I wish I could tell you how I really feel. I want to be so much more than your best friend. It kills me every time I see you with him.

The reason we never happened is because i hate myself so much that I would think you were lying to me the whole time.

you’ve been my rock, my light and your one of the few things keeping me here, i love you with my whole heart and if i don’t make it i’ll miss you but i want you to keep going with your life and be happy, really find yourself and do what you want to do

you really messed up my life and sometimes I still feel like I’m dealing with the aftermath. and now you live on all happy is what it seems while I’m still suffering. What sucks is I miss our friendship more than anything. You made me laugh so much. I miss you so much but at the same time what you did is unforgivable.

I wish for one time and one time only you knew what it was like to be in my shoes. To feel so worthless and replaced again and again. But life moves on and so do i.

grace. u were not what i expected in the beginning--u turned out to be one of my best friends. i imagined u would be mean and talk shit about me to other people, but u were different. then i found out what u supported. do u know how much that hurts me? the way u stabbed me in the back and are proud of it? the way u don't even know why i'm mad? the way ur so fucking blind? fuck you and fuck what you support.

i really wish i could hear from you one last time. just to see how you’re doing and how you’ve grown.

You always said you’d be there for me and yet you weren’t when I needed you the most. I wish I was surprised.

I have liked you for years now but I am too awkward to ever tell you. You were so nice to me even though I practically never talk. You are so funny and can light up a room with your smile. I miss you

I miss you. I wish you would text me. I hope you’re doing well. I hope band is good for you. I love you forever.

wow, to think we ended up where we did. please make your own fucking decisions for once in your life. i miss what we used to be

ill never tell you how i feel about you. but part of me wants to kiss you so hard you lose your memory. though im almost confident you dont even like girls, i wish you did so i could love you

thank you for helping me thru shit and being my bestfriend to this day. i love you forever, but youll never know

I miss you so much. I don't know what's been happening but please text me or us, we miss you and just want to hear your voice. I love you

i feel so mentally exhausted i don’t know what to do anymore i’m just tired of repeating the same day over and over again i can’t take it anymore. not even sleep makes me feel better. i go to sleep feeling worthless i wake up feeling worthless. it’s like nobody cares anymore..anyways whoever reads this i love you.

whoever is reading this i love you. even tho i don’t know you, you mean the world to me. whatever is going on in your life it’s going to get better i promise. it just takes time. stay safe beautiful! ily.

i hope u see this, i hope u know what a terrible person u are. i used to be upset at seeing u hurt, now i dont even care. fuck u:) im happy without a POS person like u in my life, thanks for the ptsd tho

i miss u so much.. i really hope ur doing okay nd that we can come back together, ull always be the loml please never forget how much u mean in this world 2 so many people. please dont forget me :c

thanks for being there for me. you were the unlikely friend but i’m glad we are. you mean a lot to me even though i’d never admit it

You're so fake too. I thought you were not like E. I hate you, I hope you realize why people drop both of you.

although things didn’t work out in the end i really wish it would’ve worked i know i was paranoid overprotective possessive and a jealous boyfriend but you still left you left me for being a good boyfriend but after all you were my first attachment first love first everything just know that i’ll always have so much love in my heart for you in the very end i love you and thank for everything

i will wait for you. even after you tell me to my face to leave forever, ill still wait. we’re too right for me to give up. ily2t✨.

honestly i've realized that i handled things in the wrong way and i could have been more mature about it but it was my first time breaking up with someone and i didn't realize how much it hurt for you. at the same time i dont regret it because you're an awful person, at least to me. i've thought about apologizing recently and decided that it was too far gone and it would have only made it worse for the both of us. plus it was confirmed of how much hate we actually have for each other. if i didn't hate you before i certainly do now. no reason for me to write this other than the fact that i can use it as a way to get it out of my mind. while i'm here might as well get it all out, so i never have to think about it again. i only ever thought i loved you, but i dont think i ever truly did. i didn't know what love was until i realized i loved someone else. you treated me well and we had a good relationship but there was just something between us that never felt right. i think we were too different to the point where it was just never going to work out. i never lied to you, even though i know you think i did. it may not have seemed it, but it was hard for me too. I am completely over you which is why its weird that all this has been in my head for a few days. I feel like i just left so much unsaid at the break up cause i didn't know how to say it and i just wanted it to be over with as quick as possible. obviously i know you dont have any care in the world for it at this point, and i dont necessarily care for you to know, which is why i'm writing it here and not telling it to you. i'm glad we not together anymore, but i wish i had ended things sooner, before it got to the point where it was even more painful for you. i thought i was doing the right thing by waiting it out, because i didn't want to hurt you, but now i know the way i did it was awful. i never meant to hurt you in the ways that i did. now that i have written this, hopefully i never think of you again, not that i really do anyways.

i miss you but im not coming back. you treated me like shit dont ask if im doing well just leave or stay. choose 1

you're my favourite person on the planet and i love you so much.

when i first heard stuff about you i thought you sounded cool. developed an "i-want-to-know-you" crush. that was probably about 2 years back now.
well, i finally got confident enough to talk to you, and every exchange and every conversation makes me fall more madly in love with you. every time you post a picture or send me one of you, my heart near explodes at how perfect i think you look. it's literally not fair how cute you are.

you're an amazing, inspiring gem of a person and i just hope that eventually i get confident enough to meet you in person.

i get there's probably no chance for us... but i love you very deeply. i just wish i could tell you.

i don't know if contacting you was the right thing to do. getting closer, but knowing you'll never like me back just taunts me. perhaps i should've just stayed quiet. but i couldn't do that, i couldn't ignore the draw, the pull, the attraction i feel to you. it's a stronger feeling than anything i've felt before. it's raged away for some time, and is most definitely not going away.

i love you, you're amazing.

I was mesmerized by you, we had so much in common but I refused to see we grew apart and are different people now.

you're the only person who i have deeply fallen for, and you're the only thought that i wake and fall asleep to. I hope my thoughts don't become memories. i love you grace

i never actually liked you in fact i had a 'special night' with your ex so i wouldn't miss me if i where you.

I love you so much, if you gave me the chance id give you everything and treat you right. The way he broke your heart breaks mine too. I promise i can love you better than he did.

The last message I wrote to you when I was upset. Today, I’m just here to tell you “fuck you”. Have fun with whoever you rushed to replace me with. I guess more than 2 years meant nothing to you. I’ll find someone who will appreciate every little thing I do for them unlike how you often reacted. I am almost ashamed that I loved you and spent so much time on you. Some day you will stop getting handed everything in life, some day you will have to work for everything you have, and you will recognize how much I gave up and worked for just to make you happy. Hope you appreciate the next guy at least a little more.

Grace thank you for being my best friend i love you i rlly want to give you a big hug cause of everything!! but i swear you think i smell :(

hey luv, i’m rubbish at this but i just wanted to say thank you so much for everything, you mean the world to me, you’ve helped me though some stuff and have always been there for me. i love you so much and i’m glad you forgave me for tiny todger boy lol, you are really pretty i do be jealous, i want to be you hehe ;)

you are a fugly bitch and a home wrecker. You are trying to ruin my best friend's relationship. Plus, you are a cockblocker. I hope you die and your nudes get leaked. xoxo

After everything we have been through. I guess you made the choice to have him instead of your best friends. Honestly good luck but don’t count on my anymore because you have honestly hurt me and I don’t want you back in my life ever again. Hopefully those two stay for you because Ik she is fake asf but this is goodbye. I forgive you for everything but just don’t ever talk to me.

i never stopped loving you. even though we were torn apart by distance, i still love and want you back in my life :(

You had some real people around you, the only person you can blame for the downfall of it all is yourself. Have a nice life and never mess with mine again. (And you'll read this one day, thinking this may be about you, and it is.)

recently i have been thinking of you quite a bit. i wonder if you ever think of me too? i doubt it. before lockdown you asked me if we could hold hands ‘premaritally’ which overwhelmed me with gay panic and fear so i said something like: “no way I’m not a whore”. im so so stupid. not to sound like an idiot but I’ve kinda been hoping you’d ask again sometime. i know you have a boyfriend so of course i would never say any of this to you or even hint at the idea. i respect you and shall not be selfish. but, if you ever wanted, i hope you know i would love to hold your hand (premaritally) even if it did make me a whore. if you ever end up reading this please dont bring it up. i will cry. ive made it blaringly obvious in an attempt to reject my cowardice and also writin just makes me feel better. but god this post will haunt me, i know it. my hands are a lil shaky but imma press submit now.

Shit I think about you so fucking much it drives me insane. I know I’m not the one for you but I wish I was cause I know you’re the one for me. I wish I could make you happy and I wish I was the first thing you’d think about on a morning but I’m not and I get that. I’m sorry for ever trying :(

You didn’t have to kiss me that night. You chose too. But now we go on like it never happened.. what’s wrong with us ?

I had a HUGE crush on you when we first met. now here we were, together, saying I love you to each other all the time :)

Hey, our friendship was amazing until you changed, i'm going to miss you..a lot, i hope things with you and jordan work out, you guys are so cute together. I'm sorry for never listening to you, even when you were right, i still miss you even though you don't miss me, i miss our calls and stupid conversations, you still mean't a lot to me, but some things aren't meant to be. I promise to never forget about you :)

two souls dont meet by accident and i know things arent going to work out but just know you will forever be my best friend

The best I could’ve expected from you was the bare minimum. Even then, you never failed to disappoint.

Hi, I miss you and wish I could talk to you again I keep feeling so lonely and don’t have anyone to tell about what’s going on and I just sit in my room all day I wish I could still talk to you even tho it was only a short period

I’m sorry for everything I did in middle school first of all. I was scared and still figuring myself out, but that is not an excuse in the slightest and I understand if you are mad and don’t want to even look at me, i was an ass. I really like(d ?) you, your smile could light up a room, when you wore that dress on picture day I wanted to tell you a million times how beautiful you looked. I never stopped thinking about you, you are what people fantasize about. You are stardust and lavender and all favorite songs wrapped up into one. I hope you still remember me, i’m sorry again. I love you

I'm sorry for everything I did in middle school first of all. I was scared and still figuring myself out, but that is not an excuse in the slightest and I understand if you don't ever want to speak to me because I was an ass. I really like(d??) you, your smile could light up an entire room I swear. When you wore that dress on picture day, I wanted to tell you a million times how beautiful you were. I never stopped thinking about you, you are what lovers fantasize about. You are stardust and lavender and everyone's favorite songs wrapped up into one beautiful person. I hope you still remember me, I'm so sorry again. Your always in the back of my mind. I love you, always and forever

Im sorry. I still cant get over you. I wish I could be to you what you are to me. I know you love him thats why im not sending this to you but i wish it were me

It’s so hard being in love with you when I know you don’t love me back. I don’t want to be the dick who pressures you to like me because I know you’re unsure of your sexuality but fuck I’d kill for just one chance to kiss you again..

it honestly really hurt that u said that and not even to my face. I kind of already knew it but u just confirmed it. Im genuinely sorry, i truly dont mean to make u feel that way. I know i shouldnt be the one who feels bad nor should you feel bad for me, but i do feel bad and now i cant stop thinking about it. i dont think we'll ever be as close as before...it just bothers me that you cant say it to my face, or say anything really. i swear, i can take it. also i know its u who sends all these truthful, yet hurtful msgs to me. i sound so selfish but its not just you. you also hurt me in return. i wouldn't be hurtful for no reason. i get the feeling that you dont really want to be friends forever, etc. it feels like you constantly lie to my face about everything and our friendship, when i tell you how much i value honesty. all i want is for you to just be honest. we need to start communicating, and i dont mean on this website lol. i dont want to be obvious about who this is, but i hope you realize...

the worst part of moving on was realizing i was only really a rebound to you, but you were my first everything...