Unsent messages to GOD

thinkin about you shorty, i love you

Hey God,

Why the fuck you putting me through this tough shit AGAIN? THE FIRST ONE DIDN'T EVEN MAKE ME STRONGER. THIS ONE JUST FUCKING H U R T S. WHY DIDN'T YOU WARN ME? WHY DID YOU LET ME DO THIS? WHY DID YOU SEND DOWN A VIRUS WHILE I'M IN HIGH SCHOOL? WHY COULDN'T YOU LET ME KISS HIM ONE LAST TIME? WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO THE BOTH OF US? WHY DID YOU LET THIS HAPPEN?

Porque permitiste que se cruzará en lo camino e hiciste que hiciera Conmigo lo que quisiera? Fui muy mala verdad? Me lo merecía verdad? Ocasione lo mismo a alguien? Y sobretodo que hago para dejar de sentir esto? Solo quiero estas respuestas.

i don't know whether that was actually a sign from you or my dellusional brain. is it just me who wants to believe what i saw, or is it more to that... i am sorry, i am not trying to question you, i'm questioning my obsession. please God, give me a sign

I hope I'm not hurting you with this. you understand right? you see everything ... so please take me away, i'm just tired of it all

U have left me here in this place of depth, u tell me to reach out but when I do I feel no hand , u say u can help but why didn’t U before, did u not hear me, I was screaming until the headache was to unbearable for me to breath. If this god is real, then he is cruel

Please allow me to fall in love and allow that person to fall in love with me. Please bring me true love in 2021. Please bless my family and watch over them in all they do. Please look after and protect all my family and friends and all those I care about and love ?

i need help. i am full of fear, anxiety, guilt, worry, anger, and hurt. i don’t know what to do. i’m trying so hard and nothing is working. i am becoming weak and broken. i need help

Are you really there? Im forced to find peace in you and I cant find it. I read the bible and cant find myself in it.

Nobody knows everything. I can’t tell my best friends, they’ll be scared. I can’t tell my mom it’ll break her heart. I have no one. I have to do it all alone. I’m scared though, and my heart is always broken. Help.

um... you might not exist but if u do f u cause you have treated me pretty wrong in the past lol I sorta hate u. :)

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why? why did you have to take the ones i loved the most from me? why are you having me go through battle with my own mind to survive? Im suffocating. Why did you have me experience death at such a young age? why did you create me the way i am? Why did you have to make them leave me, I wasn't ready. That experience is forever in my mind. WHY?

i don’t get it i put everything in for you and all you could do was cheat. i loved you so much and dropped everything for you

Why do you want to ruin my life. Jesus literally was jewish why can't I just learn the damn Hebrew from the tora and just have a god damn bat mitzvah and be a full on jew. I want to have a neclace that has the jewish star becuase I love my fricking culture!!!!

How were u gonna give me trauma, make me ugly, not give me any talents, AND not make me rich. fight me bitch xoxo

Hey God,
Congrats you did it again. You made my live a complete mess again. It feels like everyone is moving without me. They are happy now, reaching goals and having confidence. Me? I stand still, have no motivation and I hate myself more that I ever did before. So thank you God for making my life a hell where I have to pretend that I am happy. Thank you for the pain. But can I ask you for something? All I want is a good cry.
Sincerely,

Dear evil world,

I am done playing your games. No longer am I willing to sabotage my life because of the shitty cards you've dealt me. I have given too much of my precious life to the unworthy. I am maxed out to the point of physical and mental sickness.

I am letting you know now that you will not stop me anymore. I will not restrict myself from experiencing joy and happiness because of the warped reality you have created in my head. I will not succumb to your false fantasies with people who do not exist. I will stop ignoring my true self and I will never again hurt myself because of the pain you have caused me. I will only hold myself with love and dignity. There is no time for anything less.

Thank you for trying to protect me but I do not need your help. I have grown into a powerful, magnificent, and independent young woman. I will dance to my own rhythm, regardless of your clouds above. Whether you like it or not, I am letting go of the tension you hold in my body, your fears that control my actions, and your anger that contaminates my limbic system.

I deserve to experience life's wonders without your tainted lens. And though that lens may never go away, I will choose to look past it.

See ya,
G

I'm tired. I want some excitement in my life. I want some friends who make me excited to get out of bed. I want a boyfriend that I can pour my love into. please? I'm so happy with myself and this life but please?

Thank you for never leaving me behind. You give me a feeling that I can't even describe. I love you. I don't appreciate you enough, thank you thank you thank you

Why have I not been in a relationship yet? I just want to love someone and treat them to a great life with me. :(

Why did you take him from me? I needed him. He was my best friend. I couldn't of asked for a better dad. I just wanna know why you did it.