Unsent messages to ELIAS

I'm with someone and I'm sure I love him, so tell me, why are you the one who always come to mind when I think of love?

Hiii.
Umm so i wouldn't say i loved you, but i will say i liked you sooo bad that i couldn't function when you weren't in school.
Im sure you didn't even notice me, and that you didn't look at me that way.
My friends made so much fun of me for liking you, because you were the biggest jerk of all time. i dont have feelings for you anymore but just know back then i would catch a grenade for you. just so you know...

d vd no sbes las ganas q tengo d verte , sigo esperando a q me des ese abrazo q me ibas a dar , sigo esperando a q me digas dora la exploradora al verme , sigo esperando a q me hagas cosqillitas en la barriga mientras yo me rio con mis risa mas verdadadera , la vd esq sigo esperandote , aqunq se q no qieres saber nada d mi , t echo muchisimo d menos y la vd esq esta mierda me puede , cuando t dije q ndie t va a qerer mas q yo no mentia , nadie lo hara. espero q estas bien mivida , ojala nos volvamos a encontrar , yo estare en nuestro sitio 04 siempre

You are not my first love but you are so special to me, you are the first person I have ever felt comfortable around. My doctor, I cannot wait to dance with you. You make me so happy. Love your Rose

Lamento nunca haber tenido el valor de decirte que me gustas, se que me arrepentiré de nunca hacerlo :(

i wanna tell you how i feel but you r so far and i cant tell if you feel the same even though it seems that u do. anyways, i like you. a lot.

quizás nunca supiste que estuve enamorada de ti, pero quiero que sepas que siempre quise lo mejor para ti

I wish I had been more mature, now all that remains is for the future to find us again, but I don't even know if you still remember me.

I wish we were still friends. I don’t know why I miss you so much, you’re so toxic. I don’t know why I found comfort in you. You were my other half and idk I just thought you were a better person when it came to me. Maybe it was all in my head, maybe you didn’t even care. I wish you did tho, I wish you never ruined our friendship and I wish I was still texting you and calling you during your free time and playing games with you. Who knows maybe in the future you’ll be better and fate will pull as back together. Man I don’t know why I’m so hung over you. Anyways Ilywaihtaibysgl

Eres y siempre seras mi primer amor, fuimos mejores amigos muchos años y siempre me arrepentiré de no decir que te quería solo por miedo a perderte para siempre (no funciono porque igual te perdí), siento mucho haberme alejado. eres mi mas dulce recuerdo.

I hate you. I put a white drop back because I don't think you deserve a color at all. I hate the way you smell or smile. I hate how you talk, the way you walk, how matter of factly you act. I hate most that you left a part of me broken. I hate how I miss you or how I turn my head any time a motorcycle goes by. I hate that you replaced me with a new version of me. You can even say that you didn't, the hair , her laugh, her smile. I hate that it's her name instead of mine, but most of all I hate how I don't hate you, not even a little bit, not at all. I hate how I think about you, that it even makes me smile. I hate that it makes my stomach knot and all I can do is cry. I hate how empty I feel and you're not even the reason why. I just want to tell you I'm done with that, that I'm okay now and I want to let you go.This is goodbye

FUCK YOU AND EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER DONE TO ME , you are manipulative and a bitch,you are racist and sexiest+ ableist

I don’t care if it’s complicated or not. I’m not ready to forget you, i’m not ready to let you go.
I adore you.

I don’t know if you’ll ever see this, but i love you. I know me and you are meant to be and I honestly believe we are soulmates. You ruined our friendship but I still like you so much, You’re all I think about and although what you did was wrong, I still believe you could’ve made me the happiest girl in the world:( I love you. Stop being toxic! I someday hope me and you become friends again and you change and we get married and have a family and grow old together:)

I don’t know if you’ll ever see this, but i love you. I know me and you are meant to be and I honestly believe we are soulmates. You ruined our friendship but I still like you so much, You’re all I think about and although what you did was wrong, I still believe you could’ve made me the happiest girl in the world:( I love you. Stop being toxic! I someday hope me and you become friends again and you change and we get married and have a family and grow old together:)

I know we were just friends and we didn’t know each other for that long but you actually meant the world to me and I actually cared for you. It hurt to let you go and it hurt that you didn’t care. I actually loved you. I saw myself with you. You made me laugh and smile 24/7. You made me happy. Everyone would always talk about how toxic you were, but to me you were perfect. I wish you would’ve changed. I wanted you to be better. I thought I could be the person to make you better. Hope youre happy with yourself.

Its sad how We both saw something in each other, but the worst part is that We was right for each other but it was the wrong time

Is this really the end? I love u forever I was willing to wait but I think it’s your turn to come to me now my love. I am ur home

Ehrlich gesagt weiß ich nicht, warum ich diesen Text schreibe. Du wirst ihn eh nie lesen bzw nicht wissen, dass er von mir ist.
Aber ich wollte danke sagen. Du warst einer der Gründe weshalb ich mir mein Leben nicht genommen hab. Wir haben zwar nur 2 Kurse zusammen, aber alleine der Gedanke daran, dass du wieder einfach du bist, hat meinen Tag gerettet. Ich hätte mir zwar gewünscht mehr mit dir zu tun zu haben, aber leider war ich dir zu schüchtern und uncool.
Bist aber sonst ein echt super Mensch. Verstell dich nur nicht immer so. Mag dich ohne deine Freunde echt lieber. :)

I am so grateful for you. Even though I annoy you to no end, you still stay. When we broke up I hated you. You were my first real boyfriend, and "love". Now I tell you all about my boy problems. Isn't that funny? I wish I could fully explain how much you mean to me.

I really feel like it was right person wrong time, I wish we could have a second chance. I love you more than I thought I did and I wish I would have told you sooner, I love you

Hey... do you know how much you mean to me? Do you know how happy you made me feel? We shared those late night talks about our dreams of watching the city lights while we talk about all sorts of stuffs and the thought of you and me dancing in the rain together. I thought we had something you know? But after 3 months... what happened to us? I know you have some shit that you're going through and I tried being there for you, I wanted to make sure that you know that I'm there for you... but somehow you made me feel like I don't even matter to you anymore and it hurts... I wanted to stay because I want to, I want to be with you, but you keep on giving me reasons to let go. And here I am writing this letter thinking if I really meant anything to you at all. I like you so much you know? I hope you know that. I tried letting go but somehow I hate it how the universe always finds a way that brings my mind back to you. It's those simple things that remind me of you. You may not see this but I want you to know that I love your smile, your personality, everything, and if we do see each other in the future, I hope you have achieved your dreams and the things you want to do... especially the Aurora Borealis. I knew you were the one to be honest, and even if I'm not the reason anymore... the reason behind that smile of yours, I'd honestly still wait for you. It hurts just thinking about how you're drifting away from me and you don't seem to care... and here I am, this random girl you met who's completely into you. It's you Elias... It's you... and I'm sorry that I wasn't exactly what you wanted. I know you'll find someone someday and I want you to be the happiest person alive when you are with that person, because you deserve to be happy. I'll still be here for you... always...