I feel like we are drifting apart and it sucks because you're my best friend and i don't wanna lose you. But i feel like i alway put the effort into the friendship and it feels very much 1 sided.

Hi Ellie,

you don't know this but i really like you in a friend way, i look up to you most days and think how mentally strong you are.

im not ready for when you leave. ik u dk but u have saved my life, even though we arent super close. i really don't want to go. please.

i don't think i know what it means to love someone. i don't know if i'll ever have that, much as i want and don't want it at the same time. but i know i care about you, even though i don't think you feel the same way. and i'm sorry if that's either too much or not enough, but you were the one who taught me not to apologize for feeling things (even if you never said it out loud).

You make me so happy so effortlessly. I’m so lucky to have found someone who matches me so well; who shares my interests, humor, grievances, and politics. I had a trial run of life without you, and the worry and guilt and loneliness that enveloped me was almost unbearable. I hope you know how valuable you are to me and that I would give anything for you. I love you. Truly.

I know you were going through something but you didn’t have to just ghost me like that it really hurts

You’re my yellow. I love listening to Married Life with you. I might never remember to check this website again but if I do, I hope we work out. I hope we travel the world together. I hope you become the vet you dreamed of being, that I become the doctor I want to be, that we have Pablo in the Spanish house, and most importantly, that we’re happy. You mean so much to me. I love you.

i know it would never work, but i just want to be around u constantly. i want to give u a piece of me, and want u to give me a piece of u.

I loved you so much that I didn’t notice that you were slowly killing me. Everything you told me was a lie you never loved me you just wanted to ruin me and win a bet. So why do I love you so much still..

I really like you but i don't know how to tell you cause I don't want to ruin our friendship :(
I miss u loads and I hope to see u soon and hug u

as much as i love you i can't stop comparing myself to other people and the more i do the more i realise you deserve better

Why did you move on so quickly? You needed to work on yourself. Guess that was never going to happen.

you’re really cool and i’m glad i can talk to you again. this is just a reminder that you are my favourite person and after lockdown i want to make cakes and hello kitty pizzas and have spontaneous picnics with you :)

It hurts releasing the one u truly loved and waited for to come back into your life has found another person that is way out of your league..

hi bub, i really do miss you but ig this is me letting you go. you were never good for me but that never changed the way i saw you. thank you for the past year n a bit, i wouldnt have wanted it with anyone else. ill forever love you angel but i gotta move on. i hope everything works out for you

3 heartbreaks later and I still think ur the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen even tho we’ve never spoken

3 heartbreaks later and I still think ur the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen even tho we’ve never spoken

3 heartbreaks later and I still think ur the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen even tho we’ve never spoken

I really had so much love for you..but I’ve moved on and you did what you did and that made me hate you

i loved you with all of my heart. it hurts that you couldnt even respond to my texts. popularity really took you away from me, huh? i loved you more than i did myself. i would give everything to you just for you to be happy. i told you how id been hurt before and you hurt me in the same way. you, ellie hutchin, broke my lil blood thumper. it hurts that you probably have forgotten about me. ill never forget you and ill never forgive myself for it.

you are so beautiful. i know you don't think much of me but it's okay. i can tell you have a beautiful soul and i know laurie would absolutely love you.

Even after all the hurt, you'll always have a place in my heart I can never seem to get to the bottom of. Maybe in the next life..

it would be selfish to tell u. but god i wish i could.
i love u immeasurably & i am so fucking sorry.

i dont need you, im happy. but that doesnt mean that i dont want you to be happy. you were a big part of my life, i hope youre okay

i don't know if you'll ever see this, but thank you for being there for me. problem is i don't love you anymore.

Ellie bellie, I forever will be in love with you. I'm sorry I can't give you what you deserve. But one day I will. I just hope it wont be too late. I'm working on myself for you.

You're impossible.
Making plans with someone else and you always have to stick to it. Making plans with me, and you ALWAYS forget or cancel because something else has come up and youre a "go with the flow" kind of person.

ive forgotten nearly everything about you and im over you. but i wish it never came to this. ig im speechless?

i dont care if you see this years from now but i really hope you drop them :) they aren't good for you when there's so many better people out there

i am so sorry. you were always my best friends and i will care about you forever. i wish u could forgive me.

i don’t know if i still love you anymore you were toxic and i got a relationship with my guy bsf
fuck you roy.

You are worth so much more than how they make you feel. be strong my love, the world is yours to change.

You made me realize I was not straight. I loved you and still appreciate your presence, but why did you have to talk shit n ruin our friendship? text me maybe

i fell in love with you the moment i saw you. to this day i still have hope that we could be more than friends.

i know you’re worried that i’m just replacing him with you, but i need you to know that you mean so much more to me than he ever did

I’m sorry. I got help. I’m better. I wish I could go back and change so much, but I’ve broken it all now. I hope one day you’ll be able to even look at me again. I miss you but I know you’re better off without me. I hope you’ll never forget the good times ging. Thank you for the memories and the lessons learnt.

My dear El, how I loved you. I never realized it until years later. The reason I was always enraged with jealousy and anger. I never wanted anyone to get closer to you than I was. I wanted you more than anything. I was too far closeted within myself to realize I was completely and utterly in love with you. I know its silly because I had S, but I wanted both of you. And I wanted both of you to love me whole heartedly. It hurts to know that your bi now, years after I was in love with you. I can't help but to think of you every now and again. I know deep down that if you wanted me again I run back to you with arms open wide. I loved you Ellie. I really did. I wish you well.

if we don’t see another day on earth where we can be close, my first wish after i die and go to heaven will be just that

You were my best friend until you cut me off one day. We’re ‘friends’ again now, but it will never be the same as it was :(

I'd be lying if I said I didn’t like you, and something tells me you’d be lying if you didn’t know already. The last thing I want to do is make you uncomfortable. All these nights, I find myself flirting and wanting more. I can’t help it. If you could tell me if it makes you uncomfortable, I’ll back off 100%. I love being your friend. It means everything to me. But you may understand why I’ve been confused all this time or whether or not you like me. I'm constantly debating myself. You may be tempted to say you don’t remember anything that happens on those nights, but I feel that it's simply impossible for you not to recall. I have no problem being just friends, but I'd like to possibly have an explanation for things that happen pretty much every time I see you. I don’t know how you wouldn’t find that to be frustrating for you or me. Honestly, I’ve been waiting to say something for way too long, but it's simply becoming too much for me to handle. Can you tell me your thoughts and let me know how you feel because I’m getting tired of being confused all the time. It's not your fault for not saying anything all this time because I have had a hard time sending this too. I don’t want to get my hopes up, and you may be thinking this is totally weird and awkward, and I’m sorry, but someone had to say something eventually. I don’t want this to ruin anything, considering things have finally stopped being weird between us, and we can actually be friends with no weird awkwardness, and that’s exactly what’s keeping me from sending this. Still, for the sake of my sanity, it needs to be talked about.

i'm sorry for hurting you. i shouldn't have. i miss you. i know we probably weren't right for each other but i'm sorry if you felt i led you on. that wasn't my intention. i seriously hope you're doing well

I’ll never fully understand why you left. Because if you really loved me you would’ve stayed. And it kills me to think of you.

i think of you all the time but not just because you're my best friend but i liked you. now i know that loving someone is different than wanting to date them. i love you so much and i really fucking wish i could tell you but i know it's gonna hurt

i’ve loved these last 2 weeks. thank you for accepting me back into your life even after i was such an idiot. thanks for the playlist too, i’ve been listening to it loads and it just makes me so happy that you thought of me when listening to all those cool songs. i feel like we’re going back to how we were, but this time he won’t get in the way, unless he does decide to ‘date her best friend’ sozzers lol i know u don’t want to think about that. also thanks for hyping my pfp up

i’m glad u said that about the i love you lolz bc i’ve been thinking the exact same thing? lmao i love you tho

hi, sorry. i don’t want you. to think he’s all i can talk about bc he’s not. i will talk about him less and i’ve pretty much told u everything now anyway. i just find it funny sometimes is all. but i don’t want you to think you can’t do things bc he already did them. i mean, i’ll eventually have to get over the things he’s ruined for me, bc there’s so much lol, and you’re def helping so thank you. it’s just that it’s only been 2 weeks and it’s still pretty fresh in my mind, so i still think about him a lot, not in that way but like a haha what an idiot kind of way. and i get what you mean about being nosy, i am too lol so don’t worry

I'm sorry I'm so angry. I'm sorry that I couldn't love you right. I miss you but I don't think I could love you the way you need to be loved. I'm such a screw up. You are my sunshine and always will be.

i hope that we can watch the sunset together in the future, while you lay your head in my lap and i play with your hair.

Thank you for showing me what it feels like to have a true friend when I needed it. Thank you for listening and for not making me feel annoying. Thank you for staying.

I never had anyone who felt like a close friend until I got close to you. I needed you. You make me feel important.