Unsent Messages

Hey... do you know how much you mean to me? Do you know how happy you made me feel? We shared those late night talks about our dreams of watching the city lights while we talk about all sorts of stuffs and the thought of you and me dancing in the rain together. I thought we had something you know? But after 3 months... what happened to us? I know you have some shit that you're going through and I tried being there for you, I wanted to make sure that you know that I'm there for you... but somehow you made me feel like I don't even matter to you anymore and it hurts... I wanted to stay because I want to, I want to be with you, but you keep on giving me reasons to let go. And here I am writing this letter thinking if I really meant anything to you at all. I like you so much you know? I hope you know that. I tried letting go but somehow I hate it how the universe always finds a way that brings my mind back to you. It's those simple things that remind me of you. You may not see this but I want you to know that I love your smile, your personality, everything, and if we do see each other in the future, I hope you have achieved your dreams and the things you want to do... especially the Aurora Borealis. I knew you were the one to be honest, and even if I'm not the reason anymore... the reason behind that smile of yours, I'd honestly still wait for you. It hurts just thinking about how you're drifting away from me and you don't seem to care... and here I am, this random girl you met who's completely into you. It's you Elias... It's you... and I'm sorry that I wasn't exactly what you wanted. I know you'll find someone someday and I want you to be the happiest person alive when you are with that person, because you deserve to be happy. I'll still be here for you... always...