Unsent messages to DEAN
From: ABC
To: dean
we are going on a walk tomorrow. oddly, you are the one who suggested it. it’s been 4 weeks, and i’m still not okay.
From: ABC
To: dean
I love you so much, i wish you could feel the same and come back, i miss you so fucking much. i know i fucked it all up the first time but ive realized what ive lost, im so sorry i love you.
From: ABC
To: dean
I saw a message on here to dean that said "you left me for your ex, fuck you." I hope it wasn't for you. I would hate to think that us coming back together hurt anyone else.
From: ABC
To: dean
you gave me the world. you made me so happy. and now i’m lost without you but i’ll never get you back, no matter how much i want you.
From: ABC
To: dean
hey. how are you today? how’s your day been? i’m hoping i’ll get to see you next week for christmas, i’m not too sure how i’ll cope with that one. last time i saw you since we broke up i got a little emotional to say the least. yeah, two weeks later, it still hurts. i thought we were forever. i thought we were going to work. i mean everyone did. i’m still going to fight for you, i’ll never stop. maybe that’s me being stupid. but i guess maybe one day it’ll pay off. maybe it’s the definition of right person, wrong time. you just came along in my life too quickly for us to have our happy ending. or who knows, maybe our happy ending isn’t with each other? maybe we will learn from our relationship and our next may get better for us. all i want is for you to be happy, and if that’s not with me, then i’m still happy for you. i love you, i shouldn’t but i still do. i don’t think i’ll actually stop.
From: ABC
To: dean
i doubt you’ll see this, but it’s your favourite colour. reminds me of the summer we spent together. reminds me of happiness, and good and light. reminds me of you. the person who i fell in love with. i miss you. all the time. but you don’t miss me, and that’s okay. i want you to be happy.
From: ABC
To: dean
it never happened, but i know that you catch yourself thinking about me the way i catch myself thinking about you. maybe one day we’ll meet again, for you now i wish you the best of luck. goodbye dean, it was fun while it lasted.
From: ABC
To: dean
The difficult thing is, we got along so well. You made so much sense to me, and at least it seemed I made so much sense to you. That’s why I loved spending time with you. It was just so EASY. I didn’t have to feel awkward, or uncomfortable. You got me. I guess it’s not just losing a significant other, a lover, whatever. It’s losing someone who truly understood me. I miss that. I miss hanging out with you, and talking to you. Even just laying together. Everything was just comfortable. It made me so happy.
From: ABC
To: dean
I guess you calling me your soulmate doesn't mean too much to you. I know we're not dating, I know I'm not entitled to your time. But I wanted to see you. And now it looks like I might not be able to. It breaks my heart. I guess I just want more than you do, or maybe you're not willing to give me that until we're in a relationship. But waiting for that hurts. I'll do it. But it hurts
From: ABC
To: dean
you weren't my first love but god you were close to it. i wish you would tell me things so i could help you and i wish you weren't a bitchass that didn't know how emotions worked with other people. i wish we were still together and god sometimes i wish my heart would just stop beating so hard when im in a room with you now that its over. its whatever tho i don't even know if you ever loved me back.
From: ABC
To: dean
Everytime I look at you, you make my heart flutter. I just want to be yours
From: ABC
To: dean
Sometimes I still think about you, I still love you, but not the you that you are now, y'know?
From: ABC
To: dean
I love every single bone in your body. I hope you understand that before u lose me.
From: ABC
To: dean
it wasn't a dream. your beard is so soft. I want to be with you. it was real.
From: ABC
To: dean
Did it mean anything when you told me we'd still be friends, or did you not want to hurt me?
From: ABC
To: dean
everytime ive ever told someone that i love them i have never meant it. until i met you.
From: ABC
To: dean
Im glad i can stand up for myself. Couldve stayed friends if u said sorry for going through my stuff
From: ABC
To: dean
it's almost my birthday and you're not here, so much for getting out of here together.
From: ABC
To: dean
I miss u, I wish u would just talk to me bc it feels like you’re pushing me away. I want it to be us
From: ABC
To: dean
I hate that I meant nothing to you in the end. I crave you, but it was all a performance.
From: ABC
To: dean
i fell in love with you the day i met you. i still love you. i hope you’re my forever.
From: ABC
To: dean
I love you so much. Why did you choose her over me? I gave you everything and you gave me the worst
From: ABC
To: dean
I hope you understand why I never contacted you, my last act of love to you is to leave.
From: ABC
To: dean
3 months of a situationship. then u chose her. i
love u more than u will ever know.
From: ABC
To: dean
Thank you for changing my life trajectory. I hope you know you're the best man I've ever met.
From: ABC
To: dean
I hope one day you realize I gave you the world, even when mine was crumbling, yet it wasn't enough
From: ABC
To: dean
When you look at that vinyl I hope you remember how much I cared.
From: ABC
To: dean
something in your eyes the other night made me realize how i’ve felt this whole time
From: ABC
To: dean
I miss you a whole lot, Ik you prolly don’t love me like I love you but my heart will go on doll
From: ABC
To: dean
i can't even remember anything about you other than the fact i used to love you
From: ABC
To: dean
I think about what you said on your birthday all the time. I wish I knew
From: ABC
To: dean
i wish i could jus forget you. you’re all i think about even though i’m with someone else
From: ABC
To: dean
i don’t know what to think you act like you care and then you don’t. i will always care about you.
From: ABC
To: dean
id do anything to be with you every second. i wish things were different. i love you.
