Unsent Messages

You were my first love, the first person to whom I said a sincere and deep "I love you" someone with whom I am excited and excited too much, I spoke with you daily, at school, recess and then by chat, we talked for hours on the phone, Literally on all issues, you understood me, you made me laugh and you were so stupidly perfect, but you were also the one who made me feel like a stupid, like my expectations were very high, I really believed that we would become something eternal, something worthy of a movie or a book, your departure hurt me too much, losing you, I missed you too much, always, I began to isolate myself from my family, I felt so tired and wanted to cry all the time, I could say that I cried a sea Every person I met after you compared them to you, of course no one was the same, no matter how much I wanted them to be.
It hurt too much that day that I told you I loved you, you just laughed and turned around, it was the most painful thing, seeing you go, I tried to make you stay, I really tried but it seems that it was not enough, I did not It was, I missed that friend so much that I always talked to, the one I used to count on, I only stayed with the pain and the memories, some time later you decided that I could be your game, so you came with the message that you missed me, I left you in sight but you kept insisting, until I answered that I also missed you, after getting my hopes up saying things like that we have to talk again and that we could get back what we did, you told me that all that had been a challenge, a stupid challenge that I believed myself and continued, then you just turned around again and left
Returning before all this I remember that you liked me, every day you threw a thousand hints that I dodged, being rude in some, I regret that, I remember the day I told you that I liked you, you were so impressed, I saw the illusion in your eyes and smile, you gave me that illusion.
If I could go back if I would do some different things, but not all because you taught me many things, love and all the pain that sometimes brings, you taught me to forgive and how cruel people can be, our story ends with you asking for nudes, and meeting again in high school, second year and the same classroom, curiously the coordinator sat us together, we became friends again but nothing like before, we did not even ask for our numbers, we used to listen to music, talk and from time to time remember the past , until the pandemic started and we were once again unknown
I wish you the best, that one day you find someone you don't cheat on, because yes, I still remember the stories you told me about your infidelity, the worst thing is that you did not feel any remorse and you did it again, that you have a lot of success and If one day we meet, I will smile at you but I will go, I will not repeat everything, after it cost me so much to overcome you, I will not let you come in and collapse everything in your path like a hurricane or tornado, in spite of everything thank you