Unsent messages to ELLIE

I miss hanging out with you and spending time with you. I wonder if I never told you about my crush on you that if we would still be good friends right now?

i know now that the reason i don’t want to move on is because i don’t want to understand that our best days are behind us, which deep down i know is the truth

To ells bells, I can’t believe we have been friends for 4 years already. I’m a bit surprised ur still friends with me tbh. U are the funniest person I have ever met, most of the funniest things have happened when I’m with u, ur also so kind and caring and are always there for me when I’m upset, you’ve helped me through multiple breakdowns and reassured me whenever I’m dealing with my insecurities. U are so stunning and u deserve so much. Thank u for being the bestest friend I love u so much. We have so many amazing memories together and Ik we will genuinely be friends forever bc I can’t imagine my life without u. Lots of love, M xxx

i don’t know if i still love you anymore you were toxic and i got a relationship with my guy bsf
fuck you roy.

I really like you but i don't know how to tell you cause I don't want to ruin our friendship :(
I miss u loads and I hope to see u soon and hug u

I know you were going through something but you didn’t have to just ghost me like that it really hurts

To try and give someone the world and loosing yourself in the process while still loving them is a battle you won’t understand

I'm sorry I'm so angry. I'm sorry that I couldn't love you right. I miss you but I don't think I could love you the way you need to be loved. I'm such a screw up. You are my sunshine and always will be.

i dont care if you see this years from now but i really hope you drop them :) they aren't good for you when there's so many better people out there

ive forgotten nearly everything about you and im over you. but i wish it never came to this. ig im speechless?

I loved you so much that I didn’t notice that you were slowly killing me. Everything you told me was a lie you never loved me you just wanted to ruin me and win a bet. So why do I love you so much still..

You’re my yellow. I love listening to Married Life with you. I might never remember to check this website again but if I do, I hope we work out. I hope we travel the world together. I hope you become the vet you dreamed of being, that I become the doctor I want to be, that we have Pablo in the Spanish house, and most importantly, that we’re happy. You mean so much to me. I love you.

i don't know if you'll ever see this, but thank you for being there for me. problem is i don't love you anymore.

you are so beautiful. i know you don't think much of me but it's okay. i can tell you have a beautiful soul and i know laurie would absolutely love you.

im not ready for when you leave. ik u dk but u have saved my life, even though we arent super close. i really don't want to go. please.

Hi Ellie,

you don't know this but i really like you in a friend way, i look up to you most days and think how mentally strong you are.

I feel like we are drifting apart and it sucks because you're my best friend and i don't wanna lose you. But i feel like i alway put the effort into the friendship and it feels very much 1 sided.

i loved you with all of my heart. it hurts that you couldnt even respond to my texts. popularity really took you away from me, huh? i loved you more than i did myself. i would give everything to you just for you to be happy. i told you how id been hurt before and you hurt me in the same way. you, ellie hutchin, broke my lil blood thumper. it hurts that you probably have forgotten about me. ill never forget you and ill never forgive myself for it.

I'm obsessed with you. I was too much of a coward to say this while you were still here, but I'm literally in love with you. You're the only reason I know what love is. And I can't get over you even though I practically haven't seen you for a year and won't truly every see you again.

You're the first person I've ever loved, even if it didn't work out the way I wanted, I'm glad u showed me what love should feel like

I'd be lying if I said I didn’t like you, and something tells me you’d be lying if you didn’t know already. The last thing I want to do is make you uncomfortable. All these nights, I find myself flirting and wanting more. I can’t help it. If you could tell me if it makes you uncomfortable, I’ll back off 100%. I love being your friend. It means everything to me. But you may understand why I’ve been confused all this time or whether or not you like me. I'm constantly debating myself. You may be tempted to say you don’t remember anything that happens on those nights, but I feel that it's simply impossible for you not to recall. I have no problem being just friends, but I'd like to possibly have an explanation for things that happen pretty much every time I see you. I don’t know how you wouldn’t find that to be frustrating for you or me. Honestly, I’ve been waiting to say something for way too long, but it's simply becoming too much for me to handle. Can you tell me your thoughts and let me know how you feel because I’m getting tired of being confused all the time. It's not your fault for not saying anything all this time because I have had a hard time sending this too. I don’t want to get my hopes up, and you may be thinking this is totally weird and awkward, and I’m sorry, but someone had to say something eventually. I don’t want this to ruin anything, considering things have finally stopped being weird between us, and we can actually be friends with no weird awkwardness, and that’s exactly what’s keeping me from sending this. Still, for the sake of my sanity, it needs to be talked about.

You're impossible.
Making plans with someone else and you always have to stick to it. Making plans with me, and you ALWAYS forget or cancel because something else has come up and youre a "go with the flow" kind of person.

i dont need you, im happy. but that doesnt mean that i dont want you to be happy. you were a big part of my life, i hope youre okay

3 heartbreaks later and I still think ur the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen even tho we’ve never spoken

3 heartbreaks later and I still think ur the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen even tho we’ve never spoken

3 heartbreaks later and I still think ur the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen even tho we’ve never spoken

It hurts releasing the one u truly loved and waited for to come back into your life has found another person that is way out of your league..

I know that you are struggling and I know that you can get through this. I’m actually kinda sad that we lost touch with each other. Thank you for always being there for me, no matter how many times I embarrassed you or got mad. If I had a chance to go back in time, I would still date you. Thank you Ellie.

Ellie bellie, I forever will be in love with you. I'm sorry I can't give you what you deserve. But one day I will. I just hope it wont be too late. I'm working on myself for you.

hi bub, i really do miss you but ig this is me letting you go. you were never good for me but that never changed the way i saw you. thank you for the past year n a bit, i wouldnt have wanted it with anyone else. ill forever love you angel but i gotta move on. i hope everything works out for you

I never had anyone who felt like a close friend until I got close to you. I needed you. You make me feel important.

Thank you for showing me what it feels like to have a true friend when I needed it. Thank you for listening and for not making me feel annoying. Thank you for staying.

i think of you all the time but not just because you're my best friend but i liked you. now i know that loving someone is different than wanting to date them. i love you so much and i really fucking wish i could tell you but i know it's gonna hurt

You were my best friend until you cut me off one day. We’re ‘friends’ again now, but it will never be the same as it was :(

My dear El, how I loved you. I never realized it until years later. The reason I was always enraged with jealousy and anger. I never wanted anyone to get closer to you than I was. I wanted you more than anything. I was too far closeted within myself to realize I was completely and utterly in love with you. I know its silly because I had S, but I wanted both of you. And I wanted both of you to love me whole heartedly. It hurts to know that your bi now, years after I was in love with you. I can't help but to think of you every now and again. I know deep down that if you wanted me again I run back to you with arms open wide. I loved you Ellie. I really did. I wish you well.

i fell in love with you the moment i saw you. to this day i still have hope that we could be more than friends.

You are worth so much more than how they make you feel. be strong my love, the world is yours to change.

Why did you move on so quickly? You needed to work on yourself. Guess that was never going to happen.

as much as i love you i can't stop comparing myself to other people and the more i do the more i realise you deserve better

i know it would never work, but i just want to be around u constantly. i want to give u a piece of me, and want u to give me a piece of u.

i don't think i know what it means to love someone. i don't know if i'll ever have that, much as i want and don't want it at the same time. but i know i care about you, even though i don't think you feel the same way. and i'm sorry if that's either too much or not enough, but you were the one who taught me not to apologize for feeling things (even if you never said it out loud).