Unsent messages to CRISTIAN

you hurt me in more ways than I can say and I still have so much love for you. why?

I am no longer interested in getting to know people after you. not even as friends.

i just know that our story isn’t over. it was too real to fade that fast.

Please text me, I thought we're going well, I want to be with you

why did you hate being with me so much. all i ever wanted was to make you happy. what did i do wrong

I still miss you even after everything

I really like you…if only I would tell you and that day by the lake was my favorite memory

i have a mega crush on you

i think the reason i’m so convinced you’ll come back is because i’m scared of admitting you won’t.

i prayed for us to work. i feel unloved and ugly with you. i gave you everything.

i just wanted you. why didn’t you fight for me. I love you. please come back

I’m glad your my only friend at school..your talented and so nice..<3

I miss you more everyday.

my always, in all ways

have i become too hard to love?

I wish you could see yourself the way I see you.

autumn falls,
i miss you,
again.

some days i just wake up hoping that you came back

i wish our timing was better . i still love u forever

i like u silly .

did you feel how i felt? it was probably just all in my head

I hope I haven’t lost you

i hope in another life the distance won’t tear us apart…

I still miss you...

I love you soooo much
You are literally my soulmate
I can't belive I found you
Thank you for being in my life

I love your smile I wish that one day you would give me one, I love your eyes when the same time I wish that one day you would see me the same way, I wish that one day only one day you would feel something for me, I wish that one day love me

I still think about that kiss even though you said it was a mistake. That night I remember you said you just wanted to be with me, and maybe it was the drinks we’d had but I really wish it wasn’t. I liked you since we met but never said anything cause I didn’t know if you felt the same. At the wedding we went to when we wanted to go to the fire pit they had outside I was going to tell you how I felt. Instead when everyone went home and you stayed over I did nothing cause I was afraid. And now that I’m not I can’t tell you that I still like you because you don’t like me. Even though your kisses told me different that thanksgiving night.

Cómo entender todo el daño que me hiciste cuando te entregué todo de mi de verdad que no me explico por qué te portaste así, te deceo lo mejor apesar de todo, SUERTE, siempre te llevaré en mi corazón “A”

You were my first love, the first person to whom I said a sincere and deep "I love you" someone with whom I am excited and excited too much, I spoke with you daily, at school, recess and then by chat, we talked for hours on the phone, Literally on all issues, you understood me, you made me laugh and you were so stupidly perfect, but you were also the one who made me feel like a stupid, like my expectations were very high, I really believed that we would become something eternal, something worthy of a movie or a book, your departure hurt me too much, losing you, I missed you too much, always, I began to isolate myself from my family, I felt so tired and wanted to cry all the time, I could say that I cried a sea Every person I met after you compared them to you, of course no one was the same, no matter how much I wanted them to be.
It hurt too much that day that I told you I loved you, you just laughed and turned around, it was the most painful thing, seeing you go, I tried to make you stay, I really tried but it seems that it was not enough, I did not It was, I missed that friend so much that I always talked to, the one I used to count on, I only stayed with the pain and the memories, some time later you decided that I could be your game, so you came with the message that you missed me, I left you in sight but you kept insisting, until I answered that I also missed you, after getting my hopes up saying things like that we have to talk again and that we could get back what we did, you told me that all that had been a challenge, a stupid challenge that I believed myself and continued, then you just turned around again and left
Returning before all this I remember that you liked me, every day you threw a thousand hints that I dodged, being rude in some, I regret that, I remember the day I told you that I liked you, you were so impressed, I saw the illusion in your eyes and smile, you gave me that illusion.
If I could go back if I would do some different things, but not all because you taught me many things, love and all the pain that sometimes brings, you taught me to forgive and how cruel people can be, our story ends with you asking for nudes, and meeting again in high school, second year and the same classroom, curiously the coordinator sat us together, we became friends again but nothing like before, we did not even ask for our numbers, we used to listen to music, talk and from time to time remember the past , until the pandemic started and we were once again unknown
I wish you the best, that one day you find someone you don't cheat on, because yes, I still remember the stories you told me about your infidelity, the worst thing is that you did not feel any remorse and you did it again, that you have a lot of success and If one day we meet, I will smile at you but I will go, I will not repeat everything, after it cost me so much to overcome you, I will not let you come in and collapse everything in your path like a hurricane or tornado, in spite of everything thank you

why didn’t you text me after ur friend blocked me if u knew they lied. u broke my heart. i still love you

I love you more than you could ever begin to imagine. Losing you was so painful and i haven’t been able to let go of what i lost since. You were my person. My other half. But you lost feelings and i didn’t. So i’m stuck here wondering what i did to lose such a wonderful/ amazing and kind boy like you. i’ll love you forever sweet boy...

Odio el hecho que por más daño que me hiciste no soy capaz de tratarte como lo que en verdad eres ,no pienso ser tu y espero que nunca te compares conmigo como lo hacías

Love u, I really love you but ...Why do you have a son ??? I can't be in a relationship with someone with a child. I want to start a family with you , having that new experience together but you already had it.
I don't imagine myself being a stepmother. Don't know what to do. Fuck u.

We were both kids but you knew what you did. You are a sick, dark and twisted. I hope you know you ruined my life. What you did to me was unforgivable. I still remember, your breath running down my neck, your tight grip on my wrists and thighs, you forcing me onto you. I've been so fucked up lately, the thought never goes away. My school grades and attendance are so fucking low and ive been so depressed replaying it in my head thinking everything that happened was my fault. I've fallen through a deep dark hole into a deep dark place you can't even imagine. I hope you have fun living your life knowing that i never got served justice and you ruined my life you fucking sicko. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCKJ YPUE FFUU)(FREjzga

I love you so much. But it’s time to say goodbye. I haven’t found the true definition of love yet nor have i lived it. You’ve showed me that no boy is worth running to, maybe a little jog is okay but not too fast otherwise your’ll be tired of everything. I hate having to see you at school with her. I love snapping you! I honestly do but i have to live with the fact that you snap so many other girls. Sending the same silly snaps or even funnier ones to them. God it hurts. I wish you were mine. But your unhealthy for me. I’m slowly going to let you go :) I don’t deserve you but your draining me...

i am so so sorry, you liked me, i didn’t like you back. we used to be so close i feel more bad every single day

you were my first real love, i trusted you with everything and you were my escape. for 4 years i was silent with the feelings i had for you, and then i just moved on, but when i moved on you finally said something. i was happy with the boy i am in love with today, you took advantage of me in a dark space and i am never letting my guard down around you.

do you ever wonder how many times I've tried to say something to you but never had the right words? I definitely wonder that about you. I wish I could go back to when things weren't uncomfortable between us. I'm sorry things ended so suddenly, I never really gave you a proper explanation. i told them what I could never tell you back then, which is why they're so mean to you. if it helps, id barely call them friends anymore. I hope you're doing okay and please check up on me again like you did before. I'll always be more than happy to have a conversation with you.

i’d be yours if you asked this time. i’d say yes in a heartbeat, but you don't see me that way anymore.

i miss you and i just want to tell you how much u mean to me and i truly do care for u even though i am bad at showing it.i love u

Hey! Si me hubieras dicho desde el principio que no me enomarara de ti, me hubieras dicho, no era tan difícil, no? Supongo que fue mi culpa después de todo, es muy difícil ser tu amigo y verte de pareja con mi amiga, solamente quiero dejar de ser tu amiga, pero soy tan cobarde que no puedo decírtelo a la cara de cuán enamorada estaba de ti, estaba, estoy intentando olvidarte y con esto escrito dejaré a mis sentimientos contigo. :(

Despite everything you did to me I still miss you and I'll always love you. You haunt all of my ,,what if"s...

Te amo muchísimo más de lo que quiero admitir. Nunca podré volver a amar a alguien así de real. Espero que guardes bien el trocito que te llevaste de mí cuando me dejaste el corazón hecho trizas.

It’s 2am and I’m here typing this. If by any chance you’re seeing this, I just wanted to say everything still hurts. But our endings don’t define us. I hope we can spark up our friendship again, because you’re wonderful. I’m here for you too, always and forever.

Te odio y te quiero te echo de menos, tus besos, como te acercabas a abrazarme, tu amor, o lo que me hiciste creer que era amor...aun pienso en ti y eso me rompe en mil. Lo que pudimos ser y como terminó solo quiero olvidarte. N

I rlly like u and it scares me, but I hope we can continue this connection. You’ve changed my life for the better.

I know that we´ll never be together, but for some reason I´m still thinking that I have a fucking chance.

Te amo, son unos palabras que no puedo decirte porque soy insegura, quiero estar a tu lado, quiero que me abraces y me digas que todo va a estar bien, pero me odio tanto, pero tanto que simplemente no quiero que veas la persona que soy. Estas siempre en corazón realmente te quiero, y me gustaría poder decírtelo

I should've tried more to communicate with you. instead I let you think that everything was okay when it wasn't, and that's on me. I miss being friends and I miss when I wasn't uncomfortable to be around you. thank you for checking up on me, it was a great excuse to talk to you. I wish it would happen more often.

Even though we didn’t get as far I want you to know that I have hope for us in the future. I love you so much. I’ll wait for you my love so for now go be happy that’s all I wanted for u.