Unsent messages to ELLA

You ditched me out of the fucking blue. No fucking warning at all. I hope your fucking happy. Bc what you did fucking hurt me. A lot.

Remember when I went to your house every weekend? Remember when we were best friends? Remember how many memories we made together? Now we don’t even see each other once a month. Don’t leave me for him you were my best friend

this is fucking ripping me apart. it almost seemed like we had a moment yesterday and then it was gone and now she’s back. i don’t know if i can keep this up.

you’re a bad friend. i ask you constantly to talk to me or to wait for me until i’m ready to talk and you never do it’s only when you feel like it. i swear if i stopped texting you, you wouldn’t notice or you’d come crying to me because of some stupid boy you liked like girl seriously i’m your best friend our relationship also needs work.

It’s funny, we live just a street apart nowadays but I don’t think I could be further from the person I was when we were together.

I didn’t know what missing someone felt like until I missed you. And I didn’t realise I loved you until you were gone.

Why'd you have to hurt me like that? Why'd You lead me on for so long and make it seem like we'd be together. You made me believe we had a future together. You didn't care about me that whole time. You see me as a friend but I see you as so much more. You're the only reason I could get toxic people outta my life, but now I'm lonelier than ever. Are you happy? I have no friends, my family doesn't care about me anymore. You were the only reason I didn't want to run away. Because I thought if I did you'd never be with me. Now there nothing holding me back. You never cared about my needs. I was so respectful, but what about me? I was ok with your innocence and your decisions, but not once did you ask how I felt. I gave you so many options, but I only had one option and that was to let you go because that's what you wanted. I didn't wanna let you go. And now you have the audacity to flirt with me again? Fuck you. I'm completely alone, because of my commitment, but you had commitment issues, you may not have said it directly, but it was obvious. I told all the girls I was talking to that I had a gf because I believed it and thought it would happen. Whatever, you don't care anyway. That's why I'm not saying this to you.

i know you hate to be called that, henceforth why i'm calling you it. i will never forgive you for what you put me through. nearly taking my life because of how you treated me. i wish you nothing but hell, good riddance!

i know i was toxic, and yet you still love me. i dont understand how but its nice to know your still there, and i would love another chance but i dont wanna hurt you again, and even if i do get another chance, i have changed.

i didnt know that you found me annoying i kinda thought we were best friends but its okay you have new friends now i do miss you a lot though.