Unsent messages to GAVIN

i cant watch my favorite movie anymore. i fell in love with it while i fell in love with you. i wish you would reach out

i miss you everyday. i wish i could tell you about all the good things that have happened since we last spoke

you lied to me, broke my heart and chose her over me. yet, though all that, your the face i see when i hear the word ''love''.

I never wanted kids, until I met you. I never wanted me, until I met you. I never wanted anything, until I met you.

You were diffrent, I wanted you to stay, but you lied to me, i wish you wouldnt have made that promise

Its hard to talk to you when your always talking about her. the term "annoying you" is just something I use to cover up the fact I truly have feelings for you. I tried to tell you but it always comes off as a "joke"... its not a joke...

You were ok. It was fun being around you, but im glad its over. You gave me a good period in my life, and im grateful for it :)

this is the color of your flannel you gave me today.. please don’t hurt me. im terrified but i feel safe with you.

How could it be possible to love someone and hate them so much at the same time? I hate how vulnerable you make me feel around you. But God knows I would jump into your arms so fast if I had the chance.

you were my person. we've moved on and that's okay. but i would still drop anything to be there for you.

we have kinda been talking for a few months, but nothings progressed and i’m not sure how you’re feeling. i’m not even sure how i feel. i enjoy talking to you, but i think it will be too awkward to hangout. maybe that means we aren’t meant to be and if we aren’t, then i don’t want to prolong the inevitable. either way you’re a great guy and i wish you the best?

I’m sorry that I’m not perfect enough for you and that I’m not your perfect girl I’m sorry that I’m messed up and not “normal” like you want me to be

Ah Gavin Gavin Gavin. I don't even know where to start with this. I don't even know if I would consider you my 'first true love' because, I can't tell if it love because I've never been in love. Or have I? I do love you in a way. A way maybe even stronger than a typical relationship. We weren't close for 3 years and now we are getting in touch again. Feels odd. Just realizing that we were just kids when we first met, being each others first crush, and now only a couple years later, still kids and I'm still not able to notice whether if I like you. Maybe that's my fault. My self sabotage; I always repress my own feelings that I have for people so fast and immediate because I always have the defensive mentality when it comes crushes. Never in my life will I ever fully accept the fact someone will choose me over the popular. Including you. But we're still kids. Still kids.

you were a fucking dick to me and I still managed to like you and struggled to get over you but i'm free now

Thank you for being my first friend. And my first love. I dont love you anymore, but i def think ab you a lot lol. i love you. as a friend tho.

uh hi ig. so i wanted to send you a message because i love you, well loved you. you were my first love. haha akward

I know we never even dated and you would never see this but I wished I treat you better as my best friend

I don't think that I will ever be able to fall out of love with you, but what hurts more is that you have already forgotten me.

Heyy I know we have known each other for almost 3 years now and you have always stayed by my side no matter what I was going through. And I know we say I love you over text right now but when we are able to see each other in person to me it will mean so much more. I just wish we didn’t have to go to different schools. But I just want to be more than just friends.

i think im falling in love with you all over again but im too scared of abandonment to tell you my feelings.

i hate u so much. why did you lie to me. u lied so much. u made me so happy and then u broke my heart.

You we're my first love. I will always, truly love you. I miss you more than words can even explain. But you broke my heart.

why do you find the need to keep me in your life you know i like you, you know i try to take myself away from you yet you still text me every other day to remind me of the fact that i liked you i can't get over you and i think you like that

hey,i wish you would have noticed how good i was to u. ik we barley knew eachother but i really tried to make an effort for us. i wish you could know your feelings instead of playing with mine. i miss you sometimes but ik that i am woth so much. i dont need you to make me happy. i hope youre doing well. i love you.

I loved you. You loved her and that was okay. But when you finally looked at me the same way I looked at you, I got scared, backed out, ghosted you. I'm so sorry. I wasn't ready. I'm still not, but I didn't know that until it was too late. And now look at me, I've lost you, and it's all my fault. I was never the best with telling other people my feelings, but I love you. I love you so much it hurts. I still do, no matter how much I deny it. The way I thought about you every day for the last two years since we stopped seeing each other is one way to tell. I love you, I always will. Thank you for the memories, for the fun. I hope I can finally say goodbye to you just like how you said goodbye to me.

you will always have a special place in my life but you messed me up and made me feel like you care about me when you only did for a couple months

stop hitting on me ur such an asshole and so damn horny. like seriously stop asking me to date and hu, u claim its a joke but I know that damn well if I said yes it wouldn't be a joke no more. so man up and I want to kill ur ego because u deserve it. u have no respect for women and I could never date you. ever. never. so stop asking. and go away. I like hating on u. u just anger me.

last month marked a year to when we first talked. it ended nearly 10 months ago and it still hurts. i hate you

for years you made me feel like a bouquet, bright, beautiful and loved, now i feel like the last petal that has fallen.

I wish you would have given us more time. We could have been something amazing. If only you wanted us as badly as I did. I know that what you gave me was all you possibly could and I love you so much for that. Thank you

uh hey, ok so you'll never see this and ig that's ok. i just wanted to say i wish things were the way they used to be. i miss the old you. i feel like i'm gonna get so heart broken and ig that's ok. you haven't told me you loved me in days back to back, and like idk. it just hurts. lmao, it is what it is, i'm ready for whatever.

I’m so proud of you. I wish I could be there but I know you have to do this alone. I hope I never get over you

i don't know what i've been feeling for you lately. i'm in such a great relationship, but somehow you're always in the back of my mind. i can't tell if i enjoy you as a friend or dream of you as much more. i know it might be lust, but who's to know?

I love you but you’re making me move on. So when you see me with someone new, happy, d
you can’t be sad, I would have picked you over everyone. I’m finally giving someone a chance who’s actually trying. Someone who sees so much worth in me. It’s what I deserve. I guess I’m giving you up.

I know it was just a joke, and i don't even mind it anymore just because it makes you talk to me. you really have no idea how much i love you.

You act like you don’t want me anymore, and don’t love me anymore, but you don’t want me to move on.. wtf. I want to be in love with someone who actually loves me

i miss the old us. you made me the happiest I’ve ever been. i love you. but i also hate you. i wish we could go back to how we used to be. thanks for helping me make some of my best memories. luv you 4ever and idk what I’m gonna do w out you.

I love you. So much. I know we’re friends and you’ll never feel the same but in the rare occasion that you see this, please. Tell your best friend how you feel.

you’ll never know this but you broke me. you never knew me yet i out so much value in what you thought of me. you never cared about me. wouldn’t even give me the time of day. i felt invisible because you never noticed me. i’ve gotten over you. i’m good on my own now. i’ve learned to not value what you think of me or if you notice. have a nice life because you’re missing out on what it could’ve been

I know were still friends but it hurts everytime i see your face. I cant believe you would break me so carelessly after everything weve been through.I will never recover from the pain u put me through and then denied. I will always love you and thats what makes this so hard

i am going to hate you forever for how badly you hurt me. you completely destroyed my perception of love and i don’t think i’ll genuinely be able to love anyone romantically ever again. no one will ever suffice because they aren’t you. why couldn’t you love me back? why did you let me do what i did knowing how i fucking felt? i tried so hard, and you made me believe that we had a chance. i fucking hate you, but i’m going to love you for the rest of my life. you absolutely fucking destroyed me. have fun with your new life and new friends. i hope you’re happy.

i am going to hate you forever for how badly you hurt me. you completely destroyed my perception of love and i don’t think i’ll genuinely be able to love anyone romantically ever again. no one will ever suffice because they aren’t you. i fucking hate you, but i’m going to love you for the rest of my life. you absolutely fucking destroyed me. have fun with your new life and new friends. i hope you’re happy.

im still in love with you. it hurts seeing you fall in love with somebody else, but its best for you and i

you’re the reason why i started to believe in right person wrong time. bc i’m not willing to let go of what we had.

Never did I think I would find someone as loving and adventurous as you. Thank you for all that you do. I can’t wait to see what our future holds. I love you (forever) more

I've liked you for so long but you don't see it, you never do. I may not be a 10/10 but I would give my world for you.

you made me feel something after being numb for so long, and i will forever be greatful for that, even if our time wasnt long. thank you

i don’t ever want us to end. i don’t want to look at the stars with anyone else. it’s you. you’re my person i love you

roses are red, violets are blue. my heart is dead, im such a fool. why did i fall for you. i gave it all for you.

i really wish we could’ve tried but we both knew it wouldn’t work. i really cared about you and i still do. i love you as a friend and thank you for always being there for me. the times we weren’t talking you were always on my mind. i hope maybe in the future we might work but i guess we’ll have to wait and see. good luck in the future g. i will miss you.