Unsent messages to DRAKE

you come in and out of my life when you please and give me false hope but i don't care. i'll always wait for you.

I'm so sorry Drake. I hurt you, but I didn't know what to do. Should I just have ignored you? I liked you... you gave me what he never could've.

I would never tell you this but I know that you’re the one my heart is always going to run back to— I have no shame in that.

Guess who's back cause I have nothing better to do. Well nothing's changed since the day you left. I'm still in so much pain. I thought it was supposed to get better. Everything reminds me of you. Bacon, Juice wrld, my blanket, even my room. You took a piece of me when you left. I hope you take care of it.

-SRN
I changed how I sign my name

i’m sorry i left you, dude. your feelings mean a lot to me. i’m sorry i overthought so much. i’m sorry i couldn’t help being who i am. i enjoyed facetiming you on sunday, honestly. i enjoy our conversations. and i’m sorry.

i miss you... but u don’t miss me. I feel like it was all a lie and in the end u moved on and I’m left broken. I need to move on for myself and for that right now in this moment I’m letting you go. Goodbye ?

My first instinct is to tell you I wish we never met, but that's simply not true. If I were to have never responded I would not have learned I deserve more than just being used for when you were lonely. I am worth more than being left on read when I actually needed you. You promised a hook up when someone else will promise forever. I'm not sure what it is about you that keeps me coming back every time you run back into my life but I truly hope you don't come back. Someone else will let me give them everything I wanted to give to you. I would have given you every piece of me not asking for anything in return. I wanted to help you and watch you reach every goal you ever dreamed of. One day you will find a girl you feel is worth giving your attention to and I hope she gives you that and more because you deserve the entire world, you just wouldn't let me give it to you. Something that I will probably never forget is I would have given you the world and that was somehow not good enough for you and that's okay because now I know it was you who didn't deserve to even know my name.

How could you lie to me and act like nothing was wrong? You broke my trust and manipulated me with your words. You moved on and left me in pieces not caring if they were ever put back together again. How dare you.

I feel so stupid. I feel like I ruined the possibility of a new relationship by not telling you when I had the chance. I just want to be yours again, and not being with you upsets me more than you’ll ever know.