Unsent Messages

loving you is by far the most complicated thing i’ve ever done in my life
i remember writing something about one of us beginning to fall for eachother, ruining what we’re doing
fortunately, the falling hasn’t ruined anything
fortunately, we both fell. not just one.
the feeling i get whenever i’m around you is fucking addicting, your scent is intoxicating, i could spend hours just getting lost in your eyes, i could never ever get sick of your laugh, i could lay in your arms for the rest of eternity.
i hate that you’re the only boy that’s ever made me feel this way. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.
sometimes you tell me that you reciprocate the feelings i have for you, but i’m unsure whether i should believe you.
in the past youve claimed to love me but treated me entirely opposite of that.
i’m so mortified it’ll just be lies again.
i’m sorry if i need too much reassurance even if we aren’t dating.
i just need to know you love me the way i’ve always loved you.

recently i’ve been able to tell that youve changed.
you seem calmer, more comfortable.
i’m so, so proud of you. youve changed for the better. and it’s incredible.