My dear El, how I loved you. I never realized it until years later. The reason I was always enraged with jealousy and anger. I never wanted anyone to get closer to you than I was. I wanted you more than anything. I was too far closeted within myself to realize I was completely and utterly in love with you. I know its silly because I had S, but I wanted both of you. And I wanted both of you to love me whole heartedly. It hurts to know that your bi now, years after I was in love with you. I can't help but to think of you every now and again. I know deep down that if you wanted me again I run back to you with arms open wide. I loved you Ellie. I really did. I wish you well.