UTC
i'm so sorry for the way i've prioritised guys over our friendship in the past. you will always mean more to me but i've been so selfish. i want you to feel like you can trust me because i feel so alone right now and i don't feel close or comfortable with anybody anymore.
