Unsent messages to EDWARD
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: July 12, 2023, 10:17 pm UTC
I would like it if you stayed in my life for a long, long time.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: January 17, 2021, 3:53 am UTC
If your the person who keeps writing about him tell me. I need to know what he’s done. I may have fallen down the same rabbit hole.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: January 15, 2021, 5:42 am UTC
Even though it started when we were kids. You're still the person is see in my head when I think about love.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: January 10, 2021, 9:45 pm UTC
hi you, It is a weird story between us. Weird vibes hanging around, love and laugh. Coming too close to eachother but we do not mind. loving your attention, but don't want too much. I know it will never become something between us, but there will always be those happy vibes. Kisses
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: January 5, 2021, 1:45 am UTC
"i look pretty good in green amirite?", yeah you were right. you always are, although i'd never say this to your face. i doubt you'll ever read this but it's okay. i don't understand you and i think that's why i love you so much. you constantly surprise me and i don't know how you feel about me but i know you care about me. you make me feel like no one else ever has before. i hope it works out between us. i don't know what i'd do without you. thank you for being you. i love you always regardless of whatever form it comes in. don't be an ass
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: January 2, 2021, 10:32 pm UTC
ik u were jus a crush but 11yr old me fell for u sooo hard and i still remember camp like the back of my hand. u kinda made me nervous infront of everyone but if i didn’t fall for u mine and my friends life’s would be completely different so ty
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: January 1, 2021, 11:38 am UTC
Be honest, you never cared about me. You only “loved me” to sleep with me. Everyone was right when they called you a horn dog. I should have never been your friend.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: December 28, 2020, 7:41 am UTC
loving you is by far the most complicated thing i’ve ever done in my life
i remember writing something about one of us beginning to fall for eachother, ruining what we’re doing
fortunately, the falling hasn’t ruined anything
fortunately, we both fell. not just one.
the feeling i get whenever i’m around you is fucking addicting, your scent is intoxicating, i could spend hours just getting lost in your eyes, i could never ever get sick of your laugh, i could lay in your arms for the rest of eternity.
i hate that you’re the only boy that’s ever made me feel this way. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.
sometimes you tell me that you reciprocate the feelings i have for you, but i’m unsure whether i should believe you.
in the past youve claimed to love me but treated me entirely opposite of that.
i’m so mortified it’ll just be lies again.
i’m sorry if i need too much reassurance even if we aren’t dating.
i just need to know you love me the way i’ve always loved you.
recently i’ve been able to tell that youve changed.
you seem calmer, more comfortable.
i’m so, so proud of you. youve changed for the better. and it’s incredible.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: December 21, 2020, 8:36 pm UTC
Hey Ed,
I understand you will never see this. Or if by some miracle, or perhaps rather curse, you do see this 'work of art', your English may make it so that reading this would prove to be a challenge. However, I have this undying feeling of happiness when around you. It is something no amount of words in the dictionary could begin to describe. Being around you is the highlight of my day and whenever I see you sitting alone at dinner I can't help but feel guilty for not coming over to you. I'm just sorry I don't have enough time to talk to you.
Thank you for listening to my atrociously long speech on my, what seems to be, aggravatingly intrusive love for you. Something that will forever keep me held back from fully expressing my gratitude for you.
Wow, how cheesy...
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From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: December 18, 2020, 9:01 pm UTC
I’m glad we’re still on good terms. It’s weird to think about how you’ve technically affected me so much though
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: December 18, 2020, 4:10 am UTC
hey dad, im so tired. u've been gone for 3 yrs and im so tired. boys used me andleft me. like u did. why did u die without me. i want to be w you again. i love and miss you. im giving up, i cant take it anymore. mom is mean to me. i cant.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: December 14, 2020, 5:43 pm UTC
You really hurt when when you chose someone else over me and still here I am trying to heal from that...
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: December 13, 2020, 1:13 pm UTC
ed, i need you the most right now and its the time you left. every little thing in my life from brushing my teeth to driving reminds me of you - it brings me pain. why did you just leave with no explanation? i love you, i have since the day we met. nobody will ever be able to fill the hole you have left.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: December 10, 2020, 5:57 am UTC
Thank you for being such a kind person to me, I wish I could tell you how I really feel but I’m not confident enough. I will someday though
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: November 25, 2020, 8:09 pm UTC
Aunque fuimos ese "casi algo" me dolio bastante ya no hablar; ahora entiendo que si no se dio en ese momento era porque tenia que ser asi.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: November 21, 2020, 11:05 pm UTC
Yea we tease each other a lot in elementary I kind of hid the fact that I liked.We don’t talk anymore but thank for everything.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: November 19, 2020, 4:39 am UTC
I dont even know what we we're.. it was so stupid and pointless. You dont understand how much i regret it, but thanks to you i met the loml.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: November 18, 2020, 6:55 am UTC
I realized that we were both in the wrong. I settled for less and argued with you for the smallest things but you lied to me and used me. I don't know how someone can act and say hurtful words when they loved that person. Part of me wants to wait to meet you but I know there's no whole point. I compare everything from you to everyone else I meet. How delusional I was at the beginning when I met you...I don't get it bro, what was so hard on putting effort and committing. I still wonder if you deleted our world. As silly as it sounds I hope you didn't erase the file named after me. I hope to watch another stream. I hope to have another long deep conversation. I hope we can be friends at least someday. Maybe not soon but later or in another lifetime. I don't if I miss you or not. I'm confused, perhaps there was a misunderstanding. Thank you... I'm genially thankful for learning from this and I'm happy. I wish you the best even tho we didn't end in good terms I still hope for the best for you. We were too young.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: November 15, 2020, 12:30 am UTC
I am sorry for all the pain that i put you in... i wasn't able to keep going with live and you were always there for me... rn... i want to end things so bad and the only reason i keep going it's because ik you'll always be there for me
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: November 9, 2020, 5:27 am UTC
I was unsure of everything but I was sure you would be there forever until you weren't. It feels surreal, I'm sorry I couldn't leave you alone. But it's fine right? Now you can think I'm nuts forever.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: November 8, 2020, 5:02 pm UTC
Blue, because it was your favorite color, but apparently i'm not your favorite decision, you broke me in pieces, and let me alone with no reason. I loved you
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: October 25, 2020, 7:41 pm UTC
I was strong enough to work through things when I went through your phone. That was my biggest mistake.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: October 16, 2020, 5:09 am UTC
i really like you. i hope we can stay friends for a long time. i do want to become more than friends, but i'm just afraid that i will only disappoint you
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: September 22, 2020, 9:28 pm UTC
why can't you be more nicer to me, i have liked you so much and all you do is treat me like shit, you say you like me too but dont even act on it. the first time we stopped talking it felt like shit but now im not scared to lose you again. Why cant you fucking grow up please
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: September 14, 2020, 9:19 pm UTC
When it rains, I stop, and think about how you’d have comforted me. Thanks to you I don’t know who I am anymore, but I’ll move on.
From: ABC
To: Edward
Date: September 6, 2020, 11:27 pm UTC
the way you treated my mental illness hurt a lot. that was over 5 years ago. this year, i debate ending everything every day.
