Unsent messages to SANTANA

i wish i could give you 3 squeezes one more time

i had my tarot cards read, she said i need closure, i don’t how to find it. i’m sorry for everything

I love you so much. I don’t understand why you won’t let me.

i love you but your texting makes me infatuated

you’ve been on my mind,i can never apologize enough for what i did to you. i hope you’re doing well

i love you so much. im sorry i became dry ml :(

i miss you but i’m not sure you feel the same. i’m sorry for everything. always and forever.

i miss you, but i’m not sure you feel the same. always and forever.

I miss us, wish you had been more open about what you felt...

i love you and i wish you would come back idk why you left you said it was for a lot of reasons no matter how much you hurt me or how far away you lived i will always love you i will compare every guy to you and it just hasn’t been the same i’ll still wait even though you told me to move on i’ll love you forever even though forever for you was for a couple months but i mean a life time and many more after that i love you santana

after all we went through, idk how you could do that to a person, idk how you could abandon someone who genuinely thought the world of you but okay. i hope you think about me sometimes and regret it cause ik i do that every single day. fuck you.

Why did you have to leave me after all the great memories we had together, you made me feel so special every second we hangout. I know I was a side the whole time but I felt like it was real that's why I kept going back to you even though you hurt me so much. I really did love you and I felt like you loved me too, when you said "I love you" to me for the first time in person, I really really loved you too I just was surprised about it that's why I hesitated to say it back. I really loved all the time we spent together, it felt like so long but it was only a month, whenever we kissed I felt like everyone just stopped I loved you so much and I wanted to be with you for a long time. I remember everything we did together like it was yesterday, every time I came over and we watched movies and the warmth you provided for me, when I was with you i felt so safe, and I was happy. When we would skate all over oceanside together and go on roofs and watch the sunsets together, ride the bus together, hold on to each other like nothing else was bothering us, I'm sorry I wasn't there for you every time and when we would just sit and think, and just be with each other just made everything feel so good. Everything we did together makes me think about how good you were to me and how much you really mean to my life, I never stop thinking about you and everything we did. Everywhere we went together haunts me now, it just brings back the memories I had with you, everywhere I go I always think about you, and I realize how stupid I was on leaving you because of stupid rumors, I am really sorry and I know I can't get you back anymore. I just want you to know how much you meant to me and how much you put me through just to be with you, I really loved everything about you and everything we did together, I still always think about it so much and it just brings pain to me, you act like you get no love when all of these girls want you, and I feel just like a fan girl, but when I got attention from you, I just wanted to be the only one who got it, that's why I got so jealous when I saw your phone or when another girl got your attention, I just feel like you deserve much better than what you got from many other girls. I love you so much and I hope we can be friends again.

I’m sorry for letting my mind get the best of me and I felt like I wa the root of
Your problems so I dipped. I also was dumb enough to believe the roumors and acted out in the wrong way. I’m sorry girl and I wish u the best even if you don’t feel the same.