Unsent messages to CLAY
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: September 4, 2024, 9:03 pm UTC
i still think about you a lot. watching you but never reaching out-
its better for us
love you????❤️
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: August 29, 2024, 3:37 am UTC
I don't miss you, I miss the version of you I told myself was real.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: August 21, 2024, 6:26 am UTC
I hope you can move on without looking back. I just want the best for you even if it hurts me.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: July 23, 2024, 12:41 am UTC
If only our differences never stopped you frm pursuing me… I’ll wait forever for you
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: June 25, 2024, 4:43 am UTC
i started to like you more than i should have
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: June 21, 2024, 8:13 am UTC
i hope that was just jokes today, i really thought something was blooming. let’s move on together!
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: June 12, 2024, 3:06 am UTC
I’m sorry for how I hurt you. You always deserved better than me
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: May 6, 2024, 4:06 am UTC
I think you might be the death of me, one way or another. I love you though, even if it kills me.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: March 11, 2024, 1:09 pm UTC
You drive me crazy, I know I used to drive you crazy, don’t you want to do something about it
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: February 13, 2024, 3:06 pm UTC
Thank you so much for being you, you fixed the part of me I thought was unfixable
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: January 26, 2024, 9:59 pm UTC
I miss you so much it hurts. You moved on and I’m happy for you. She’s so lucky…
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: December 20, 2023, 4:50 am UTC
I know we’ve both moved on but just know I’ll always love you more than anything<3
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: November 6, 2023, 11:39 pm UTC
Sometimes when I'm alone at night I pray that you still love me
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: November 4, 2023, 12:32 am UTC
I miss you. I wish we could talk. I’m sorry for everything.
I love you still
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: November 3, 2023, 8:42 pm UTC
i listened to you talk about things you loved more than me & i never complained
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: October 30, 2023, 11:45 pm UTC
i don’t believe i’m yours. convince me, please.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: October 30, 2023, 12:18 pm UTC
you make my heart feel warm whenever I think it’s frozen
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: October 13, 2023, 4:40 am UTC
I wish I was enough to be an easy choice for you. I’m sorry I waited too long
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: October 10, 2023, 11:08 am UTC
I will try to get better but please don’t go.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: September 29, 2023, 3:55 am UTC
I wish I agreed to being more than friends
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: September 24, 2023, 9:51 pm UTC
Sometimes i wish you were in love with me
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: August 30, 2023, 12:51 am UTC
I wish that i never met you, you hurt me so much.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: January 13, 2021, 12:28 am UTC
you've saved me in more ways than one. i only wish that you could see the impact you've had on my life. i think ill always love you which scares me. because i know you'll never love me back
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: January 12, 2021, 7:59 am UTC
I screamed at myself in the mirror. I hate what I've become. It's your fault and you don't care one bit.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: January 3, 2021, 6:56 pm UTC
i am sorry. i’ve ruined it. i wish i wasn’t so insecure. really. i wish i could go back in time. you are truly a good person. and i know you’re done with me. i know you’re now in love with her but sometimes i still long for you. i seek your attention. i crave it. i want you to kiss me. i wish i didn’t push you away because now you’re all i want and it destroys me. i was too prideful. sometimes i catch you looking at me. do you still think about me the way i think about you? i wish you would but i need to be a good person. for once. i need to let you live your life, i need to let you be happy without me. i will stop bothering you with my stares and my envy. but i will never get over you because in one way or the other, i will always love you.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: January 2, 2021, 8:28 pm UTC
You know I loved you then, so why didn’t you tell me it back? You only tell me now? When I’ve already moved on.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: January 1, 2021, 2:10 am UTC
I still want you,that’s how it’s always been but what can I do now. The distractions are keeping me sane ...after all it’s all I have.I see you doing better, keep it up love.I’m so proud of you
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: December 26, 2020, 5:53 am UTC
i miss you every single day. do you remember the day at the fair when you won me the stupid pink fucking fish? it was so cliche, but i still have the photos. i wish you were still here with me, but ultimately i know you're in a better place. i just wish there was something i could've said to make you stay here with me. clay, i am so sorry i didn't do enough. i'm sorry i couldn't see you were hurting. please remember i love you with everything in my body. just keep swimming, right? i'll always for you.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: December 20, 2020, 7:56 am UTC
standing at your truck window talking it felt like the summer again, seeing you smile and shake your head when you laughed, it was almost like nothing had changed. and it made me miss you all over again
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: December 16, 2020, 7:36 am UTC
How are you going to say fuck me when it was you who left. I tried to fix things but you decided to walk away anyways and ran to the girl you swore you didn’t like.I would’ve done anything for you.I tried to push you to be a better man and you folded on me.Don’t blame me and get angry at me for YOUR decision for the way YOU ended things.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: December 12, 2020, 1:32 pm UTC
I am beyond grateful I found you. I miss you so, so much. Please, take care of yourself. I wish you a bright future.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: December 11, 2020, 2:37 am UTC
You know the reason you bother and annoy me so much is that you're a dick. You bring up all these topics on me to roast me for but I can't even think of one. Do you know why because I don't notice your flaws. Your flaws are just another great thing about you. The one thing I hate is I can't stop caring about how you feel you and I don't even pay attention to how I feel anymore. And It's just sad that you wouldn't be there with me through bad and good. But I'm not finished yet you think that your my first real love but your not Micah is. She has been there for me no matter what I have never loved someone more than I do Micah I would take 100 bullets for that girl. And she would do the same for me but you're over here acting like you can just squeeze yourself into my life and act like your meant to be there like you were always meant to be there well guess what you're already past halfway of being out of my life. I hate how I can still care for you even though you said those things. You are manipulated and unbelievable but you know what I'm here for you know matter what. Nobody see's why I deal with your bullshit and neither do I and you might think this is harsh but maybe reread what you said about me and maybe you will actually us your brain and think twice. At this point I don't even know if you have a heart or emotions anymore it's like you don't care about anything. The second I stopped texting and calling first oh look we stopped talking in general because you can't learn to actually start a conversation or text first. I feel like I'm putting all the work into this relationship and I know all your going to say when you hear this is sorry. I'm so... sorry like usual and it's annoying you don't act like you are. And that's what I have to say about you.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: December 8, 2020, 5:48 am UTC
In the end: you'll always be the guy I wait for, no matter how much it breaks me, you have a piece of me
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: December 7, 2020, 7:06 am UTC
I loved you so much throughout elementary school and if we talked again it would be the same I thought you were the best person in the world lyy
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: December 7, 2020, 6:51 am UTC
i hope you find someone who will give you the love you deserve. your smile lights up a room and i pray that it never fades.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: December 6, 2020, 12:39 am UTC
explain to me how i'm supposed to live my life normally knowing you're living yours with some other girl that isn't me?
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: November 23, 2020, 4:32 am UTC
I just want you to be happy and if it's not with me, that's okay too. Go be happy:) I'm glad to have spent the time i did with you.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: November 22, 2020, 1:33 pm UTC
hey, i really miss you. i wish we would text. i just cant do this without you. its hard. please, i miss you. i want to hear you laugh again. it made me so happy. i need you
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: November 21, 2020, 12:33 am UTC
i never meant to leave without saying goodbye. i’m so sorry. please take care of yourself the way you took care of me. thank you first love. i hope you don’t hate me. i don’t hate you.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: November 20, 2020, 5:50 am UTC
i miss the days when all i needed was you. sometimes when i’m miserable, i put on your jumper. to this day it still makes me feel safe.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: November 9, 2020, 10:39 pm UTC
Although we’re getting married in less than a month. I wonder if I’ll live a miserable life because all I’ve ever known in this relationship is the permanent damage you caused In my heart
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: November 2, 2020, 5:50 pm UTC
People change for who they want to even if they are not ready. People will fight for who they really want to even to the last second left. You couldn't do that for me, but it's okay... Someone else will
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: October 1, 2020, 7:12 am UTC
I thought of you tonight as I do most nights. I dream of memories that never happened in place we never went. Do you think of me from time to time?
I hope so.
From: ABC
To: clay
Date: October 1, 2020, 6:27 am UTC
some days i really hate your ass, and then others i miss you like hell. today was one of those days where i missed you. this whole week really. i’ve got shit going on and in the back of my mind i miss having you in my corner. we’re coming up on a year of basically everything. i cant fucking believe that. a year ago we were talking about all the things we were gonna do, all the movies, all the games i’d be at, days on the boat, days in the woods, and homecoming. a year since we hung out for real for the first time. and look at us now. not even speaking to each other. god dammit. i still can’t quite wrap my head around all of this. i thought it was going to be you. is my name still emmy in your phone? god i hate you sometimes, and this is one of those times.
