Unsent messages to GRACE

fuck you. you made me feel so uneasy that i hated you. you never helped with anything. i absolutely hated you. thats exactly why i dropped you.

i never got to tell u how much i liked u. then u told me about how u love some guy and i was crushed. if only u knew how bad it hurt me. now i can only imagine what we could have been. love u though

ill never tell you how i feel about you. but part of me wants to kiss you so hard you lose your memory. though im almost confident you dont even like girls, i wish you did so i could love you

i really wish i could hear from you one last time. just to see how you’re doing and how you’ve grown.

I wish for one time and one time only you knew what it was like to be in my shoes. To feel so worthless and replaced again and again. But life moves on and so do i.

i know you’re broken, i know you’re a bit of a mess but i love you anyways after everything i love you i think i’ll always love you! you have that effect on people where everyone you meet falls in love with you, i don’t know what i did to deserve your love but i hope the next boy that you love is better than me, you made me complete i fell hard and fast but i had to let you go because i knew if we stayed together we’d end up more broke than we already were, you love this new boy and although he doesn’t deserve you, he makes you happy and that’s all i want i love you so much grace and i know we’re not meant to be and you and this new boy are but i treasure the love you gave me and i’ll carry it with me, you told me about this website now i’m telling you how i feel. maybe you’ll read this, maybe you won’t but gea i know you’ll be happy with this hockey boy and i know he’ll realise how lucky he is but i hope when you are happy you’ll one day think about me and remember the good times we had. i love you, dive all round europe like i told you to and become that amazing woman, live the life we wouldn’t have had together (wjm)

I'm sorry for everything I did in middle school first of all. I was scared and still figuring myself out, but that is not an excuse in the slightest and I understand if you don't ever want to speak to me because I was an ass. I really like(d??) you, your smile could light up an entire room I swear. When you wore that dress on picture day, I wanted to tell you a million times how beautiful you were. I never stopped thinking about you, you are what lovers fantasize about. You are stardust and lavender and everyone's favorite songs wrapped up into one beautiful person. I hope you still remember me, I'm so sorry again. Your always in the back of my mind. I love you, always and forever

I’m sorry for everything I did in middle school first of all. I was scared and still figuring myself out, but that is not an excuse in the slightest and I understand if you are mad and don’t want to even look at me, i was an ass. I really like(d ?) you, your smile could light up a room, when you wore that dress on picture day I wanted to tell you a million times how beautiful you looked. I never stopped thinking about you, you are what people fantasize about. You are stardust and lavender and all favorite songs wrapped up into one. I hope you still remember me, i’m sorry again. I love you

Hey, our friendship was amazing until you changed, i'm going to miss you..a lot, i hope things with you and jordan work out, you guys are so cute together. I'm sorry for never listening to you, even when you were right, i still miss you even though you don't miss me, i miss our calls and stupid conversations, you still mean't a lot to me, but some things aren't meant to be. I promise to never forget about you :)

You had some real people around you, the only person you can blame for the downfall of it all is yourself. Have a nice life and never mess with mine again. (And you'll read this one day, thinking this may be about you, and it is.)

You mugged me off big time.. And at uni too.. in front of my friends and people that I know. Even though you had done this, I forgive you because I literally can't hate someone I had/have love for.

I wish you the best,

H.C

u def wont c this but i fucked up and i miss u a lot even tho its been a yr hope ur doing okay ig im not

i loved you. Well i thought i did. When you rejected me and when i found out you didn’t like me for some reason i didn’t feel hurt or upset. Then you got a new girlfriend and i wasn’t hurt. I don’t think i ever liked you my mind was just playing tricks on me. You blocked me because i liked you and cos i said you aired me. When i wasn’t upset i knew i didn’t love you.

you are so smart and so strong. thank you for being an amazing person and friend. you make the world a better place.

Why did you leave me? Even you dont know the answer. I still love you after all these years and i promise i know what im doing now.

although i loved you platonically you were my first love. you were the only person I could truly be me around

It’s so hard being in love with you when I know you don’t love me back. I don’t want to be the dick who pressures you to like me because I know you’re unsure of your sexuality but fuck I’d kill for just one chance to kiss you again..

Hi, I miss you and wish I could talk to you again I keep feeling so lonely and don’t have anyone to tell about what’s going on and I just sit in my room all day I wish I could still talk to you even tho it was only a short period

I had a HUGE crush on you when we first met. now here we were, together, saying I love you to each other all the time :)

You didn’t have to kiss me that night. You chose too. But now we go on like it never happened.. what’s wrong with us ?

Shit I think about you so fucking much it drives me insane. I know I’m not the one for you but I wish I was cause I know you’re the one for me. I wish I could make you happy and I wish I was the first thing you’d think about on a morning but I’m not and I get that. I’m sorry for ever trying :(

After everything we have been through. I guess you made the choice to have him instead of your best friends. Honestly good luck but don’t count on my anymore because you have honestly hurt me and I don’t want you back in my life ever again. Hopefully those two stay for you because Ik she is fake asf but this is goodbye. I forgive you for everything but just don’t ever talk to me.

you are a fugly bitch and a home wrecker. You are trying to ruin my best friend's relationship. Plus, you are a cockblocker. I hope you die and your nudes get leaked. xoxo

I love you so much, if you gave me the chance id give you everything and treat you right. The way he broke your heart breaks mine too. I promise i can love you better than he did.

I was mesmerized by you, we had so much in common but I refused to see we grew apart and are different people now.

i miss you but im not coming back. you treated me like shit dont ask if im doing well just leave or stay. choose 1

honestly i've realized that i handled things in the wrong way and i could have been more mature about it but it was my first time breaking up with someone and i didn't realize how much it hurt for you. at the same time i dont regret it because you're an awful person, at least to me. i've thought about apologizing recently and decided that it was too far gone and it would have only made it worse for the both of us. plus it was confirmed of how much hate we actually have for each other. if i didn't hate you before i certainly do now. no reason for me to write this other than the fact that i can use it as a way to get it out of my mind. while i'm here might as well get it all out, so i never have to think about it again. i only ever thought i loved you, but i dont think i ever truly did. i didn't know what love was until i realized i loved someone else. you treated me well and we had a good relationship but there was just something between us that never felt right. i think we were too different to the point where it was just never going to work out. i never lied to you, even though i know you think i did. it may not have seemed it, but it was hard for me too. I am completely over you which is why its weird that all this has been in my head for a few days. I feel like i just left so much unsaid at the break up cause i didn't know how to say it and i just wanted it to be over with as quick as possible. obviously i know you dont have any care in the world for it at this point, and i dont necessarily care for you to know, which is why i'm writing it here and not telling it to you. i'm glad we not together anymore, but i wish i had ended things sooner, before it got to the point where it was even more painful for you. i thought i was doing the right thing by waiting it out, because i didn't want to hurt you, but now i know the way i did it was awful. i never meant to hurt you in the ways that i did. now that i have written this, hopefully i never think of you again, not that i really do anyways.

You're so fake too. I thought you were not like E. I hate you, I hope you realize why people drop both of you.

you really messed up my life and sometimes I still feel like I’m dealing with the aftermath. and now you live on all happy is what it seems while I’m still suffering. What sucks is I miss our friendship more than anything. You made me laugh so much. I miss you so much but at the same time what you did is unforgivable.

The reason we never happened is because i hate myself so much that I would think you were lying to me the whole time.

i like you so much and i wish i could talk to you more - i need to focus on myself first and be happy if i want you to be interested though.

you've got so much life ahead of you, don't ever give up on that. i love u and im so proud of you, keep sending me songs, it's one of my favorite things.

You taught me to love myself, but now that you’re in love with someone else, I don’t feel whole anymore.

the memory of you is a knife.
and i dont know,
maybe i like the idea of being with you a lot better than actually being with you.
but i know that what i felt was real.

If you hurt her I swear to fucking god I will make your life a living hell. Don't test me I am not in the mood to have the only person I care about get her heart broken by you.

I started talking to you on a rough day and you'll never know it but you always know exactly what to say and when to say it. I wish I could be with someone like you but I don't know if I'll ever be able to because you're such an amazing person.

You are the worst. I never let you know how much you hurt me with what you did right after we broke up. You're not worth the energy or stress.

hey luv, i’m rubbish at this but i just wanted to say thank you so much for everything, you mean the world to me, you’ve helped me though some stuff and have always been there for me. i love you so much and i’m glad you forgave me for tiny todger boy lol, you are really pretty i do be jealous, i want to be you hehe ;)

Grace thank you for being my best friend i love you i rlly want to give you a big hug cause of everything!! but i swear you think i smell :(

thanks for being there for me. you were the unlikely friend but i’m glad we are. you mean a lot to me even though i’d never admit it

wow, to think we ended up where we did. please make your own fucking decisions for once in your life. i miss what we used to be

hey, its kai. you probably haven't noticed me much, i sit in the back of class. im friends with some of your friends, though..(j) even tried to get you to talk to me. ha. that was super awkward wasnt it? point is, i think you're really great and i think we should get coffee sometime. when are you free ? :]

I wish things turned out differently. In my mind, you’ll always be the one, and i blame myself for not taking that chance. I still love you.

I hope you know that i know it's all my fault. I have never blamed you when i explain that we aren't friends anymore

Im sorry that i did this to you. I loved being your friend and then one day i didn't. One day i woke up as a different person and that made every conversation I had with you painful. I didn't want to talk about the things that brought us together anymore or compliment you every morning. It was too exhausting and i will never forgive myself for it.

im really sorry for everything. you were the first girl I ever liked and you helped me come out. you did so much for me and brought me through such big milestone in my life. i miss you so much. i know things wont be the same now, but I miss you

I’m sorry, my heads still lost and i think it’s best if i find it by myself. i wouldn’t want to lose somebody like you on the journey to find it

I know you probably won't ever see this, but I just wanted to tell you how much ily. You always make me laugh, but idk if i can handle being in relationship anymore. i dont wanna be like "its not you, its me" but its just getting really hard rn. I cant balance school, friends, and having a relationship. this isn't an official break- up, but i just dont know. im sorry.

you're one of my best friends but I can barely stand you anymore. Don't ignore someone if they need help.

hi. i hope you're ok. i know life seems lonely atm, but i promise your time for love will come. no one loves u more than i do