I can’t believe you used me like you did. I was 12. You were 17. You knew what you were doing. I’m sorry I let it go on.

ik we don’t talk much but devin i think about uu all the time think about me in ur arms soft kisses i get butterflies thinking bout uu and i smile when i say ur name

Thank you for teaching me trauma at such an early age. I’m a badass bitch now and I can’t wait to be the CEO of a company you’re a janitor for.

i didnt have enough love for the both of us and you didn’t have any to contribute and therefor i had to let you go but i always loved you the most, i’ll always wish you well

red was your favourite colour right?

regardless of how much you hurt me mentally and physically, i wish the best for you. i still see the boy i met at his most vulnerable. i hope you’re doing okay.

I dont know why you decided I was the girl to hurt, but you did. Now, you won't even talk to me like you used to. I just want you to stop hurting me.

Red because that’s your favorite color. But I wish you would just notice how deeply in love I am with you...

i'm so sorry, idk what happened i was so stupid for leaving you:( please just text me whenever, i want to talk things out

i don’t really understand what’s going on ngl and u make it so hard for me to just expect us to be friends

i never told you, but i was falling in love. i wish i would’ve said something sooner but now you’re gone. i will forever love you my angel.

I don't want you anymore but sometimes I think about how much love I gave to you and how you only ever wanted her and it still hurts. You chose her over me time and time again, no one has ever made me feel less confident in myself and who I am and thats saying something. We're still friends but sometimes I just wanna yell at you for how much hurt you've caused.

I still think about you daily. I hope you've grown and matured. I don't think what we had was love, but I do know I still care about you and wish you the best. You made a real impact on my life.

You were never really mine but you deserve the world . When you cried to me it showed me something in you that was unique and I will forever love that.

Sometimes I zone out and imagine the future you promised me. I hope you actually keep that promise with her.

you saved my life. you're the only thing i'd ever look forward to seeing, even if only for a split second.

It's hard to love after him. But you're making it a little easier as the days go by. U make me wish I had more time here before I leave. Thank you for being so patient with me

Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck... I miss you

fuck you. Im not lazy. funny how its coming from a guy who is barely capable of getting that acne off of ur face. I do not remember ordering a pepperoni pizza.

You hurt me like no one else would. Yet what I would give to fix whatever the problem was to be good enough again.

every time i feel whole again u come back and rip me to shreds. i detest you and will tell anyone who asks that i couldn't care less about you. yet my heart hurts when i think about u.

I know you only use me when you're bored. but I just can't help but hope that maybe it's something more this time.

in hindsight im really glad we didnt work out lol
youre not a bad person but you treated me like shit !!!

I look for you in everyone I meet. You set the standard I will never reach again. Instead I’m left holding the memories I have left of you.

I can’t find anyone else, is it bc I want you back or is it bc of what you put me through? I love you, but i hate you

Why did you do that. i trusted you and i know it was a mistake on my part but i thought you changed and i trusted you and you did that and you knew i was so vulnerable and look i picked myself back up and im ok now all by myself. i thought i needed you because you helped me a lot and thank you so much for that but i’m doing it by myself now. i wish i never texted you back. i wish i never meant you honestly. you helped me yes but at the cost of so much and now i’m stuck fixing myself with nobody by my side but that’s the best. being able to say i fixed myself and i am who i am by myself.

I’m finally starting to feel like my old self again. I hope you’re well and thank you for reminding me to stay present.

I’m finally starting to feel like my old self again. I hope you’re well and thank you for reminding me to stay present.

Twice. I let you break my heart twice. Yet I love you and always will. Maybe we’ll have those 3 kids one day?

i hope u dont see this which is why I put dev because I feel like not using ur name is cheating so I put dev so that there is a lower chance that you'll see this but its still possible. anyways, I kinda wish we met later on in life. not saying I regret dating you so young, I just wish we had more of a childhood and teenage experience ya know? then again its kinda fun because when were older we can be like "oh yeah we've been dating since we were 12" but if we do last that long I guess ill never be able to say if ur a bad kisser because ill never kiss anybody else cuz I'm not a #cheater. but this is sorta a fuck you for making me fall this hard for someone so young. if we do somehow manage to last it'll be the craziest thing to tell our kids. but oh man if we break up I'm done for like ill never be happy ever again. jk but like ill never be as happy as i was last September. when we hangout sometimes i get super bored because its just us watching movies for hours and hours because you wont let me go on my phone and u never wanna leave or do anything. and i just wish we could joke around more like how we did in the summer but all you do is be a baby and its so annoying. its cute every now and then but most of the time i just wanna joke around and laugh but all you wanna do is cuddle. i like listening to u talking to ur friends because it gives us a break from being attached at the hip. its also fun to hear what you guys talk about but if we broke up I'm terrified as to what you'd say about me cuz holy shit ur mean when ur talking about girls. like you have no filter. some times i wish you didn't touch my thigh or ass as much mainly because ur trying to tell me ur in a mood and I'm hardly ever in that type of mood to makeout and stuff. it still feels like that's all u wanna do but I'm not gonna tell you that because i don't want you to feel upset about it again so i just keep pushing it aside. i also wish that you asked me to hangout more instead of just on the weekends. i don't understand the difference. you didn't have practice so we would've been able to hangout for 5 hours, aka the same amount that we hang out on Friday but somehow friday is different? now that basketball starts i understand that we probs wont hangout on weekdays because that's only like 3 hours which i mean is like the same amount that we hungout on Saturday but whatever. you give me a lot of second hand embarrassment when you lie. its so obvious that ur lying. watching criminal minds 12 times is just stupidly false. i highly doubt you've even finished it once. you've also said you had 200 girls on snap which is also so true because every time we had each other on snap during the summer we would snap for like a day and i would be ur number one on snap. i hate how you just randomly get mad and then just expect me to know whats wrong. or when you force me to talk about my feelings when i obviously don't want to. i just want to crack jokes and try to make myself happier but you just keep asking whats wrong and sometimes i just don't really know whats wrong so i don't want to talk about it. its not rocket science. if i say i don't want to don't make me. i know ur trying to be the best you can and thank u sm for that

I didn’t think I had a favourite colour until I saw your ginger hair and the way your eyelashes glowed in the sunlight.

sorry that i was never enough for you. i just don't get how none of it mattered to u. i guess every single was just a lie.

you took me to see the stars. 9 months later i still think of you whenever i look up at the night sky

As much as I want to hate you for everything you did to me I can’t. I can’t seem to forget you even though you made me feel so worthless and unloveable. I guess I wasn’t even good enough to deserve a real goodbye. Or maybe you just aren’t as good of a person as I hoped you were. I hope it was worth it, because you’ll never find another like me.

ur Strange! we only met once but ur always in my dreams.. pretty sure we were friends in a past life? I don’t love u or anything dont worry i just think you’d be a cool person to hang out and do a puzzle with. i know a lake we can go swim in and ill light ur cigs for you, i think we will meet again one day and ill pretend that one night never happened and we can try again? i imagine ill run into u at the laundromat or corner store lol, good luck with ur music career or whatever that shit is

Why’d you take advantage of me? I was so scared and naïve i thought you cared. I’m so scared of “love” now

I really sorry for how things ended up just know that I love you and I would do anything to go back to how it was

Im going to put it in sky blue bc whenever i asked he would always say this color. but i love you sm. and idk if you’ll ever see this. but i do. and ik i make u get into petty arguments constantly but i’m trying now. and ik i should’ve been tried. and i wish i understood why i do the things i do. but i love you. and i really hope we don’t ever break up. bc i see my whole future with u. and ik were young and it’s a lot but i do i really do. bc no one else has made me happy the way u make me. and i’ve never cared more for someone than i care about u. and i tell u this all the time but rn ur mad at me so ion think it’ll matter. but i’m trying. i’m trying so hard. bc ik u don’t understand me but ion even understand me. and i really wish i did. and i’m so messed up. and maybe if certain things didn’t happen to me maybe i’d be even a little good enough for you. but that’s all i have to say. maybe i’ll come back and write some more. but i love you. and if u do see this i love u quesito❤️?

I’d like to think I don’t care anymore. But if I’m taking the time to write this, I still care, right?

if it's you writing to me, just send a text. so much was left unsaid and it's all confusing now. u know i won't be angry if you reach out.

I'm sorry I burdened you so much, I just want to stay up all night together again. I miss you, I love you

If I could turn back time to that summer we met, I would. Those memories are stuck with me, I hope we can make more memories soon, I know you may never know this exists but I miss you so much bunny. I love you more than anything in the whole multi verse♡ You'll always have a warm spot waiting for you. One day I hope I can see you and I hope we can do all those things we stayed up for hours talking about together.

It sucks to know I still love and care about you after you left. It’s been 3 years and I still can’t get you out of my mind

Devin, your family loves you and you know you are a great person. One day you’ll find the one and have a happy family too. And go to sleep. Or dont. Good night.

I'm happy with someone now. I feel like I moved on but all it would take is one text and I would be back to that girl that was crazy for you.

Should I have said more or less? Never got to tell you I liked your nails, never got to thank you for making school a little less lonely.

Thank you for all the good times but i really hate you for hurting me like that and you did it twice. i really loved you but you didnt love me and you are the reason i cant tell anyone else i love them.

i hope this girl treats you the same way i wanted to..you deserve all the happiness in the world..i love you:(

you left her for me but she still loves you the same way i love him. i never thought it was fair to her but now i dont think it's fair to you. i think you deserve better and i don't think i can be the person that you want me to be. because truthfully i'm still in love with him but i can't bring myself to break your heart the same way you did to her.

You may not be my first bf, but you're my first love. I hope one day I can forgive you for all the ways you've hurt me. Until then, I hurt myself to stay.

we’ve been on and off for 2 years and you’ve never changed. i know i shouldn’t but i love you and i always put your happiness in front of my own but you always take it for granted. we aren’t meant to be together but sometimes i wish it wasn’t that way. i wish you the best and i hope you’re happy.