i am sorry. i’ve ruined it. i wish i wasn’t so insecure. really. i wish i could go back in time. you are truly a good person. and i know you’re done with me. i know you’re now in love with her but sometimes i still long for you. i seek your attention. i crave it. i want you to kiss me. i wish i didn’t push you away because now you’re all i want and it destroys me. i was too prideful. sometimes i catch you looking at me. do you still think about me the way i think about you? i wish you would but i need to be a good person. for once. i need to let you live your life, i need to let you be happy without me. i will stop bothering you with my stares and my envy. but i will never get over you because in one way or the other, i will always love you.
